When in Chelsea (Made in Chelsea Fan Fiction)

Home, The Dramatic Ballet and 'What the Hell is on Your Face?'

I scanned the room looking at everyone that was here and my eyes fell upon Stevie. The thing was that he was already staring at me so I couldn't get away from his gaze. My breath hitched in my throat as I looked at him. After a minute I broke eye contact and spun back around to see the siblings giving me pityful looks and I snapped, "Don't look at me like that." They awkwardly looked away and I sighed, "I'm sorry guys. I didn't mean to snap I just, don't know how I'm going to face him yet."

They nodded, understanding where I was coming from and after talking to each other for a while I wandered off and found myself standing at a table by my self. I took a champagne glass and took a sip. I was looking around until I heard a very recognisable voice say, "Hello Blue." I froze in my place and lowered my glass from my lips and turned around.

I kept a straight face plastered as I said, "Hello Stevie."

I turned around and he walked forwards to stand stand in front of me on the other side of the table. "It's been quite a while hasn't it Blue?" I placed my glass on the table and replied, "Please don't call me that Stevie." He nodded and looked down guiltily and said, "Look, I'm really sorry and I know that doesn't mean anything to you because you've always valued actions over words. You've ranted about it a lot. I just, the way we leaved things was horrible. I was drunk when I slept with that girl-" I cut his speech off and interrupted by saying, "You weren't drunk when you kissed Steph. I know that for a fact."

He sighed and ran a hand through his hair and said, "I know and I can't express how sorry I am about what I've done. I still love you and I'm not going to stop until you see that." Unlike the past my heart didn't skip but my breath still hitched because I hadn't expected him to say that I mean, it's been three moths.

I put a hand on my forehead and said, "Oh god Stevie. I-I had 3 months in Barbados to think about what happened and Stevie you know that I hate people that cheat. The same applies to you." I could feel water spring up in my eyes buy refused to let it fall and I could see that Stevie was close to crying to.

His brows furrowed and he asked, "So are you saying that you hate me?" I let out a shaky breath and said, "No, Stevie I don't hate you. I hate what you've done because if you didn't we would still be together and we would still be happy."

I wiped the tears from my eyes stopping them from falling and I continued by saying, "Listen Stevie. I'm not going to lie to you and say that we still have a chance because we don't. I'm not denying that there is still some feelings between us but I can't be with you again Stevie because I can never trust you again. At least not fully. "

Tears were starting to fall from his face and I said, "Please don't cry, I've always hated seeing you cry." He smiled slightly and wiped his tears away. "I do still love you Sam and I'm sorry that I've caused you so much pain." I felt a stray tear fall as I walked past him but before I could get far I felt his hand on my wrist and I turned around. He reached his hand out and brushed away the tear that had fallen. I looked at his face and studied how he'd changed properly.

He moved his hand back to his side and I smiled lightly while asking, "What the hell is on your face?" He let out a breathy chuckle and said, "I grew a beard, you don't like it?" I smiled and said, "Good bye Stevie." He let go of my wrist but not before saying, "It's not goodbye, It's a see you later." I laughed slightly and said, "You got that from John Q" He nodded and I walked away still wiping my tears. I saw our friendship group watching us and I quickly made my way to the bathroom.

I stood in front of the mirror and thanked god that my make up hadn't smeared and that my eyes weren't red. I'd always considered that I had been an ugly crier.

I was washing my hands when I saw in the mirror that Steph had walked in. She froze for a moment before joining me. I quickly dried my hands and turned to face her knowing that she wanted to say something to me. She cleared her throat awkwardly and said, "Hey Sammy, how are you?" I smiled a tiny smile and said, "Please don't bother and just tell me what you want to say."

She nodded and said, "Look, I'm really sorry and I realise that you must be fed up with people saying that to you but I really am. When I kissed Stevie I didn't know that he was in a relationship and I didn't know about you even." I nodded and said, "I know Steph but the thing that really hurt me was the fact that when we became friends you still neglected to tell me about it."

"I know and I feel terrible about not telling you. I've apologized and I really hope that we can be friends again because I have really missed you."

I half smiled at her and said, "I do want to be friends with you again Steph because other than the thing with Stevie you have been a good friend to me but It's going to take time and I'm not going to be able to trust you fully for a while and I hope you can understand where I'm coming from."

She nodded once more and I walked out of the bathroom door, took another champagne glass and stood by myself until I saw Any walking over. I immediately perked up and smiled at him. We kissed each other on the cheeks, something we hadn't done since we met each other.

"Hiya Sammy. How're you doing? I saw you chatting to Stevie and I couldn't really read your emotions because one moment you were smiling but then crying." I smiled at his concern and said, "Yeah I'm OK Andy. I told him that we're not going to get back together and that it's going to take time to be around him and he told me that he still loves me."

Andy's eyes widened as he said, "Wow, OK. That's. Wow" I laughed at him not being able to string a sentence together but only because it was kind of cute.

"I know, quite intense. So, how are you and Jess? I've heard about your date," I asked him. He blushed lightly and said, "Yeah it's going pretty well I think but I'm getting quite a few mixed signals."

I nodded and said, "Well I'm sure that if she really likes you you'll do fine. Who could resist those innocent puppy dog eyes." I used my hand and squished his cheeks together. I took my hand away and laughed at his face and he said, "Puppy dog eyes? Innocent? I'll have you know I can be very rebellious!" I laughed at him and said, "Yeah and I'm a man who rides on a unicorn over rainbows!"

We laughed for a good few minutes until I saw Proudlock walking up. I paused awkwardly and Andy turned around to see him. He bent down to whisper and my ear and asked, "Do you want me to leave you guys alone for a moment?" I nodded at him in thanks and he gave me a quick smile and a cheeky wink before walking away.

I blushed lightly as he walked away and Proudlock came to a stop in front of me. I took an awkward sip from my champagne glass and cringed slightly. That's not as nice as I thought it was. I placed it down onto the bar and looked at Proudlock who was standing in front of me.

"Hi Sam," He told me. I think Proudlock is going to be one of the people I'm going to have trouble forgiving. "Hey Proudlock." I replied. "Look," He started, "I am really sorry about what happened. I have to admit that I knew about Steph and I told him to tell you or I would and then the night that he told me it was Sophie's party and you guys had that argument I found him the next morning with some blonde. I told him to tell you again or I would but he never did and by the time I was going to tell you it was too late and you had already been told by Lonan"

I felt like I had done a lot of head nodding today already so I just said, "I know that you didn't want any of this to happen but the fact that we had been around each other and you didn't tell me. I appreciate the fact that you actually gave Stevie to chance to tell me but it had been weeks since it happened and still nothing had happened and you still stood there, not telling me. I am open to forgiving you Proudlock but I'm telling you the same thing as Steph and that is that it's going to take time and that I won't be able to trust you fully for a long time."

He smiled at me and said, "Yes, of course. I understand completely, as long as we can somehow find our way back to being friends in the future and I like your lip piercing by the way." I laughed and swatted him away and said, "Get out of here." He saluted jokingly and walked away.

I shook my head and laughed at his childishness. I looked at the clock on the wall and saw that it was about 12:00 and I was really tired so decided to head home.