Dear Author: Loving You In Secret (GxG)

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Bella Chloe

Hey Bella, you mentioned that you like anime, so I watched a few movies. I see why you and my best friend enjoy it so much. Even though they are only sketches, they nonetheless have life. They have the ability to influence your emotions. They're actually better than genuine humans.

I never thought na mag-e-effort siya alamin ang mga gusto ko. That's a plus point. Imagine someone endeavoring to enter your world. That gesture alone has the power to warm people's hearts. Hindi man natin i-vocal, but deep inside we're waiting for someone na kilalanin tayo na mas higit pa sa kilala natin ang sarili. It's scary, yes, that's for sure dahil binibigyan natin sila ng karapatan na saktan tayo. But who will be there if you fall apart if no one is behind you? Who will point you in the right direction and possibly even share their path with you? Thinking that no one is there for you is hella scary, yet it will help us to gain our self determination—just not forever. Not until death. We still need someone who will understand us.

Being single is enjoyable, there is less stress, and you don't have to adapt to anyone, but being in a relationship can expose you to a variety of emotions, particularly vulnerability to yourself.

So, yes, I don't fear falling. Instead of being guarded, I would rather feel all those emotions. I'll take it without reservation, even if it hurts. You only have one life to live, right? Then I might as well take use of everything that the world has to offer.

Naputol ang pag-iisip ko ng mag-send ulit siya ng text.

Nakakaiyak nga yung Your Lie in April. Kailangan ko ng happy pill. I need you.

"Ha ha funny, K. Manood ka ng comedy or just eat ice cream. Mahilig ka do'n, right?"

Isa 'yan sa mga napansin ko sa kaniya pag magkasama kami. Laging may ice cream. Kahit anong flavor nga kinakain basta daw ice cream.

But I prefer you.

"Dapat ba akong kiligin diyan?" Kumuha ako ng chips na nasa tabi ko habang panaka-naka naman tumitingin sa laptop ko.

Yes, please. Inuutusan kitang kiligin.

Natawa ako ng may pahabol pa siyang laughing emoji. Cute. Masakyan nga kalokohan niya.

"No need na, bago mo 'ko utusan kinilig na ako."

Kung makikita lang 'to ni Yas for sure makakatanggap ako ng walang katapusan na pang-aasar. Maski yata ako aasarin ko ang sarili ko.

That's good, at least hindi ako nag-iisa and it's not one-sided.

Wow, naisahan ako.

"Binabawi ko na baka kasi lumaki ang ulo mo."

I'm sorry, but you can't undo what you said. I've already absorbed it into my heart. Whsjhdj

Kumunot ang noo ko. Ano yan? Do I have to encode this? My gosh! Pinapahirapan niya talaga ako.

"What's that mean?"

I waited for her reply. Ang seconds naging minutes na umabot ng oras. I guess na-busy na siya. Nakasimangot na tinaob ko ang cellphone tsaka nag-focus sa laptop na kaharap ko.