One Wish - (Angst - Doc x Bdubs)

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A challenge from CloudWriterGrey ! I was given 10 minutes to write a prompt so it's a bit rushed but it was fun to do during my electro therapy again.

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TW: mentions of suicide

DOC POV-

How did I not see it coming? I should have seen the signs. The way he began talking about himself in the past tense. How he had given up his horses to Scar's care. How he had always talked about what might lie beyond life.

How his smile was always forced.

He had left me a letter saying that it wasn't my fault. That I shouldn't blame myself.

But I did.

I was supposed to be the one to protect him. To shield him from the pains of this world. To love him until he couldn't think of anything but me.

Yet I had failed.

I had watched his small frame step off the monolith, free falling to the ground below. He had told me he was too busy to hang out that day and that he wanted some space so he wouldn't be distracted. And I granted that simple request.

But when I received a text from him with the simple phrase "I'm sorry. I love you. Goodbye." my heart has dropped. Adrenaline burst through my body as I had launched myself from my villager trading hall and flew over the mountain separating us.

And that's when he stepped off.

I angled myself into a steep dive, the wind whipping the tears from my face as I prayed to a god I didn't believe in that I would make it. That I could save him.

To succeed would have meant to catch him, not listen to the sickening crush as bones shattered in his body.

To succeed would have meant to be holding him in my arms, whispering comforting things and that he would be alright. That we could get through this. Not holding his lifeless body as blood pooled around us.

I found the note clutched in his hand. My name carefully scrawled across the front, a small heart beside it.

I can't live without him. He was my everything, my light and sunshine.

I would do anything to bring him back. Anything. Even if it meant switching places with him. He deserved the world, not whatever hell he had been living in.

If I had one wish, I would have taken the pain from him.

Because I loved him.

But it's over. And I'll never be able to love Bdubs again.

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