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Chapter 88

Davina

His words constantly repeated in my mind.

" Consider yourself, dead to me " he said.

After out fight he had left his office, leaving me in the house. I had went to the spare bedroom, the one where I was originally put in, when first moving here. Everyone was confused, and worried about what had happened. I spent the rest of the day, not bothering eating or doing anything really. All I got was knocks on the door, asking if I was okay.

I wasn't, but I couldn't bare to let my family see such a thing. After the appointment, I was going to go back to New York with my parents after the appointment. The rest of the night, was just terrible. Non stop crying, feeling as if my heart was ripped out of my chest and stomped on. It was finally the morning of, I just wanted to get this shit over with.

I wasn't even sure, if Blaise had came home last night. Why did I care? I don't know. I guess I was dead to him. I then forced myself to get out of bed and to get ready. I made my way to Blaise's room reluctantly. I had to because, my clothes were still in his room.

I knocked, waiting a few moments I got no answer nor did I hear any movement. I opened the door, seeing the bed how him and I left it yesterday. Made and neat. I shook my head, finally getting out of my train of thoughts. Making my way towards the closet, I grabbed some undergarments, along with clothes. I was gonna have a maid, get my things ready while at the doctors.

After doing so, I take one quick glance at the room. All the memories, the scenes that were in this room. All the beautiful things, that connected. All tossed due to this child. I make my way out of the room, closing it behind me making my way back to the spare room I slept in the night before.

Finally reaching the room, I go inside closing the door making my towards the restroom. I set the clothes I selected on the sink, then turn on the expensive black and white marble shower on.

Finally, fixing the temperature to how I desire it too be. Undressing myself stepping out of my clothes, I step into the shower. The water then instantly hits my back, along with my face. This is what I needed, a cold shower. Finally calming my nerves, my tensed body now relaxed and at ease. I then let out a deep and tired sigh.

I then doing my basic shower routine, cleaning my body with nice scented soap. After doing so I wash my hair with my strawberry, scented shampoo and conditioner. After finishing doing everything, I turn off the shower grabbing a towel and step out carefully with the towel wrapped around my body. I grab the brush I left in one of the drawers, and begin to brush my hair out. I decided to put some products in, and leave it down today. I haven't done that in awhile. After brushing my hair, I dress myself getting into my my clothes along with putting on underwear and a bra.

After doing so, I clean up my mess tossing my dirty clothes into the laundry basket. Opening the door letting the cold air hit my face. I grab my makeup bag and decide to a natural look. Finally finishing getting ready, I check the time to see it was around two o'clock. I decide to finally leave the room facing everyone not bothering to talk.

I make my way downstairs, I then see my family sitting at the table laughing and talking while eating lunch. I did have to admit, the food smelt amazing. But, I didn't wanna eat and be questioned. I'd get something on the way. Everyone's head turned to me, there face then turning into a straight poker face or worried look.

I then roll my eyes, I'm guessing either my mother told them or something. " Who " I question leaning against the wall, crossing my arms. A familiar voice then, becomes closer as someone walks down the hallway. Everyone looks the way the voice is coming from, but Alejandro and Ella's eyes remain on me. That voice becomes more closer finally telling me who it was.