25th december
ross lynch
the thought just came over me like nothing.
i'm not even sure where it came from if i am honest with myself...
i pauses for a second... "do you want to try for baby?"
her face wasn't what i expected, her face almost went pale in pretty sure
"i uh- i m-mean...what do you think?" she says with her eyebrows furrowed
"i think we should, i-i mean, i know we are still so young and we can wait because i'm willing to wait but-
she cuts me off with something i didn't think she would say "ross, i'm eighteen, i'm going to college still darling, you're going back to touring soon-"
now it was my turn to cut her off "and i don't have to go back" i encourage "i'm twenty soon and i think we have have got this, i don't care anymore i just want a family with you" i boast
she sighs and let's her head drop, i know she's trying not to smile but i see the side of her lips lift and butterflies are suddenly in my stomach
"i mean, w-we could try" she lifts her head up and shrugs
my face lights up, everything became more clear to me, it was her.
i begin nodding frantically towards her, my smile bigger than ever
wow.
it might all work out in the end.
~
kenzie louise
28th december
the day before the boys birthday.
it's currently 8pm at night and i'm once again, rushing around like a bull in a china shop gathering everything for ross' birthday tomorrow like a mad woman
i was at home, with my family for once and not ross, he was spending the night at his house and we were seeing eachother tomorrow morning
very early.
4am to be exact.
he knew it was going to be early but not that early.
my plan is to drive there and be there for 4am, his family were in on the suprise plan too, they were leaving the door unlocked - the front foor.
i was going to let myself in and into his room and wake him...by jumping on him of course.
when he finally wakens we are going to drive to the airport and to thailand for the next 3 days - the 29th, the 30th and the 31st
meaning we were out there on new year's eve.
we left early january 1st, knowing that's when the band go back on tour kind of just hurt me 10 times more everything i thought of it.
so let's not think of it for now.
and let's think of me trying to sort myself out.
