Laurens POV
Camila gripped my hand as we watched a doctor and Jason help Ally onto a stretcher. She looked to be in so much pain as she gripped onto her husbands hand. The doctor looked nervous as he called for a nurse as they started pulling Ally away from us.
Nobody spoke as we watched Ally and Jason get out of our view. We glanced at each other unsure of what happened or what to do. Camila looked at me for a moment before letting go of my hand and quickly stepping back in front of the Jenner's who looked to be just as in shock as we all were.
"Why are you still here?" She questioned as Dinah was looking over her shoulder.
"Because we care about Y/N." Kendall states giving up the tough girl act. "Believe it or not we are really her friends."
"If you were really her friend Kendall..." Camila paused for a second motioning in the direction they had just came. "You would leave and let us take care of this."
"Look Camila," Kylie spoke. "We know it looks like we did this, and I know we didn't help, but I promise you we didn't know how bad it was. We didn't know how bad of a state she was in."
"I know it wasn't on purpose." My roommate nodded. "But you didn't help. You both knew she was fragile and had been through a lot. Maybe you didn't realize it or she didn't tell you but she needed someone to talk to not party with."
"I'm sorry that I was a part of this." Kendall stated as Kylie nodded. "I never wanted her to get hurt."
"That's why you need to leave her alone, even just for a little while." The shorter one spoke again. "If you really care about her, you'll back off a bit, leave her alone."
"Okay." The two girls nodded. "But Lauren," Kendall looked at me. "You'd better figure it out before you make it even worse for her."
They turned around and started walking in the direction they'd just came from as Shawn was walking around the corner. He glanced at the two girls confused for a minute before his eyes met his girlfriends. She instantly ran toward him as he embraced her in a hug. She held on tight for a moment before looking at us all again.
"So can we worry about Ally now?" Normani stated. "Cause I'm pretty sure that wasn't normal labour pains."
"Let's go find out what happened." Ashley agreed."
We all nodded and began walking in the direction that Ally was taken, Mike and Austin staying to make sure everything was okay with Y/N. I thought about staying and waiting for her to wake up but at least I knew she was okay, Ally on the other hand I was really worried about. I followed my band mates as Camila grabbed my hand, looking me directly in the eyes.
"Kendall was right." She stated. "You need to figure it out."
"It's complicated." I stated. "But I know."
"Don't tell her about Luke." She added. "At least not unless it gets serious."
"That's the thing, I like him." I admitted. "But it still feels wrong."
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Your POV
I was lying in my bed looking up at the ceiling as I waited for any update on Ally's condition, I was told she went into labour early from stress. Ashley told me it wasn't overly early so it should be okay, but it still wasn't the best thing to happen.
She also updated me on what happened with the Jenner sisters and I felt bad for how my family had treated them. They weren't at fault for anything, if anything they were the ones holding me together. I sat there thinking by myself as everyone else was out in the waiting room waiting for an update on Ally and their baby.
Me: I'm sorry about how everyone treated you. This isn't your fault.
Kendall: They were right, we should have known that drugs weren't a good choice. Especially Kylie, I didn't know she was the one that hooked you up with Josh.
Me: No they weren't. I made my own choices and obviously they weren't very good ones.
"Hi." I heard a voice now causing me to break from my phone.
"Hi." I was surprised to see who was looking at me from the door.
"Are you supposed to be on your phone?" She tried to start a conversation.
"No." I smiled a little putting it back down. The doctor told me I could only use it if it was really important.
"How are you feeling?" Lauren asked her eyes avoiding mine.
"Been better." I admitted. "How's Ally?"
"They said it could be anytime now." She smiled a little. "She's doing very well."
"That's good." I responded glancing out the window as there was an awkward silence between us.
"I'm glad your okay." Lauren stated after a moment as she moved closer to me.
"Yeah." I didn't know what to say. "I guess it's a good thing."
"What does that mean?" She questioned confused.
"Sometimes I just think everyone would be better off without me." I shrugged. "I've already used all nine lives." I tried joking.
"Don't say that." She sat facing me on my bed. "You know it's not true."
"How are you?" I asked trying to change the subject.
"I was worried about you." She admitted meeting my eyes. "I still am."
"Don't be." I shook my head. "I'm not your problem anymore."
"Y/N....." She started but was cut off when Austin ran into the room.
"ITS A BOY!" He stated excited. "Ally and Jason have a baby boy!"
Lauren was quick to move away from me as she smiled looking toward my brother. I smiled as I thought about the young couple with a baby boy. I finally had another nephew, that I was going to be a god parent of.
"That's amazing." Lauren stayed looking between me and Austin as he left the room again.
"I'm so happy for them." I stated. "Jason wanted a little boy."
"I'm going to go see them." Lauren said looking at me now. "But this conversation isn't over."
"It should be." I stated causing her to look confused for a second.
"Why?" She asked. "I want to talk to you about what happened."
"I understand that, but it's not your problem, I'll deal with this on my own." I stated, as much as I miss her I feel like sick to my stomach when she's around.
"What's wrong?" She asked confused.
"Nothing." I shook my head. "Doesn't matter."
"Talk to me." She replies stepping closer to me again.
"I can't." I stated hearing my heart beat increase I got annoyed. "You should go."
"Are you sure?" She asked looking a little hurt. "I'm worried about you."
"Seeing you feels like I got punched in the gut Lauren." I stated as her eyes softened. "It hurts."
"I'm sorry." She apologized. "I just needed to know you were okay."
"I wish I didn't feel this way but every time I see you just think about Camila's apartment." I stated. "The look on your fave when you bro..broke up with me."
"I'm sorry Y/N I didn't know what else to do." She stated. "I tried to help you and I couldn't watch you do this to yourself."
"You left me at my worst." I stated as I got a headache again.
"What was I supposed to do?" She looked defeated now. "I tried Y/N."
"You were supposed to be there." I shrugged as she shook her head as tears threatened my eyes. "I lost everything and then I lost the last thing holding me together."
"So did I." She let a tear roll down her face. "I thought you were dead. You were dead Y/N. Then you came back, and you weren't you."
"I didn't know how to be me" I could feel myself crying now. "I still don't."
"I wish I could help you." She sighed wiping a tear. "But I can't lose myself in the process."
"I love you Lauren." I stated and she shook her head. "I really need you."
"If you loved me, you wouldn't have gotten this far." She disagreed. "You would've tried to get better on your own, especially knowing everything I went through with my father."
"Nothing was working." I argued. "I didn't know what else to do."
"That's no excuse Y/N." She stepped toward the door. "You can't just turn to drugs every time something goes wrong."
"I'm sorry." I apologized as she looked at me from the door.
"Me too." She nodded before walking out the door leaving me there to myself.
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Lauren's POV
I know this wasn't all her fault, she was struggling with everything that has been going on in her life, obviously I've never been much help for her. But that's not an excuse for turning into a everything she always said she wouldn't be. She's not even recognizable as the girl I fell I love with.
"Lauren!" Y/N yelled from somewhere downstairs as I was doing my hair. "Lauren!"
Scared something was wrong I put down my straightener and quickly walked out into the hall and ran down over the stairs. I walked into the kitchen and found Y/N looking at her phone.
"What's wrong?" I asked walking up next to her as she looked toward me know now. "Are you okay?"
"Yeah I'm amazing." She smiled looking between me and the phone. "Look at this."
She had text there from her manager, it read, "You have been selected as one of the acts to preform at this year's Oscars. "
"You scared the shit out of me." I laughed a little. "I thought something was wrong."
"No I'm just really excited babe." She laughed a little. "I'm going to preform at the Oscars!"
"I'm so proud of you baby." I smiled as she seemed overjoyed by the news. This was a big deal for her and her band. "This is incredible."
"What if I mess up?" She suddenly looked nervous. "What if I forget the words." She was cute when she panicked over little things.
"You're not going to mess up." I smiled taking her cheeks between my hands causing her to look at me. "You're going to be amazing."
"This is such a big thing." She smiled as I let my hands fall down to her hips. "We're preforming at the Oscars."
"You guys are the best." I stated causing her to giggle and look serious again for a second.
"You are going to be my date right?" She laughed wrapping her arms around my neck giving me butterflies.
"I wouldn't miss it for the world." I smiled causing her smile to grow impossibly wider. "My fiancée is preforming at the Oscars."
"I love hearing you call me that." She leaned a little closer to me.
"I love you." I pulled her closer to me. "My fiancée."
"I love you too." She giggled closing the distance between our lips.
They were set to preform a cover of some of the best songs from certain soundtracks but never did get to preform as Y/N and Austin had just had their accident. I couldn't help but think about what we were like as a couple, how in love we were. We shared everything before all of this happened. She wasn't just the love of my life she was my best friend.
"Lauren, Hey." Mike greeted me as I turned a corner and walked into him. "Are you okay?" He asked looking concerned.
"I'll be fine." I gave him a half hearted smile.
"Is it Y/N?" He asked. "I know this is all probably really hard for you."
"I just wish she would realize that." I answered.
"Just give her some time." He responded.
"How long Mike?" I asked getting angry. "How long am I supposed to wait and just hope that the girl I love comes back? It's not fair anymore."
"I'm sorry Lauren." He said pulling me into a hug as I started crying again.
"I miss her." I whispered into his shoulder. "I don't know what to do anymore."