"WRONG SNAPCHAT" |solby

Please Sam Don't Do It

TW anxiety and suicidal thoughts

Sam's pov
I can't tell colby how I really he needs me he has the most to carry but my anxiety is so high all the memories of my abuse then his and then colby almost dieing... Let's get to bed then what do you think he said.... Yeah but I have to put on new bandages on you colby these are wet now.. He just nodded and I got up he right after me we try off and he sits on the bed I take all the stuff I need and go to him I take his arm carefully and take the bandaids off the last part is stuck to his skin... Auuu he hisst a bit.. I'm sorry colby I said getting a cotton ball and make it wet with the peroxide and take that peace off slowly... My eyes begin to water it looks so bad 3 massiv lines  all over his under arm I clean it and wrap his arm up and the same with the other arm he must have so much pain it definitely looks like it it breaks my heart I finished and trow away the old stuff he goes and put on some sweatpants and a black shirt.. I do the same but with a baby blue sweater I lay down and he lays his head on my chest... You okay colbs.. Yeah I'm fine I put my hand on his back slowly running it up and down his body relaxed good night colbs.. Good night Sammy he said falling asleep soon.. Now I'm laying here with my thoughts am I pathetic for feeling this way I feel like I need help and someone to take care of me as well but of course colby needs it the most but where is the help for the people who have to deal with it as well but are not the victim you know what I mean.. I just silently cry feeling overwhelmed my heart is beating so fast and is the room getting smaller I have to go outside for a bit so I got out of colby's grip slowly sitting up I get my shoes on and my jacket I get my phone and I lighter just in case I need light or something I turnt for a sec and looked at colby I sigth and walked out I just began to walk around a bit thinking is he really what I want or can handle am I the person he needs I'm just as broken as him I just thought I can handle it and I'm much better now but all my pain and his pain how can one person heal 2 when one is broken himself after seeing him and all he went through all my memories come back I just realize I have bin over it I just pushed it down I don't know what to do I can't live like that he is broken im broken we both need help this will Never work I get deeper and deeper in thoughts not realizing I'm going deeper and deeper in the wood coming across this

I got in the bridge and sad down on the age looking down getting the feeling of "this is my way to happiness"

Colby's pov
I woke up from a horrible nightmare looking beside me to find nobody samm I called nothing SAMMMM I yelled wolkig in all rooms I began to panic a bit I go to my phone and text sam

Colby🖤 sam where are you
~Nothing ~
Colby🖤 sam please where you I'm worried
~nothing ~
Colby 🖤 sam please im scared
~nothing ~
Colby🖤 please sam please im so scared please tell me where you
I got dressed in 1 sec and got outside looking around I see fresh footprints and followed them for at least 20 min that's when my phone got off

Sam🌺 im okay colby we both will be happy soon

I'm heart was raising now reading this what is he saying

Colby, 🖤sam what do you mean, you scaring me where are you

I send the text and walked quicker I followed his footprints for 5 minutes more

Sam🌺 colby im more broken then you think and I can't help you I'm broken to but soon I will be happy

I was now running tears streaming down my face

Colby🖤 sam baby don't do anything stupid I need you, you are the only one why I'm still here I love you please don't leave me we can do it together I promise you

I was running until I saw a bridge in the distant with a figure on it, I run as fast as I could