tw : self harm mentioned.
10th october 2014
ross lynch
standing in the hallway of all the bunks outside the audition room for a new show called austin and ally
i had just finished the audition and i did get through, next was to start filming.
"ross, kevin is on the phone" my dad says passing me the phone
i take it from his hands and into my own, putting it against my ear so i could hear him
"there's my new superstar!!!" he shouted a tad too loud in my ear
"heyyy" i said adding a little awkward laugh at the end
"so, here's the thing, shooting starts tomorrow and finishes by the 10th of december ok? we need you and laura to take a few 'couple' photos for the magazine"
i didn't sign up for this.
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"w-what do you mean?" i ask ross sitting in front of me
he sat crossed legged in front of me on the couch, grabbing my hands and holding them between us both
it felt strange but i wasn't going to stop him.
"remember when i told you a long time ago when we were on our way to the beach house? i told you that i got a message for a new show named austin and ally?"
i nod slowly as i get a hit of nostalgia
"well, i went to it at a pit stop on tour, i got in and started shooting the next day, there was a company we were signed up with and they wanted me and my co star laura who plays ally, my 'love interest' on the show to take 'couple' pictures together for more fans" he explained in depth
i stayed silent, every piece of me trying to stay together and not break down.
"i never wanted to hurt you kenzie"
that one hurt.
i let my head drop and my eyes fixed to the couch i was crossed legged on
if it was all a lie, why didn't he tell me in the first place?
"i didn't tell you at the time because i purely couldn't, and you were right back then, i was so in love with you that i didn't even realise the life i had outside and with other people that weren't you"
oh.
"and you do too, at first i hated it, making new friends on tour and spending time with people that i wasn't used to and having the meet the new crew wasn't fun, all i wanted to do those first few months were be in your arms, with you playing with my hair, you calling me your superhero...that's all i wanted"
i felt my cheeks flush red and it suddenly became hot
i really didn't have words at the moment.
he lifted my head up by the chin with his two fingers and looked into my tears eyes, his hazel eyes that i have missed ever so much were also glossy and i felt horrible.
