~Deep Below the Surface~ (Sebastian x Siren reader)

Feelings - chapter 20

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I had eventually made it back to my cave after slithering and pausing to go into water for about an hour. During the hour I'd spent doing that I thought of how Sebastian called me honey.

I was so confused with my feelings. I hated feeling so vulnerable to just his words. I couldn't tell him anytime soon cause I didn't want to ruin our friendship with these dumb emotions.

I was starting to feel... Sick with my emotions, like I couldn't stand them yet had to put up with them. I also felt physically sick. I was never truly aware of most emotions and the physical affects mental health had.

I just decided to go back to my cave without visiting Sebastian. On the way I ran into Phoenix. It was like her senses kicked in and she knew something was wrong with me.

"Are you alright?" Was the first thing she asked when she noticed how fast I was going. I paused and just decided to spill. "Well, I don't know anymore" I started as I coiled my tail around itself to make a base for me to somewhat sit on.

"Why might that be?" She asked. She was seemingly cleaning her harpoon gun. "U-Uh I'm not really sure how to explain it." I replied, trying to think of how to reply to the question.

"Well I've been having these... Feelings for Sebastian lately. I don't know why I feel like this" I said. She hummed slightly in response while seemingly coming up with a response.

"What kind of feelings?" She asked. "When I'm around him I get this fuzzy feeling inside and I want to be close to him, more so than I already am." I explained.

Her eyebrows seemed to ever so slightly raise in what seemed to be surprise. "That sounds like your in love." She said, while shifting her harpoon around on her lap.

"What?" I simply asked. I had no clue what 'love' was. She seemed surprised by the fact I didn't know what love was. "Oh."

She seemed to be trying to come up with a way to explain whatever love was to me.

(Time skip brought to you by the author crying over dropping her ice cream on her chest.)

After Phoenix had managed to explain what love was me, I was flabbergasted that somehow I'd managed to fall in love with Sebastian of all people.

I was processing when she seemed to notice my surprise. "Did you really not know what love was?" She asked which got a small nod out of me. I just decided to head out to my cave.

Me and Phoenix said our goodbyes and went our seperate ways. She was so nice to me for whatever reason.

Once I was back in my cave I now had something to think about for a while. I couldn't explain my love for Sebastian if I wanted to. I didn't want to ruin our friendship with this so I decided to keep my love to myself.

I was taking the knowledge that I loved him to the grave, no matter how much I wanted to get close to him or how much I wanted to hug him, I was taking this to the grave.

I was hanging out in my cave when I heard the water splash slightly and I spun around. Phoenix was poking out from the hole. "Uh- hi?" She hesitantly said.

An awkward silence ensued. "Hi." I simply replied. She pulled herself up onto the land and seemed to adjust her gear slightly. We just stared at each other.

"You good?" She asked while I simply nodded in response. Eventually she just slipped back out the hole and vanished.

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End of chapter 20
Hope you little freaks enjoyed this chapter.

I have a question that I'd want a response to which why I'm separating this from the rest.

Have ANY of you seen Nerdy Prudes must Die? If so I wanna know your opinion on it.

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