~Deep Below the Surface~ (Sebastian x Siren reader)

PTSD - chapter 23

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I had recently been around Sebastian more than before, and during that time I noticed some... Habits he seemed to have.

He was never letting the Expendables climb him anymore and was starting to be more aggressive and distant from them. It made me worry a little.

I'd already seen him shoot about twenty of them in the face. I would of brushed it off but he also seemed to be a little less... How do I put this? Careful around me.

He was letting me actually initiate hugs and sometimes if I was lucky he'd let me hug him from behind. He was a lot more... Attached than before he'd seen me in chains.

I wasn't used to seeing him actually be affectionate with me, but I wasn't closed off from it. Things seemed less tense between us, even if neither of us have talked about the kiss we shared.

One day I'd managed my way to sneak up on him again, which I hadn't done in a while. It wasn't on purpose but when I tapped him on the shoulder his whole body jerked and he spun around like he was ready to swing at me.

He stopped before he actually did though. We both just kinda stared at each other after that. I was a little concerned on where that reaction came from. I would of asked Phoenix about it but she was busy.

I eventually just brushed it off we him being jumpy. I didn't know much about his backstory. I thought he was just a siren like myself, I hadn't ever asked if he actually was because I thought of that as rude.

The affectionate behavior was nice to receive from somebody down in this shit hole. I didn't wanna pry into his personal life. It seemed rude to do so.

I had also recently been seeing that some familiar Expendables, a lot of which I'd seen die before, were reappearing and it was kinda throwing me off.

One of them also tried to throw a rock at me a few days ago and I still haven't let go of it. Right now though, I was sitting in my cave on the small blanket I'd found.

It was cold, as in freezingly cold. Even in the cramped and stuffy cave it was freezing. I would of gone back into the water, but if reached a hand to check it's temperature and it was colder than the air around me.

I was quite literally freezing up on land so I had to torment myself with going in the water a few times to rehydrate my scales. I hadn't ever been in such a cold environment so I wasn't exactly taking it too well.

I eventually just decided to look for some fish to go rabid on. On my way I swam under an unstable looking roof and had this unsettling feeling in my gut.

It creeked suddenly above me and I literally balled up like I had expected it. I wasn't sure why I reacted like that, but I just ignored it.

Eventually after swimming through the cold ass water I found a fish and tore into the thing like a wild animal. After I'd devoured the fish I found my way to Sebastian's shop and settled in there for a few hours. He let me snuggle into him since I wasn't used to the cold.

I was still unsure if I wanted to tell him about my feelings just yet. At some point we started talking.

"Is there a particular reason your messing my hair like that?" He asked, I was twirling his hair on my finger. "No" I simply said back. Eventually Phoenix dropped by.

"Why are you two being gay?" She asked while setting down her harpoon gun. Sebastian just rolled his eyes slightly. My heart skipped a few beats as Sebastian rested his chin on top of my head.

He was such a sweetheart to me sometimes, I loved him.

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End of chapter 23
I'm running out of ideas and chapter names people. Help meee

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