kpop idol - me

chpt 106) the conversation and its aftermath

Jungkook: okay what about your new crush?

me: who the hell are you talking about?

jungkook: i saw him messaging you and how your face lights up everytime.

me: who!!!!!

Jungkook:that reality show star who is a second hand version of me!

my jaw dropped

me: you are reading my messages!!! what! and no he is not - 

jungkook: oh please, everyone knows he is!!!!besides am i snooping and reading your messages, or are you just unaware that WHEN I AM SAT NEXT TO YOU AT A WEDDING, YOUR PHONE ISNT THAT HARD TO SEE

me: he is not my new crush. i am going on his show in a few days and we have just be talking about topics to speak about when recording.

Jungkook: how much is there to say on that and dont we normally sort that out through a manager

me: he asked for my number!!!! he got it through my friend! what the fuck are you talking about?!

jungkook: open your phone right now and lets see his last message. if it is about work, i will admit im wrong

i opened my phone and opened our chat. he had sent something 19 hours ago

me: here, 19 hours ago and it says "hope you land safely, let me know once you have arrived"

Jungkook: [sarcastically] that is very work related, isnt it?

me: he is just being nice !

i threw my phone onto the couch and signed

jungkook: what

me: you are doing it again. you are blaming me and guilting me for things you have no right to do so over. so what i am texting this guy. what if i even marry him. who gives a fuck if i have his children. if we die together. or if its harry. its your worst enemy. its the person you wish to see die the most. you would always go for those i detest before i could ever imagine doing something you wouldnt approve of.

Jungkook: look, han so hee was a one time thing. i shouldnt have chosen her for the music video-

me: you shouldnt have done a lot of things and you also never apologise

jungkook: i do so!

me: give me an example?!

Jungkook: when i apologised to jimin after stealing his clothes for a few months and not giving them back

me: no no. i meant over something serious and when it involves me. because as soon as i am involved you do not seem to care whether you are morally in the right or in the wrong. 

he clenched his jaw and rolled his eyes

jungkook: what else are you angry about? what else do you hate me for?

me: what the fuck?!!! you are the most frustrating person  i have ever had a conversation with!!! at least with other people i argue with we are working towards understanding each other, but you are worse than a brick wall!!!

Jungkook: what?!

me: I'm explaining things you have done which hurt me. you then say that me listing these repeated instances of bad behaviour are because i supposedly hate you. i dont hate you and i never could. 

jungkook: yeah right

he rolled his eyes again.

i dont know what to say anymore.