The Shadow Of The Sun

Chapter 48

Wait. Does he know?

Me:
...no

Tj:
Then tell him

Me:
Yeah okay. Lemme see
to it.

Tj:
Yeah! He is a smart
kid unlike you.

Me:
Yeah yeah.

Tuesday, 11:45 P.M.

McDreamy

McDreamy:
Heyo! Wassup?

Me:
Nm. M at a part-time.

McDreamy:
I see. Any problems?

Me:
Nah. You tell?

McDreamy:
Nothing... I was just texting.

Me:
Ahh I see

McDreamy:
Are you busy?

Me:
Not at all. The store is
completely empty 😂

Incoming call : Hoseok
Accept / Decline

[Yup Yup]

[Wow you seem energetic]

[And you seem so
down. What happened?]

[Nothing...]

[Come on! You can say it to
me.]

[I just came to know
how bad of a boyfriend I am!]

[What?]

[Today, we were kind of
discussing about our partners.

And Tae kind of gave a full
list of what Kaylie likes and
dislikes. The matter of fact is
even Yoongi Hyung knew more
about Taejoon than what I know
about you.

I just realised... I love you
because I am selfish!]

[What?]

[I am dating you because
I feel good around you. And
because you make me feel
loved. I love you because
you love me. I love you
but I don't even know your
favorite color-]

[Every color. I like each color.
Now you know. That's it! It
was so simple Hobi, you don't
have to stress about these things.]

[I am scared...]

[Scared of me?]

[Scared that I love you but
what if I couldn't make
you feel loved?]

[I feel loved. I do-]

[That's because you are
so low maintenance. I
am not giving enough
efforts and even I can see it.]

[Lol Hobi. How can you
perceive my part and make
opinions? It's not at all about
what you do, it's all about
how you make me feel.

And I feel loved, cared for,
and also... important.

You are one of the few people
to whom I am important, not
because I am your need but
genuinely because you feel
for me. And that's all for me.
That means the world for me.]

[I told you, you are low
maintenance!]

[That's how I am.]

[The thing is... I know I love
you so much, there are times
when I look at your picture and
the universe falls away but...
promise me one thing.]

[What's it. If it's don't ever leave
me then I assure you I would never.]

[No. Promise me that if I can't love
you right you'll leave. No matter
how many times I've promised
to change things.

Don't stay with me because I
tell you everything you want
to hear, don't stay with me
because you're afraid that
you'll never find anyone else,
don't stay with me if I can't love
you the way you deserve to be
loved because I can guarantee you that you'll find someone who will!]

[I am afraid I cannot
promise this. No matter how
many times you push me away,
I'll pull you back because
I'm going to love you.
Don't you understand?

I'm here, and I'm not going
anywhere. I want to love you,
each and every piece of you.
I want you with your
imperfections as much as I
want you for you. And I'm always
going to want you, I'm always
going to be here loving you with
everything.

Do you get that Mr Jung Hoseok?
I love you and I am never gonna
leave you. I am gonna stick to
you like a leech and no matter how
much things get hard except... except
if you want me out of your life.

*Gulps* if you want that. I'll leave
quietly and won't disturb you.]

[No. I would never want you
out of my life. I need you YN...
More than you'll ever know,
you are my calm in this chaotic
world.]

[Aww then let's twerk! *giggles*]

[Haha sure.]

[But you know you kind of
scared me like fuck! I could
have pissed in my pants!]

[What? Hahaha. You are
old enough YN]

[I WAS SCARED!! Oh shit
I think I scared a customer.]

[Hahaha. You work, I'll talk
you later.]

[Yup. Bye and I love you and
I FEEL LOVED BY YOU
Wtf you make me do *giggles*]

[*Laughs* I love you too.]

Call ended

Wednesday, 7:45 A.M.

Tj

Tj:
DONT EVER LEAVE
HOSEOK!!

Me:
Lol what?

Tj:
Uk yesterday Yoongs and
his frnds were having a
discussion about their
partners and everyone was
talking the usual things.

And then there is this golden
man - Spidey. He gave such
a golden answer.

Me:
Lol how do you know?

Tj:
You know I am dating his
best friend. God, Yoongs was
so impressed and even I am.

Me:
What did he say?

Tj:
Wait I'll forward
the message.

Forwarded
She's deeper than anyone
else, and that's probably why
nobody gets her. She's a bit too
much for anyone, that's perhaps
the reason she's always alone.
She's more mature than anyone
else her age, maybe that's why
she understands what others can't.
But she wants to feel understood,
she doesn't want to be lonely
anymore, she wants to be normal
so that she can fit with others.
She wants to change herself
because she just wants to be loved.
And that's the saddest thing in
the world, because she's so
extraordinary, and there's no
one in the goddamn universe that
could be as much as her. But she
doesn't realize that, and
she blames herself every night
for not being ordinary. She hates
herself for being this unique
human being while I love her
for that.

Heyy?? Respond.

Are you crying? Aww 😂😂
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