❝ I don't think I can hold on anymore. ❞
He hated seeing her being in pain.
This story unfolds the tragic tale about an ill tomboy falling for her goody-two-shoes tutor. She knew too little about what unrequited love could do to her.
━ ❍ mental dis...
it will never be enough to write down how much i am grateful to each and all of you guys for making it through those emo and hellish chapters 😔 IT HAD BEEN A LONG ASS RIDE AND IM SO THANKFUL YOU GUYS WERE NOT TIRED AND STILL READING LIKE ?????? i love you mfs LEMME JUST DELIVER A HUG TO WHEREVER U GUYS R LIVING off topic but i feel like a proud mom to end this story HAH 😩 i will be moving my updates to MELTING hehe and spoiler: jake plays a huge role in that story as well 😏the updates for it will begin tmr ehe
EXPLANATION :
I don't really think an explanation is needed for Defiantly Yours??? It's really normalized and doesn't have any fantasy themes BUT IF Y'ALL WNA ASK ME SMTH THEN pls go ahead i will try to reply here once i'm free heh
abt those make out scenes, i wrote it bcuz jangmi was turning 18 in a few days so i hope that solves y'alls confusion? JAKE IS 21 AND SHES 18 SO YEAAA but no nasty smuts ffs ☠️ ALSO, this is not a teacher-student type of a fanfic bcuz im not comfy by such concept Well let's just put that Jaeyun's like a senior who's tutoring Jangmi since they don't have much of an age difference anyways
Oh and yea btw there are so many disorders mentioned in this book(i apologize if i made any of y'all uncomfy while reading those my ass forgot to put tw for a lotta times sooo) AND FOR THOSE WHO ARE CONFUSED, Jangmi's lung cancer used to be imaginary bcuz of her psychosomatic disorder but it turned real bcuz she wished for it to be real badly and the side effects just appeared after chapter 039 when jake called out yuri; the reason why jangmi wanted to disappear even more SO YEA it didn't appear when she fainted in chapter 037 at first bcuz it wasn't that severe yet then BUT WHEN SHE DIDN'T WNA DIE ANYMORE, it was already too late ig :// she already had the physical disease and sadly passed away at chapter 049
let me just briefly explain abt the disorders for those who r still confused ( idk them THAT much as well so im sorry in advance )
PTSD( Post Traumatic Stress Disorder ) is known to be as a trauma and stress-related disorder that may develop after exposure to an event or ordeal in which death or severe physical harm occurred or was threatened. Like traumatized?? I guess so. It's like someone can't move on from a scary experience that is haunting them for life.
Psychosomatic disorder has different types, I think?? I researched for a bit on google and it said that it depends on various conditions. There are those who overthinks a lot, fearing that they might die when they just have a small disease. And then are some people like Jangmi who just want to be killed by a disease so bad so they start having physical symptoms and suffer themselves to death. I've watched about it once in the kdrama My Golden Life but i'm not a master at knowing it well.
Schizophrenia is a mental disorder where your mind tricks you into seeing/hearing hallucinations or making up things that aren't real. It really effects your mind to think negatively(for example; you deserve to die etc) Or maybe overthink too much...? Not certain.
i apologize if i wrongly wrote the disorders !! this is just a ff so things don't rly make sense... yea dont take it too seriously guys ( just imagine that those diseases are fictional if i wrongly addressed them to masterminds who are reading this )
HOW I CAME UP WITH THIS BOOK :
Blame 0X1=LOVESONG for the sad ending y'all ( top-tier song btw ) 😓 i was reading the song lyrics and i suddenly turned emo 🖤✒️🥀💣🔪✖️🕷🕸🔗 JK NO BUT if u read them carefully, it's like a depressed teenager's life story NO JOKE i legit vented to my fris abt that and CAME UP W AN INDEA FOR THIS BOOK OK
STORY'S INSPIRATION BY :
I LEGIT GOT INSPIRED BY A LOT OF DRAMAS FOR THIS BOOK TBH like two thai dramas ( My forever sunshine & The flow of love and desire ) & two korean dramas ( Doom at your service & The king's affection ) I'd love to recommend them !! DAYS was so depressing but i still loved it heh AND MY FOREVER SUNSHINE WAS SO FUNNY LMAO i got the characteristics inspired from it
SINCERE APOLOGY :
It's my first time writing a sad ending(???) YEA IK IT SUCKED BUT I WAS IN MY EMO ERA OKAY?? sorry my emo went out a lil too much THERE COULD'VE BEEN SO MANY MISTAKES I DIDNT BOTHER TO CHECK </3 i'm deeply sorry abt that AND SOME COMMENTS R SAYING THEY CRIED???? ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) mission accomplished ig JK let's be depressed tgt bffs
FINAL QUOTE :
For anyone who's having a hard time with mental health, i just want to say i'm so proud of u for making this far <3 You'll keep making me proud, right? Hang in there love :)) positivity will find a way to you one day and you'll get better soon I ASSURE U THAT ur sadness can't bully u forever trust me THERE WILL BE AN END TO IT and it'll have to make way for ur happiness to come. I LOVE YOU <33333
I actually wrote this book by the experiences from my friends. I have a lot of depressed friends and have lost a lot of people in my life :') well, not with death but they chose to die from my life and i had to eventually let them go Oh well but another lovely reminder that you are doing great sweet cheeks 𐐪₍ᐢ. ̫ .⑅ᐢ₎𐑂↝
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A different universe where Jake and Jangmi might have a happy ending <3
╔═══════════════╗ Thank you for reading ❛ Defiantly Yours ❜ ╚═══════════════╝
Kind Regards, Sandy 2022 ♡
LOVE MISSION is not the book 2 of DEFIANTLY YOURS but they have the same characters inside a different universe hehe <3 maybe i'll give jake and jangmi a happy ending in there...maybe ;)
this book will contain ✨️magical✨️ themes and curses like soulmate disorders but hohoho jake's character def gon b way different from defiantly yours
