Wish i'd never wake up..wish I could stay asleep for days.. because honestly.. that's the only place I can meet you.
I'm sleeping more than usual.. just so I can spend more time with you. Even though I know it's not reality... it still feels like it is.
I think I'm aware of what you want.. I know you don't want to date me. I know you only want a one night stand.. and still. I can't turn away. I just can't walk away. Life feels uninteresting without you in it. It's just black and white.. but when you are near me..... everything is different. I don't even know what I want with these sentences. All I know..is that you took my heart..and you're probably not planning on giving it back in one piece.
I know I will be heartbroken after this. But I just cannot not try to get the most out of it.
Okay imma stop rambling. We'll see what's gonna happen.
2021/09/09
New day, new heartbreak:))
Guess we won't meet in the near future.
But that's alright
It's not like this was the only thing I was waiting for for weeks..
Anyway.
I have decided that I'll only text him if he contacts me first.
Go me I guess.
:))
2021/09/23
Not one text from him since that day.
Not a hi, a how are you.
Nothing.
It's clear he is not interested.
And it's even clearer I'm better off without him.
I'm done.
2021/12/01
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