"WRONG SNAPCHAT" |solby

Do You Wanne Sleep In My Bed

Colbys POV

I don't know why I did that I mean I have sam he does everything for me to feel better he is always there for me but I think I'm more broken then I thought,i don't know how to handle all my feeling and emotions and know I have done this and Sam is really mad or disappointed I can tell I never seen him like this I didn't mean to make him sad but I don't know what to do with my thoughts am I need help or do I need him I don't know I don't want to be dead my sometimes my whole body hurts that I can't control myself what do I do I can't just always run away from anything

Colby🐨 sam are you awake I know talking to me is the last thing you wanne do right now but I still wanted to say that I'm really really sorry that I made you sad and mad I wasn't thinking and couldn't control myself

Sam🐰 everything is okay colby go and get some sleep

Colby🐨 no sam it's not you know this and I know this you are never bin like this since I know you I know all the things you have done for me and I never forget that I know you do anything for me to help and wanne make me feel better but sometimes my whole body is screaming inside of my and my whole body hurts

Sam🐰 colby I know how this is feeling I had the exact same feelings but try to you know... It's NOT an option I'm sure you wanne live and I want you to live I know you are not ready for anything new or feelings and I understand this but I really really like you and I need you okay and I don't want to loose you no matter how long we are known each other

Colby🐨I-I don't know what to say I never new how you feel about me but I'm sure you know that I like you too I'm just weak and can't get up like you

Sam🐰 hey Cole Robert brock I will never hear this again no you are not you hear me you've been tru so much where other people had dead there and now your soul needs to heal

Colbx🐨 thank you Sam but how how can I get the pain away and feel better how

Sam's POV

I could hear colby cry in the living room I felt so bad for him

Sam🐰 try to trust me it's all it takes I help you if you let me you only have to try to trust me keep fighting your voices and feeling they can't win when you don't let them colby

I heart him cry harder

Sam🐰 do you wanne sleep in my bed colby?

Colby🐨 yes please

Sam🐰 okay come here love

I heard him get up and walked to the door he opens and closed it and standing there looking down
Come to me colby he laid on the bed he was stiff like bord and still sniffing I pulled him closer to me his back pressed against my chest I putt my arm around and tug his hand and rapped my thumb over his hand... Shh everything is going to okay colby I promise it gets easier trust me please let me help you okay you are stronger then you think I laid my head in his neck I feel him soften a bit what if I'm not strong enough he whisper.. Then there is me to help you no matter if we in a relationship or friendship or something I will help you because I really like you and you know I have never let you down as long as I know you right I ask he nodded and squeezed my hand.. You will be okay colby you been truh so much shit your heard ans soul needs time but you have too never give up think of thinks you will do in your life and how it will feel when you are happy your brain cab only win if you let him and no Matter what you think or wanne do tell me or text me don't listen to voices okay love.... Thank yoz Sammy you are the best person on this planet you are always there for me and I can't do anything to repay you.... First you don't have too do anything I do it because I want to and because you don't deserve any of this and it's not you fold okay and second you do thinks for me bevor you I was lonely sad and lost in my thoughts now I have you and I feel so much better I have some one to care about and help and I'm less lonely and I love all thinks we do together and I - I trailed off you what he ask i-i stopped I said he turnes around and looked at me stopped what I whispered I looked down and just pulled my slices up and show I'm my arm he looked at my scars he looked at my with tears in his eyes and hugged my I hugged back and we cried we just let all our emotions free and it's sounds so weird but it felt so good too can show emotions to someone you trust I pulled away and wiped his tears he looked at me... I'm so sorry sam that you had to go through all this alone and I'm so glad that you are still here he whispered making me smile a little and you promise me if you ever have this feeling again to doing this you talk to me first okay please I looked at him o-okay he said  we can do this together okay we have us and you could and can trust me I would never ever hurt you he smiled at me slightly now let's get some sleep okay I said pulling hair out of his face yeah but c-can I sleep behind you.. Of course you can if that makes you feel better I said so we switched places he wrapped his arm around me I cuttle closer too him he has his head in my neck I heart him sigth and smile good night colbs I whisper good night Sammy sam couldn't other then feel safe and warm inside he was sure that he loved colby but he knew that its not the time for colby