august 2014
kenzie louise
"this is all your fault!" my mother shouted at my bedroom door
i shook my head as tears fell from my cheek
"she died because of you! you didn't help" she screamed
at this point i was starting to believe her.
"i'm sorry!" i shouted
she shook her head "it should've been you"
i let out a sob before slamming my door
i ran to my phone too see a text message from stormie?
"i'm very sorry to have you tell you this over the phone. it couldn't wait. today at 11pm, ross sadly passed from a car crash, we just want you to remember that he loves you, he may not have said it, but he sure does love you, we can see it. he was a hard working kid and didn't deserve this. he wasn't done with his life yet. he didn't get to grow up with the girl of his dreams. but he may rest peacefully now."
i threw my phone into the wall leaving it surprisingly in one piece
"it's not true!" i sobbed
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"kenzie!"
"wake up!"
i shot up from my dream to see ross sat up next to me
i shook my head and wiped my tears from my face before resting my head in my hands
"i'm so sorry" i cried
i felt his arms wrap around my shoulders "nothing to be sorry about, i'm here"
i let it all out, in shock still i looked up at him with guilt written all over my face
"want to tell me what happened?" he furrowed his eyebrows
i kodded slowly; unsure of what to say or do
he nodded as i started speaking
"it's was the same dream, my mum...she b-blamed me"
"aw baby, no no no, you didn't do anything, you did as much as you could to save her, okay?" he cooed
i nodded slightly as he held me tighter
"what's the time?" i sniffled
he tapped his phone on the bedside table and replied
"3:47"
"i'm sorry, go to sleep" i said getting out of his grip
"baby, stop, i'm here for you" he said wrapping his arms around me
i tried to stay stubborn but i immediately fell into his arms, he layed back down leaving me on his side
"i tried so hard" i whispered breaking the silence
"i know my love" he rubbed my back gently
i sighed as ross lifted my thigh up to his chest, i hugged him tightly
"what am i going to do without you?" i asked
"i have no clue" he laughed lightly trying to brighten the mood
i smiled lightly
"but for real? i know your strong" i felt his eyes on me
i looked up and smiled at him softly
