Consume • Marcus Baker

We know

3rd person pov

"I have to go" Gracie said sitting up once her phone went off, "Wait, what?" he asked looking at the girl who hurriedly sat up

"I have to go" she said putting her shoes on, "Where?" he asked sitting up

"Ginny" she said shortly before going out of his window leaving a confused Marcus behind

"Why'd you do it, mom?" Ginny asked once her and Gracie got into the car where their mom was, "Dont ask question you dont want the answers to"

"But we need to know" Gracie spoke up not looking at her, "For you, Gracie. For you, Ginny. For me. For my family. It wasn't something i did lightly. I'm not proud of how i got us here, but I'm proud i got us here. I never said i was a good person"

"Your our mom" Gracie said her voice breaking a little, "We need to believe you're a good person" Ginny added

"It would be nice, huh? If it was that simple, huh? You guys wanna know why i did it? I dont know what i ever felt i had another option" Georgia explained a little, "You could always not murder" Ginny shrugged as they both looked at her

"Not murdering is an option. Do you even feel remorse?" Ginny asked, "There was no one protecting me! No one. You have no idea how lucky the two of you are to have me. Id kill for either of you. Id actually kill for either of you. Let that sink it. That's not nothing. And i may be wrong, and i may be horrible, and i may be ugly and not worthy of anything. Fine, im not worthy of anything. But you two are. And it was up to me to make sure you guys got that. And i did that. Like it or not, i did that" Georgia spoke looking at the two of them, Georgia was almost crying as Ginny and Gracie had tears threatening to fall any second

"I took all the darkness, and i ate it. I became it, like fricking Bane. Okay, so that you, and you, my daughters, could live a good life. I kept you two safe. 'Cause i know damn well that hand didnt stop at the thigh, Gracie, and i spent my while damn childhood wishing my mom would stop that hand" Georgia said her voice breaking as a tear fell from Gracie's eye and Ginny grabbed her hand

"I've got a lot of demons. A lot of nightmares in my past. And i had a choice. I could live in the past, drown in it, feel it every day, be there. But you have to live for the future, cause the past'll eat you. There's more to life than that hell. You two and Austin, you're my future. You guys are what i live for. The second the test told me i was pregnant with Gracie ... I mean, i was 14, I was younger than you are right now. And then that strip turned pink in your fathers parents bathroom and everything had to change. I left the bathroom, i told your dad he was furious. I left the house i went on a walk, there were a group of kids. They were laughing, they were happy. They didnt have a care in the world. They wore nice clothes, and they were smiling, and they were loved. You could tell those kids were loves, they were taken care of. They were my age, but they were loved and i wasn't. And i decided right there none of my kids were ever gonna be like me, you all were gonna be like them. And i knew i would do anything, anything to make that happen. And it took a long time, and it wasn't easy, but i did it. I got you all on that bus with those kids. So you two can hate me, you can think I'm the worst mother in the entire world, and maybe i am, but i got you all on that bus. I did what i had to do, and id do it again. I have no remorse. Everything i do is for you guys and your brother. You dont trust me? Trust that. And i really do like the hair, the black looks good with the blonde, and the blue suits you"

"I dont hate you, mom" Gracie was the first to speak as Georgia turned towards the two, "Come here" she said as they leaned over and hugged her

"But you guys cant tell anyone" Georgia whispered breaking the hug, "You guys know that, right? Promise me"

The two sisters glanced at one another beofre looking back at their mom, "I promise" they said at the same time

"Us against the world, right?" Georgia asked as the two nodded, "Forever" Gracie smiled before turning as the door opened to reveal Austin

"Mom, if you're done borrowing my game, can i have it now?" he asked as Georgia smiled nodding as Gracie stepped out of the front seat putting it up and Ginny and Austin got in the back, before she sat back down and shut the door

"Trust is a tricky thing... because it goes both ways"

"We're in this together now."

"I can say i trust Ginny and Marcus to their face, but when i turn around my smile and heart drops. Everything goes back to the night i found out, the yelling, the the crying, the begging, the slapping. I love Ginny, but i hate her for what she did. I love Marcus, but i hate him for what he did. Marcus is a comfort i need, he knows that. He's lucky i even talk to him. I dont wanna sound cliché, but i need Marcus. As much as i hate to see that in movies, i need him. No matter what, i need him, might even want him. And in the end, ill get what i need, and want, no matter what"