THE BEGINNING OF OUR END [2YEON]

CHAPTER 59

NO ONE'S POV

Nayeon walks in a pavilion filled with nothing but strange feelings, it was dark but the stars and the moon were enough to light her way down the path, she looks to her side and saw a group of people singing to Paul Kim's every day, every moment. A song that embodies this whole movie, she knows it's not really for her but a character she's portraying, all of these are a part of a show that makes people believe that love is a magical thing. That it's bond for eternity or even the next life, that love is the answer to everything. Nayeon gives her all in portraying this role, just because she wants people to at least believe in something she failed to have.

Im Nayeon failed in love.

And sometimes when she has nothing better to do when the word love crosses her mind heart sting to the point she doesn't want anything to do with it anymore and most of the time or rather every time she thinks of it, it reminds her of that failed relationship she has with her wife. Although Jeongyeon said she loves her a million times Nayeon couldn't stop but wonders, if the taller girl have really loved her since everything they did, was in a rush, that maybe Jeongyeon was just in the heat of the moment. Maybe Jihyo was right, maybe they should've waited for a year before getting married. Or maybe she should've been more like Mina, who made Chaeyoung pursue her for almost 2 years before saying yes. But it doesn't matter since we're talking about Jeongyeon, she's her own person and it just wouldn't fit them. Jeongyeon has always done everything that comes to her mind first. And maybe that's why they got tangled up in this crazy situation.

But Nayeon knows it, they should have waited just like everyone else did.

She walks slower than she usually does. Well, Nayeon lost all the strength and will after that call, after realizing she's always been a step later when it comes to her wife. She wonders what would've happened if she did answer on time, how would the conversation go. She wonders if she'll be able to tell Jeongyeon how much she loves her. If she got to her phone on time, would she be asking the girl to come back? Or would she be saying goodbye? She'll never know which one is it.

Coincidentally their writer choose to have a night wedding as an ending, Nayeon's not taking it personally but it sucks to be her at the moment. It felt like destiny is playing with her. She's getting a fake wedding while going through the process of moving on from a failed marriage. The tears start to build up but unlike earlier Nayeon couldn't care less, she's supposed to cry anyway. Besides the more tears, she shed the more realistic it'll look, she's done holding it and she's just lucky that the work demands her to cry. No one's gonna know no matter how hard she cries. No one's gonna know that the tears are true.