july 2014
kenzie louise
i woke up in what seemed like a hospital bed? i shot up from my position and the dizziness kicked it real quick, i rubbed my forehead and sloughed forward leaving my head in my hands
i soon feel someone rubbing my back slightly when i feel the burning sensation in my stomach coming up to my throat, i soon realised that i was about to throw up everything i had eaten for the past month
i jumped from the bed and over to the bin in the corner of the room, i kneeled down and held onto the bin as i threw up everything i had inside of me
i leant my head against my arm and waited a few minutes before i felt someone pull my hair that was stuck to my head and neck with sweat to my back stroking it slightly
just by the touch i could tell it was ross
i turned my back slightly tears falling from my eyes, i always hated being sick, it would make me feel so useless and unhelpful
"what happened?" i furrow my eyebrows
"kenzie, you-y-you were drugged" he frowned
i was what?
"what? how? when?" i stood up slightly but felt the dizziness once again, i fell into ross' arms.
"i don't know how, at the party we checked everyone before they came in, i don't trust people that easily" he carried me over to bed placing me down slowly
it suddenly hit me, that guy, the dark haired one? he kept coming up to me, whenever i would try get a drink, he stayed later i remember him walking around the living room, then riker shouting and him literally running out the door
"i know who it was" i nodded my head multiple time
"the doctors called the police and they did a few blood tests, you should be clear by tomorrow"
"what time is it?" i shake my head
"it's like 10am" he shrugged
i lay down and held the pillow that was squeezed in between my arms
"your parents know, my mums was here with rydel but i told them to go get some rest" i hear ross say
i don't answer. i didn't really have words, i felt ross lay down beside me, i didn't react, i didn't know how
my parents are gonna hate me, my sibling, r5? i cant deal with that, and i knew if ross was to place a hand on me now? i would melt into him again, and right now? i think i needed space more than anything
"kenzie?" ross voice was croaky and tired
i mumbled a little as i waited for a reply
"i'm so sorry" his voice broke in between words, i knew he was hesitant
i shrugged, i didn't want him to think it was his fault, he said he checked, but when he checked, it wasn't hard enough
i felt the hesitation when he wrapped his arms around my waist and layed his head into my neck
i didn't want to react, but like i knew i would, i melted into his touch, i turned around leaving my hand to run into his hair, he lifted his head letting me melt into his neck a little more before laying his head on top of mine, i felt his shoulders drop from the relief i just gave him
"i'm sorry kenzie" he whispered
"i know, it's not your fault" i started placing kisses up and down his jawline knowing that was his soft spot
