So many times we try to bury how much hurt we have caused other people and sometimes we feign not to care or we don't even care at all. Maybe it's just because we don't know what to do to fix the situation after all.
Lia's POV.
"Heyyy lia!"
Jace said and for a second i wondered why he has his arms locked around my best friend's waist.
Oh yeah mel and jace had numerous "flings" while me and sanè were busy with trying to make sense out of our situation. Sanè and i decided it was best to be friends and just watch as things roll naturally. I couldn't get keisha out of my head and neither could he let go of all the hurt he inflicted on her and himself in the past. Hurt is something i could never understand. It's something that just takes over your feelings and dictates how you react sometimes. It was this feeling I've always hated and always wanted to escape from. My mom was still not speaking to my dad and he didn't seem to care but i could tell that this cold hearted man felt hurt and for a spilt second i really hoped he could feel it exactly the way i did all those years he rejected and put me on the surface.
"Uhm wow y'all weren't joking"
I replied sarcastically.
"Well hello to you too won't have been bad either"
Jace said as he kissed mel on the cheek and made his way away from us.
"Lia you said you were going to try to understand"
Mel said looking at me like she was hurt.
"Understand what melanie? You suddenly developing feelings for jace! To be honest it's bull!!!"
I yelled at her without even realizing it.
"I've been your friend for a long time now when are you going to be mine? It's tiring already"
Mel said and walked away.
"I'm not wrong and I'm not going to apologize"
I kept chanting to myself as i walked to my next class.
She was wrong and she didn't know what she was getting into. Love isn't something you just feel after numerous flings. She's making a bad decision and i was going to save her like i always do. She can be mad for all she wants. She'll later realize I'm saving her from the hurt.
"Good morning class! I'm sad to have to tell you that one of your classmates transferred out of the school for some family reasons-"
Mrs winterhood our homeroom teacher went on before she was cut off.
"Was it sanè?"
Carmen one of my classmates went on.
It actually made sense. Sanè probably left again. He hasn't been to school since we got back from the field trip and we haven't talked much apart from the casual "hey" and "hi". It just was never meant to be and yeah i was fine with that i guess. I really hope i was for real. A little part of me was scared of what i would do without sanè here with me and without mel as well. I was completely alone. I really was.
"Please don't interrupt me miss carmen. And yes you're right mister sanè Aguerò transferred from the school yesterday. I'm also happy to inform you all that we have a new student as well"
She said and i felt the hurt all over again. The pain and sadness i never wanted to feel after my mom and dad left in the past. It was like it was happening all over again. I was alone again.everyone always end up leaving me.
The new student walked in and behold he was every one dreams and of course there were yells here and there and mutterings from the guys. Even with all this drama going on i remember vividly how sanè walked into this same classroom months ago and i couldn't ignore how much it hurt.
"Ma'am may i be excused?"
I asked mrs winterhood and immediately i made my way out. It was really hard to breathe as i walked out and the questions kept on hitting me and i had no answers to any of them.
"Hello I'm keith"
I heard the new kid say as i gasped for air on my way out.
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Sanè's POV.
"We are all packed now son."
My mom said to me and it was really time.
I'm a coward I've always been one and after talking to keisha and apologizing for everything i had done it was time to move on and live well but i couldn't put lia through all that. Healing process always takes a toll and i really didn't want any of that for lia. I was really going to leave here all of these and all the memories of the months i have spent here just made it so hard for me to leave but to heal i had to start from where it all started and stop running from all of my emotions and just face it all once and for all.
"Alright mom i just need to pick up a few things"
I said as i went inside the house to grab a few stuffs.
"Sanè is this purse yours? It was in your pile"
Gigi said and as i looked at it, i realized it was lia's from the prom. She had left it with me.
"Yea it's lia's. We'll drop it off on our way"
I replied and i wasn't really sure i wanted to see her before i left because then i would want to be selfish.
"Sanè you can say goodbye in many ways just don't leave without saying one"
Gigi said and she was right. I couldn't leave without letting her know how i felt about her and how i was going to survive for both of us.
"Mom I'm done let's go"
I said and we all made our way to the truck and yes it was time to leave.
"Sanè it's okay. We are here for you"
My mom said and i was grateful for everything especially their presence and support despite all that happened.
"I just need to do one more thing mom"
I said.
"Alright son"
She said as she and gigi both entered the truck to leave.
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Lia's POV.
I just sat there on the rooftop of my school and reminised all the good memories we shared together and realized i didn't have to be alone if i didn't want to be. I didn't have to be left all alone, besides i wasn't left all alone i still had a bestfriend that would never leave me no matter how crazy annoying i was. School may be over now and we all had to face the world by ourselves sooner or later but i knew mel would always be there for me. We were a duo that would never separate.i just had to save it at all cost.
"Mel I'm so sorry"
I said to melanie after i had fianlly found her after looking for her all over the school.
"I'm sorry too lia. I lied. it's not tiring to be your friend i promise"
She said as i pulled her into a tight hug.
"I know you did"
I said and we both laughed.
"Are you okay?"
She asked and i wasn't going to lie to her.
"I'm not but i know i will be. I have you and jace of course."
I said and she hugged me tighter.
"Yes you do"
She said .
"Speaking of jace he's heading towards us"
I said.
"I'm going to leave y'all to talk I've to be home early anyways."
I said and i made my way away from them.
"Wait! lia i have something for you"
Jace said.
"Sanè asked me to give this to you"
He said as he handed my purse to me.
"Thanks jace"
I said as i made my way home.
"He said to tell you a confession awaits the lady of the night"
He said and i didn't even understand what the hell he just said. I just knew i had to get away from all of these and be on my bed.
He couldn't even say goodbye without being a douche bag.
"Hey mom"
I said to my mom as i walked into the house.
"Lia i have to tell you something"
My mom said and i was scared. I already had a bomb dropped on me today another one will totally crush me.
"Can it wait? Sanè left town today."
I said and she immediately looked worried for me.
" are you okay baby?"
She asked.
"No but I'll be. i just need to be alone"
I said to her as i hugged her.
"Alright whatever i have to say can wait"
She said as she returned my hug and i made my way to my room.
I just sat on my bed as tears began to fall from my eyes and i felt it again. The hurt. The feeling of regret. The feeling of dissapointment. The anger. I'm so sad .
I took the purse from my bag and i couldn't help but cry harder. Why did you have to leave me sanè? Why we were getting there?
In a fit of rage i threw the purse against the wall and a paper fell out of it. I ran towards it as i picked it up. It was a letter from sanè.
Dear lia,
This is the weirdest thing i have ever done. See me writing a letter like It's the 70's because i just couldn't leave without saying anything. Lia it's not your fault i left. I'm a coward and I've always been one but meeting you made me want to change that about myself. I wanted to be brave for you, protect you from him if i ever have to. Lia I'm sorry for leaving but i have to face him. I have to face it all. I love you lia. I have always loved you from the moment i saw you. You were never a replacement for keisha neither were you second to her. You have always been the stubborn, free spirited lia that always seem to never let go of her hurt. Lia it's okay to hurt and it's okay to be sad. You thought me that. I know i don't deserve to say this but i really hope you wait for me as i surrender myself to my past so i can have a better future with you lia. I couldn't see you before i left because i know i would be selfish and i wouldn't want to leave. I want us to both heal from all of these and i really hope to see you in the future lia.
I love you.
Lot's of love sanè.