Dear Author: Loving You In Secret (GxG)

Seen seventeen

Bella Chloe

Nagmamadali na sumakay ako sa sasakyan para puntahan ang hospital. I didn't have the chance na magpaalam kay Yas kaya naman I just dropped a message to her. Pagka-park ko ay dali-dali akong naglakad patungo sa room ni K.

I have a good feeling that she has either already visited K or is heading over there.

Please, sana maabutan ko siya. I really want to talk to her. I can't just ask for info from K because I'm kinda shy about it.

Once I am in front of the door, I take a deep breath and hold the door handle. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko. Bakit ba ako nakakaramdam ng kaba? If ever man na maabutan ko siya, mag-uusap lang naman kami, right? But the thing is, kakausapin niya kaya ako after what happened to our last encounter? 

Ano ba Bella! Kung saan-saan na nakarating isip mo. Papasok ka lang oh.

I closed my eyes tightly, this is not the time to hesitate, Bella. Just come in. I sighed and shook my head, wala na talaga akong pag-asa. I'm so out of it when it comes to Misha that I find myself chatting constantly to myself.

Hinigpitan ko ang pagkakahawak sa handle tsaka huminga ng malalim bago ito dahan-dahan na binuksan. I cracked it open just enough to look inside. I entered the room completely when I couldn't see Misha's forms.

I'm kinda disappointed to be honest, but nang makita ko na gising si K ay medyo na lift up ang mood ko.

She had a slight slouch and was gazing out the window. Natataranta na nilapitan ko ito nang marinig ko siya na parang umiiyak.

"K what happened?" I asked at hinawakan ito sa kamay.

Dahan-dahan naman siyang lumingon sa'kin. Her eyes soon fell onto mine, and she immediately began to cry once more. Mugto ang mga mata niya dahil sa kakaiyak. Lalo tuloy siyang naging mahina tignan.

"May masakit ba sayo? Tatawag lang ako ng doctor, hmm?" Tatalikod na sana ako nang hinigpitan niya ang pagkakahawak sa kamay ko.

"I-I'm a b-bad." She was crying so hard that she couldn't finish her thought.

"Relax, K. Take it slow and breathe." Marahan na tinapik ko ang kamay niya na nakahawak sa'kin.

Umiling lang ito tsaka binaling ang tingin sa window. "I don't deserve Misha." Mahina ngunit malinaw niyang sabi.

Again, hearing her name causes my heart to race. I'm not sure why it's reacting this way. Ang alam ko galit ako sa kaniya but my body is reacting the opposite.

She turned to face me and again hindi na naman nagpaawat ang luha niya kaya naman ay yumuko ako para bigyan siya ng yakap.

"B-bella." She muttered as she buried her face in my neck.

"Shhh." Pagtahan ko sa kaniya habang marahan na tinatapik ang likod niya.

Maybe there's something going on with them. Bestfriend fight? I hope na magka-ayos sila dahil makakasama kay K. 

"N-no." Panay lang ang pag-iyak niya. "I'm too selfish, Bella."

"No, you're not. Kung ano man ang 'di pagkakaintindihan niyo, maaayos niyo rin, hmm? Tahan na." I kissed her on the temple. I know it won't help, but at the very least it shows her that I'm always here for her.