Always and forever

70 - Mine at last

Sanem

- I want to be your wife now and forever -

It's what was meant to be for months, it's the crowning of our love, our "..... and they lived happily ever after".

I take his face in my hands and kiss him amidst tears of joy and emotion for the happiness I'm feeling right now, a miracle unhoped for until just a month ago when I had already given up on him and us forever.

Soon our kiss changes, our breaths become shorter, our hands move tirelessly, touching, squeezing, caressing, we break away for a moment to look into each other's eyes, his shine with a feeling I've never seen before, a mixture of love and passion that the Can of before has never allowed himself to show.

He smiles at me and suddenly takes me in his arms entering the house, arrived at the door of the room whispers to me:

- Sanem I would like you to close your eyes and imagine that today we finally said our vows of eternal love, you were beautiful in your wedding dress and I looked at you as one looks at the most precious thing in this world.
We exchanged our solemn vows, we celebrated with family and friends and now we are here, at the door of our room, ready to live our wedding night, the first of all nights of our life together -

I close my eyes and his persuasive voice catapults me into a parallel universe where I see what I had long dreamed of and I realise that, for me, it is as if it had really happened so many times that these wonderful scenes have been projected in my mind while I was waiting for our wedding.

I feel him move towards the interior of the room and let me slide with my feet on the ground making me adhere completely to his body, I open my eyes to look at him and I see his rapt gaze.

- I don't know what's memory and what's imagination anymore, of course I must have dreamt of this moment a million times Sanem but the feeling I get when I'm faced with the reality of having you here, in my arms, finally mine, finally my wife, goes beyond any possible fantasy -

He takes me in his arms and takes me to another dimension, a dimension dominated by the senses that I had never experienced before, that I had perhaps only touched on during our night together at Sile, but had been somehow wasted by the anguish of knowing that he would be gone, that he was no longer mine and probably never would be.

The intensity of the emotions of this moment is something indescribable, knowing that now he is finally mine, mine forever in body and mind make me feel free to feel every touch, every kiss, every caress as a promise of love as well as passion. This is the last thought I can formulate rationally before everything becomes only perception and pleasure.

There are only his hands that move slowly over my skin to free it from the clothes while his lips follow those hands with diligence without neglecting to kiss with veneration every single centimetre caressed.
It's ecstasy and torture at the same time as my hands can't keep still, they free his hair from the omnipresent rubber band that keeps it tied to entwine between the locks and guide his lips where the pleasure is most intense, unbuttoning her shirt and pulling it out of her trousers to then caress her muscular back.

His tireless mouth moves over my body, from my neck to my lips and then descends in a slow torture between my breasts and along my stomach while his hands, his beautiful hands, do things to me that even in my wildest dreams I could never imagine.

He slowly moves back up towards my lips and at this point I take control, my lips now descend towards his neck, his shoulders, his chest where it seems incredible to finally be able to kiss and caress the albatross tattoo as I've wanted to do for so long.
My hands descend in a slow caress to his stomach as I circle around him, I continue my exploration of his body hugging him from behind, kissing his back, caressing every inch of those sculpted pecs and abdomen until I reach his belt and unbuckle it, I hear him hold his breath as he turns his face to look at me with a look full of passion. He turns towards me as if unable to stay away, unable not to have me in his arms and feel my warmth, he finishes undressing while pushing me slowly on the bed and then towering over me being careful not to crush me with the size of his body.

Everything becomes sighs, caresses, kisses and whispered words of love, I recognise his skin on mine from that wonderful night together as well as the hot touch of his fingers on me but at the same time I feel an intensity in his caresses that I had never experienced, it's adoration, devotion, reverence, he touches me as if I really was the most precious thing in this world for him. And for me it can only be the same, I can only adore his wonderful body that I have longed for in the past and during the long nights spent in his arms that have been hell and paradise at the same time.

The perception we have of each other becomes more and more astonishing and enchanting until, at the moment when our bodies unite, he intertwines his hands with mine and whispers:

- Finally mine, mine forever.

Seni çok seviyorum, I love you so much Sanem-.

- Finally mine, mine forever.

Seni çok seviyorum, I love you so much Can -

Then there is no more room for words, there are only ineffable sensations while our souls are united as well as our bodies, it is a total union this time, matter and spirit that have found their place in each other's arms.

I didn't think it possible that our union could reach peaks of pleasure even more intense than those we had shared that one night, but perhaps it is the rediscovered and reborn feeling in both our hearts that sharpens and intensifies every sensation until we reach an astonishing ecstasy that leaves us both breathless.

Our gazes remain intertwined for a long time this time, there is no darkness of the room of last time that hid my desperate look, there is only the most beautiful promise of belonging, the unconditional and total giving of ourselves to each other now and forever, in this life and for those to come.