july 2014
kenzie louise
i shot up from my dream with my hair stuck to the side of my face with sweat
i leant my head in my hands and waited a few minutes trying to control my crazy breathing
"i'm here" ross cooed to me in his croaky voice
i calmed down almost immediately and looked up at him, tears drying on my face
"same dream?" he asked as he rubbed my back gently
i nodded and gulped
"it's okay, i'm here, your here, we're okay" he reassured me
i smiled weakly as he placed a kiss gently on my forehead before laying down
i layed down next to him after a few seconds, my eyebrows still furrowed in confusion
"ross?" i asked seeing if he was awake
he mumbled into the pillow, i looked up and him to see a smile on his face but his eyes closed, he was asleep.
"i love you" i whispered as i drifted back off to sleep
i did love him. i really did, but i didn't want him to know.
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i woke up the next morning with ross snuggled into my chest, our legs were intertwined and the cover was nearly taking over ross completely
i didn't want to move, i wanted to stay like this forever, i was becoming attached, and i knew that i shouldn't.
"goodmorning" i whisper as i see him shift a little
"hey" he whispered back
i smiled at his morning voice as he came out of my chest a little and layed on the pillow with his arms around me still
i had my hands around his neck whilst our legs were intertwined still
"your so cute" he said as he held me tighter
i blushed and tried hiding my face in his neck; making him laugh softly
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it had been around an hour since i woke up, me and ross were in one of those conversations i never wanted to end
"no because if i was to go skydiving you wouldn't come" he argued back
we were discussing our future with everyone, what it would be like when they went on tour and how busy he would be, we wanted to do a few more things before they left for tours
and skydiving was one.
"no! i wouldn't" i laughed
"exactly" he laughed back
as our laughs died down i carried on "i would just be scared, like what if i was to fall, or my parachute didn't work, i would just die!"
he laughed "you wouldn't die"
"oh yeah? how do you know?"
"because i would catch you if you fell" he smirked
i rolled my eyes before replying "you wouldn't be able to"
"i already did" he whispered
i knew exactly what he was talking about; how i 'fell for him'
"whatever, you can be my superhero" i laughed
"always and forever" he said sticking his pinky finger out for me to promise him
i interiwned our pinky fingers and we both brought our thumbs to our mouths and kissed it softly
