I tried to talk to Will about it but it's weird to talk about with your brother. I talked to Oaka instead and it was a little less awkward but I didn't really get anything helpful from it. I know about that stuff but I never thought it would happen to me and I don't know what I'm supposed to do. They both said I should tell Eleanor how I feel but I don't know how, and I'm afraid she'll think I'm gross or weird or at least it will definitely make her uncomfortable around me and then we'll act different around each other. What if she feels pressured to do it then I'll feel bad and it'll cause problems and what if we break up again and it's my fault? I feel so horrible. I shouldn't be feeling like this. Just because it's normal doesn't make it okay.
