They have found each other again despite a year of separation, is it possible that Can now cannot find Sanem in her heart?
How can Sanem accept that the love of his life, who asked her just before becoming his wife, looks at her as if she were a st...
I leave his room with an enormous weight on my heart, it's not so much Huma's words that weigh on me, I know that she has always hated me and will always hate me for the mere fact that I was born in the wrong part of Istanbul, it's more the idea that Can's mind is stuck in the belief that he is engaged to Polen that upsets me.
Everything we've been through, all the painful growth our relationship has undergone over the years has been wiped out with a stroke, I don't feel able to deal with it right now. I leave the hospital to go to sleep at the estate for the first time in a month, it doesn't make sense for me to stay here, I really need to gather my thoughts and strength to figure out what will become of my future.
Layla runs up to me in the hospital lobby as I'm leaving in search of a taxi.
- Sanem? Iyi misin, are you alright Sanem? Madam Huma could have spared herself those words, she was really inappropriate, is it possible that she still doesn't give up? Phew.Do you want to come over tonight? I'm not comfortable knowing you alone -
I shake my head dejectedly - No, thank you Layla, I'm really fine, I just need a good night's sleep after a month spent curled up in a chair, don't worry, this too will pass. Tomorrow is another day, we'll see what will bring iyi geceler , good night - I shrug my shoulders trying to give my voice a semblance of optimism that at the moment I'm struggling to feel.
When I get to the estate, I walk down the driveway and find myself in the garden lit up by the thousands of lights Can wove into the branches of the trees when he proposed to me. It seems like a lifetime has passed since then, perhaps that Can who loved me and whom I loved with all my being is actually no longer there. When his heart stopped beating, after promising me that he would love me always and forever, that Can left and never came back.
I sit on the steps of the house, sighing I look around and look at the stars in the sky, I think of how many times we have looked at them together, how many unique moments we have lived together since the beginning of our story, each of them has contributed to build our great love, each of them has added a brick to a solid construction made of emotions and feelings of deep love. How can you tell someone about those emotions if he don't remember them? Will the Can of today ever love me again without having lived those moments, those caresses brushed against, those looks, those hugs, those sighs?
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Even the many difficulties we went through served to make our feelings grow and strengthen, every quarrel, every misunderstanding served to make us understand how essential the other was to our existence, how can I think of explaining those feelings to him?
Only Can knows what he felt during that year away, what led him to come back and fight so hard to win me over again and come back with me. Will this new Can be able to love me as he did?
I look for Orion among the thousands of stars in the sky, my constellation, our constellation, I cannot see them, tears blur my vision, I just want to send them a heartfelt plea.
"Please, you who witnessed so much of our love, make him come back to me, make him remember what we had, make him remember me, I don't want to think I've lost him forever..."
