HEART BEAT [discontinue]

Chapter 35

Chapter 35
Ayumi's POV

Here I am sipping on my lemonade while still thinking about what Selene have said earlier.

Alam ko may meaning ang sinabi niya. Well I am not stupid dahil alam kong dahil iyon kay Cade. I can still remember the things he said to me. He told me he feels safe around me and that I make him smile. And there I felt butterflies like an idiot.

Like a bad friend.

I know Selene likes Cade but here I am still getting close with him. And I think... I should stop myself already.

"Mukhang malalim iniisip mo ah?" napalingon naman ako kay Neil na kakarating lang at may dala-dala pang pagkain.

Umupo siya sa tabi ko at inabutan ako ng hotdog na nasa stick. And oo, bati na kami. It's not like we fought but we had a little misunderstanding the other day, that's all.

"Thanks." sagot ko. Napabuntong hininga naman ako, "Ewan ko ba. Naguguluhan ako sa sarili ko." sabi ko.

"What do you mean?" Neil asked. Nagkibit-balikat nalang ako at kumagat sa hotdog na hawak ko. "Come on you can trust me. Ano ba 'yun? I promise I won't say any more reckless things haha."

Napangiti naman ako sa sinabi niya. Well mukha namang natutunan na niya paano icontrol ang bibig niyang pasmado.

I sighed. "Okay so here's the thing. I'll give you a scenario. If ever uhm, you have a friend and that friend of yours told you that he likes somebody and asked you for help so he could get close to that girl he likes. You agreed but..." I'm hesitating to say it dahil guilty ako, tsk.

Neil raised his one brow, "But what?" he asked.

"But you ended up being the one close to the girl that your friend told you he likes. How would that make you feel?"

Napakagat ako sa labi ko. Obvious ba na sarili ko 'yung tinutukoy ko? Tsk.

"Well, I am an asshole for doing that. If a friend of mine likes someone and asked me for help so he could get close to that person, hell I won't dare to have interest on that person. That would be the worst thing I will ever do for my friend. Sabi nga nila, bro code." para akong nanlumo sa sinagot niya. Tama naman eh, I really am an asshole.

"Pero... paano kung, paano lang ha? Paano kung 'yung girl na mismo 'yung lumalapit sayo tapos siyempre ikaw napapalapit nadin sa kanya and other than that, she also tells you things that... make your heart flutter. Paano?"

I waited for Neil's answer. He just gave me a look before he smiled, "Then even before things get out of hand, ako na mismo ang lalayo. Even if I suddenly feel something for her, I would let go and ofcourse, think of my dear friend. And just think about it, kapag ba sakin ginawa 'yon, ang maging close ang kaibigan ko sa babaeng gusto ko, Matutuwa ba ko? No. I will feel betrayed. I will feel hurt."

Napatikhom ako sa sinabi niya. Betrayal. 'Yun ang naiisip ko ngayon. Have I been betraying Selene for being the one close to Cade and for hearing those fluttering words from him? It should be Selene. Si Selene dapat ang sinasabihan niya ng mga 'yon hindi ako. Si Selene dapat ang palagi niyang inaasar at kinakausap at sinasamahan hindi ako.