Book 1: My Teen Romance with Derek Hale (Teen Wolf Fan Fic)

Derek: From where you are

Since Laura was a year older, eighteen years old to be exact- she had become my guardian and we had moved to Brooklyn and were staying near Mark, Tane and Tina. That was the only upside, being close to Tane again. I missed having my best friend around.
I really wanted to stay but I couldn’t. Beacon Hills would have just reminded me about how I got my family killed besides Laura would have dragged me kicking and screaming if she had to.
The view from my window was something that was going to take time to get used to as well as Kristin’s absence. Instead of trees there were buildings, streets, vehicles and pedestrians. It was the only place Laura could afford, it almost felt like a jail cell in comparison to the woods that surrounded our home in Beacon Hills.
“Watch where you’re going!” An angry motorist yelled out of his car window after he slammed on the breaks to avoid hitting a pedestrian who was crossing the street.
Everything was reminding me of Kristin and every time her beautiful face appeared in my thoughts I was struck by a pain of longing in my chest although it didn’t stop there. It made its way around my body from my head to the tip of my toes.
I missed her more with every hour that passed. It felt like I had left a part of myself behind, like part of me was missing without Kristin and I didn’t know how to get it back.
I was incomplete.
“Hey is there something interesting happening down there?” I heard Tina ask as she walked into my room.
“Have you never heard of knocking?” I snapped. I knew Tina was taking pleasure in my pain. I knew she was happy that I was separated from Kristin and the thought alone was infuriating.
“I’m sorry. I thought you would have heard me,” Tina apologised although I didn’t look at her. I kept my gaze locked on the depressing scene outside my window.
“I’m sorry about your family if there’s anything I can do just let-”
“Not now Tina.” I interrupted her before she could finish her sentence.
“Derek . . . I-”
“I said not now Tina.” I interrupted her again, and this time she huffed in annoyance before she stamped out of the room.
I knew I was being harsh but Tina was the last person I felt like talking to. Tina was celebrating my end with Kristin and I just couldn’t be around her let alone speak to her.
“I’m sorry about her man, sometimes she has no dignity.” Tane apologised as he walked into the room and shut the door behind him.
“You don’t need to apologise for her.” I reminded him as I watched an elderly couple walk down the sidewalk hand in hand.
“Cheer up. I’ll always be with you no matter how far apart we are.” I heard Kristin’s voice in my mind as I closed my eyes. I could almost smell her scent if I concentrated hard enough. I smelt the coconut, vanilla and strawberry and as I opened my eyes I could picture her face in the window.
I love you I miss you. I said silently and her reflection mouthed the words back to me and I couldn’t help but smile.
“You’re thinking about her aren’t you?” Tane snapped me out of my own little world and I nodded.
“I’m sorry man about everything.” Tane apologised.
Part of me felt bad for missing Kristin so much when my family had just perished, but I couldn’t think about them not without the guilt suffocating me, and I didn’t have Kristin to bring me back and calm me down.
“Thanks.” I replied. I shouldn’t have been so harsh with Tina. Both Tina and Tane knew exactly what I was going through, but I couldn’t help myself.
“Why can’t you try long distance, you know it works for some couples?” Tane asked.
“I can’t do that to Kristin she deserves more than letters and phone calls.” I replied. I loved Kristin but we were only seventeen years old and I knew long distance wouldn’t have worked. Kristin deserved the world. She deserved someone who could be there for her and as much as I wanted to be selfish, and hold onto her I knew better although it still hurt like hell being a part from her.
“How about we play some video games? Something violent and bloody perhaps?” Tane suggested and that’s when I finally looked away from the window.
“Sure.”

I felt lips press against my neck and I opened my eyes to see Kristin lying beside me with a huge smile on her flawless olive coloured face. Her blue eyes were sparkling as she shifted closer towards me and rested her hand on the side of my face.
“I love you.” I said in a hushed whisper.
“I love you too.” She replied and placed a kiss on the side of my jaw before she brought her face closer to mine.
“What are you doing here? How did you get here?” I couldn’t believe what I was seeing.
It had to be a dream.
“I’ve always been here silly.” She chuckled before she kissed the tip of my nose and I couldn’t help but feel confused.
“What do you mean?” I asked. I wanted to kiss her lips. I wanted to make love to her but I knew it was just a dream and when I finally woke up it would make the reality even more unbearable.
“Enough talk.” She smirked and pressed her lips against mine, but it felt wrong and I didn’t know why.
I opened my eyes and pulled away although I could only see the outline of the body from the dull glow of the street light which was shining through my curtain. I quickly turned on the lamp and my gaze fell to the blonde hair, and I as I looked up I saw Tina lying across my bed.
“What the hell!” I jumped out of bed.
“I came in to say goodnight and you told me to kiss you, and that you loved me. What’s the problem?” Tina looked confused as she sat up with a disappointed look on her face.
“Oh please like you didn’t know I was sleep talking!” I snapped and had to force myself to stay on the other side of the room otherwise I might have ended up hurting Tina.
“What’s going on here?” Laura asked as she entered the room and Tane was standing beside her in the doorway with a worried expression on his face.
“Nothing he’s just being a big baby!” Tina spat and it sounded like she was about to burst into tears.
“I told you to stay out of his room.” Tane spoke to Tina and sounded like her father rather than her older brother.
“I was just saying goodnight.”
“By sticking your tongue down his throat you’re unbelievable Tina!” Tane raised his hands in the air in defeat before he huffed and walked away.
“Out,” Laura spoke and Tina who nodded and complied avoiding my eyes as she slipped out of the room.
“You okay?” Laura asked me, her usual warm green eyes looked as if they belonged to a different person. They were bloodshot and filled with sorrow and hate. Laura also knew the fire was no accident.
No I’m not okay. I got our family killed and I lost my girlfriend although she’s better off without me because I’m a fucking loser and a fucking idiot! And now I’m going to have to start locking my door whenever Tina stays the night? It’s ridiculous! Everything is ridiculous. I hate it here and I miss my family: my old house and Kristin and I just want everything to go back the way it was. I hate it! I hate it all! I silently screamed.
“Yeah I’m fine but I’ll be better if Tina stops sneaking into my room.” I replied as I sat on the end of my bed and covered my face with my hands. I was so angry and frustrated that I just wanted to scream, yell and hit things.
“Don’t worry. I think she’s mortified right about now,” I felt my bed dip slightly as Laura sat beside me.
“Serves her right,” I replied as I kept my face covered. Tears were threatening to escape and I didn’t want anyone to see them.
“We’re going to be okay. I know it doesn’t seem like that’s even possible right now but we will be. I’ll always be here for you.” I could hear that Laura was fighting back the tears as well as she spoke.
“I know.” I tried to sound hopeful although I knew I had failed miserably.
“I’ll make sure Tina stays out of your room, just get some sleep little bro.” Laura replied before she stood to her feet and left. Laura was only nine months older than me, and part of me felt guilty that all the responsibility was being put on her.
I had practically lost it all: my family and Kristin. I felt like my life was never going to get better. That my secret shame was going to follow me for the rest of my life as well as regret for leaving Kristin.
The suffering was never going to end.

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