Girl Meets Boy

Chapter 45 - Mistakes

I slammed open the door and rushed inside, splashing the walls with a dark paint splatter or rain water as I did so.

I shouldn't have said any of that.

As soon as the cruel words came out of my mouth I had regretted them and now I was at home and I was wet and cold and tired and most importantly I was scared that they hated me.

How could I apologise to Hayes and Cam and (even though I would hate every moment of it) Daisy, for being so dismissive towards them and ignoring them so mercilessly?

How would Ally ever forgive me for thinking of her as a girl that would leave me for someone who treated her as Daisy did? She would hate me for not telling her when something was wrong and I should have told her, she was my bestfriend, we don't have secrets.

And Nash, how will he forgive me? He looked so sad, like a child with no presents on their birthday and then he looked so angry, as if I'd murdered his puppy. I couldn't stand that look on his face, he was so disappointed in me and I honestly had no idea how to fix it.

I switched on the kettle and began mechanically making a coffee whilst stepping out of my soggy shoes. After finishing, I wrapped my hands around the burning mug and carried it upstairs, it stung like hell but I couldn't help but feel like I deserved the pain for how horrid I had acted this afternoon.

I rushed into the shower and let myself get lost in the warmth, trying to figure my way out of this mess.

I tied my wet hair into a long ponytail. I pulled on my batman pyjama bottoms and a vest top. I sat on my bed. I crossed my legs. I drank my coffee. I thought.

Everything I did felt robotic, I just couldn't help but feel like something was wrong, like I should be somewhere else.

Eventually, after half and hour of contemplating, I decided that I should just apologise to them all, starting with Nash as I was the worst to him.

I grabbed my mobile, but rather than ring the number I began pacing, he looked so mad, what if he decides he doesn't want to see me again? What if he hates me now?

I put my phone back on the side and stared at it.

Then I picked it up and started pacing again.

"Don't be a baby, just do it." I whispered to myself, shutting my eyes and pressing the call button.

The phone rang once when there was a knock at the door, I gasped and jumped back stumbing my toes as I did and yelping in pain. Quickly, I ran down the stairs and pulled open the front door, the phone still pressed against my ear.

"Hello, are you Amelia, friend of the Grier brothers Nash and Hayes?"

"Erm, y-yeah." I said taking in the black clothes of the man infront of me, he was holding his hat at his chest in a formal manner.

"Can you also confirm you know Allison, Daisy and Cameron, who you are thought to have been in the company of earlier this afternoon?"

"Yes I was and Yes that is me." I said shakily, I realised then what uniform the man was wearing.

"Well then, I'm Detective Harvey and I'm afraid I have some bad news for you."