31st december
ross lynch
i was so in love with her.
she was so very perfect in every way possible.
i cant wait to marry her.
yet we are still so young and anything could happen, for the worse or better who knows
but i know i can't loose her
not now.
after it all.
~
it was the evening and kenzie and i were getting ready to leave for the party we had been invited too, it was new year's eve and we were leaving tomorrow afternoon, it had been a fun trip but i was more than ready to get home now
"are you sure you don't want me to iron your shirt?" kenzie begged me for around the 90th time this hour because 'i had wrinkles in my shirt'
"no! i'll be fine" i try to calm her down instead of stressing about some wrinkles
"i'm sorry, i just want everything to be perfect and i want a fresh start for the new year" she pouts
i walk up to her and gently grab her cheeks, caressing them as i do, her head leaning into my hands, as she cups mine, she speaks
"i'm sorry ross"
i pout "it's okay my love, i promise...we don't have to go to the party"
she lifts her head up, and disagrees "no i'm sorry, let's go i'm fine"
"hey hey" i grab her face again and make her look into my eyes, she tries not too but she lets a tear fall down her cheek
"stop being sorry" i say firmly
she nods "i will be okay"
"can we not go?" a sudden hit of guilt rushes over me "i feel like it's pressuring you, i feel like you are scared, are you scared?"
she chuckles a little under her breath "i'm not scared, i'm ready to go!!"
i try to match my energy to hers but i cant, i just feel guilty, i feel like i pressure her
"only if you are sure"
"i'm sure" she says before gently kissing me
i nod, she walks away and i watch her every little move, she grabs her jackets and puts her arms through, slowly, she walks over to the mirror and checks herself out, she doesn't need to though, she looks perfect the way she is, she won't agree with me though, the way she sits and puts her shoes on, trying not to let her dress go up, i laugh under my breath as she struggles
"it's not funny" she looks over to me trying to hide her smile but i see it sneaking through
i walk over to the end of the bed where she is sat i her red right dress, i hold my hands out in front of her and help her up, kissing her cheek when she's up, we link hands as we leave
