- - - - (VIOLETTA'S POV) - - - -
Dear Diary,
Today is my first day at On Beat Studio and I am pretty nervous. I wish my mom was here to witness this moment. To help me figure out what to where after the new wardrobe I got over the summer. Speaking of the summer, I wish it didn't have to end. The girls and I went shopping every other weekend, had many sleep overs, and went to the park on other days. Francesca is still the same, energetic and bubbly. Camilla has a boyfriend now, it's Broadway. Fran and I new this would happen because they couldn't stop texting each other throughout the summer and hanged out a lot. Although I kind of missed spending time with her, but as long as she is happy, then I am happy too.
Another reason for being so nervous today, is because today I will see Leon for the first time after our performance at the end-of-the-year-show last year. We kissed...and it was AMAZING. But we never talked afterwards, and I am afraid that he might have already forgotten about it. Or worse, he could have a new girlfriend by now or may not feel the same way that I feel. I just never want to see him again or prevent from ever talking to him again. All I ask for is for everything to go smoothly today, and that it will be the best day of my life.
Francesca waited for me at the studio by our new lockers. The greatest part is that Camilla, Francesca and I's lockers are near each others. At least I will be able to see my girls throughout the day frequently. First class was with Pablo, yes Pablo. At the end of the year last year, Pablo was going to loose his job due to the budget cuts. Lucky Antonio gave him a job here at the studio and is in charge of our class same with Angie and few other teachers.
Pablo had arranged for all of us to meet in the zoom, the biggest room in the studio or otherwise known as the auditorium in other schools. The studio is great; very colorful, instruments, a dance room, lockers, sound system everywhere, lights, cameras, people are constantly making music no matter which corner you turn. And being a part of this studio is not just a music school, they also offer academic classes. So as we are studying music, we are also getting our credits for math, history, science, and English. The only reason my dad allowed me to go to the studio.
"I love this place! No dress code, singing classes, dancing classes, Pablo will be our teacher for all four years. The only thing I was critic on is the fact we have those boring classes, but everything else is incredible. And the boys are super cute, right Vilu. Vilu... Vilu!" [Fran]
"What!?" [Vilu]
"I was talking to you" [Fran]
"Sorry." [Vilu]
"Worried about seeing Leon." [Fran]
"Seeing him or even talking to him." [Vilu]
"Sooner or later you are going to have to talk to him about the kiss. I'm sure it won't be as bad as you think.... There goes Cami and Broadway, let's go into the zoom." [Fran]
She drags me by pulling my arm as she follows Camilla and Broadway's tails.
- - - - (LEON'S POV) - - - -
"Hey Leon! Are you alright?" [Andres]
"What makes you ask that?" [Leon]
"No it just seems like you are on another planet." [Andres]
"It's about Violetta, no?" [Maxi]
"It's just we haven't talked since I decided to kiss her during the show." [Leon]
"I thought you forgotten all about that." [Andres]
"No I have, but I am going to face her soon and I don't know exactly how to tell her that the kiss was only a kiss and I wouldn't want it to affect our friendship. I am just worried that she may have developed feelings for me, I don't want to hurt her again." [Leon]
"Well you are going to have to tell her the truth. Especially about your new girlfriend." [Maxi]
My stomach was aching with disgust at the idea of seeing her heartbroken. Then I see her walking in front of me. Somehow I get this feeling, and how I can't stop looking at her or even smiling at the sight of her beauty. Wait! What's going on with me? I have a girlfriend.
Pablo stands in front of everyone. In our class is everyone from last year with an exception of Federico not being here and three new faces.
"Let's begin. I want to welcome everyone to On Beat Studio. I remember a lot of your familiar faces and glad to see some new ones. I have your first assignment. Antonio wants to put on a debuting show for the studio. Each class has there own songs to write and perform. The teachers of this class and along with me have decided who will be doing what at the show. First there will be of course a group song that involves everyone to work together, no one can be left out from writing the song, performing or developing choreography. How you break up the work is up to you.
Next there will be two duets both with one guy and one girl. The duets will be Ludmilla and Tomas, and Violetta with Diego." [Pablo]
Somehow my face disliked it when Pablo said that Violetta is working on a duet with another guy. A feeling in my gut was telling me that I wanted to work on a duet with Violetta.
"Lastly there will be two band performances; one of the guys which will include Leon, Andres, Maxi, Broadway, and Diego. While the girls will include Francesca, Camilla, Nati and Violetta. Any questions?" [Pablo]
"I have one Pablo. Can we change with the people that we are working with? Because I don't think Natalia should be working with anyone else besides me." [Ludmilla]
"The assignments are permanent. No other altercations will be made. Any other questions?" [Pablo]
"When should this all be done by?" [Maxi]
"In ten days. Very soon I know, but if this is your passion then I am sure you all can manage to be on time." [Pablo]
Pablo leaves us for deliberation. I began to walk towards Violetta because it's important to talk or else we are going to be awkward with each other. That is not what I want. Before I was able to catch her attention, Diego jumps in front of me. I decided to walk past them and go to my locker.
- - - -(VIOLETTA'S POV) - - - -
Leon was walking in my direction which made my heart flutter. Then out of nowhere some guy starts talking to me.
"Hi, I'm Diego. I know what you are thinking, how could you get so lucky. Well don't worry babe, by the end of this assignment you will be falling in love with me." [Diego]
"Excuse me. I don't know who you think you are, but don't call me babe." [Vilu]
"Will sweetheart do. Or how about princess?" [Diego]
"You will call me by my name, Violetta." [Vilu]
"Alright. Violetta. What theme were you thinking about for our duet?" [Diego]
"I was thinking that we I will reserve the piano room, email you the hours and we can discuss it then. Right now there is something I got to do." [Vilu]
I left Diego in the zoom and went to the lockers where I saw Leon walk to. As I did he gets startled by my entrance. We stand there starring at one another. None of us knows what to say.
"Hey." [Vilu]
"Hey... We need to talk don't we." [Leon]
"Yea, I've tried to contact you during the summer. Your parents told me that you were busy." [Vilu]
"I was at the motocross track a lot. Practicing and racing mostly." [Leon]
"Motorcross. Exciting!" [Vilu]
"Vilu, I've been thinking..." [Leon]
Before Leon could finish Fran interrupts him.
"Vilu, Vilu, Vilu! I can't believe you are working with Diego, but you got to admit that he is super cute. Not to mention he is totally into you. Did you see Tomas? He is so dreamy. Do you think he has a girlfriend? I can't believe he has to work with Ludmilla the Tarantula." [Fran]
She stops to take a breathe; looks at me then looks at Leon. Looks at me then looks at Leon.
"Ah Leon, how are you?" [Fran]
"Fine. How are you Fran?" [Leon]
"Fantastic! Do you know anything about Tomas? Like, does he have a girlfriend?" [Fran]
"I barely know the guy." [Leon]
"Seems like someone already has a crush." [Vilu]
"Make that two of us now." [Fran]
I looked at Leon and when Fran said that I tensed up and immediately grabbed sight of something else.
- - - -(LEON'S POV) - - - -
"Make that two of us now." [Fran]
I didn't understand where Fran got the number two, maybe she should think about finding a tutor for math. As I glanced at Vilu I see her blushing at the ground. I thought she was cute doing that.
A phone call broke my moment. It was Lara calling. Lara is a dear friend of mine, my mechanic at the motocross track, and also my new girlfriend.
"Excuse me while I got take this." [Leon]
I move towards the front courtyard in the studio.
"Hey Lara, what's up?" [Leon]
"Leon, you need to get here. Important sponsors are coming to the track today and you need to be here. Landing a sponsor is really important for us." [Lara]
"I'm at the studio right now. I'll be there in like ten minutes." [Leon]
"Good. I love you." [Lara]
*smiles* "I love you too. See you soon." [Leon]
Our phone call ended. I rushed inside to my locker to grab my motocross bag.
"Sorry, but I have to go. Vilu, we can talk later." [Leon]
- - - -(VIOLETTA'S POV) - - - -
I wonder where Leon had to go in such a hurry. I also wonder you called him, and what was so urgent. All day long I was thinking about him. My heart beats the rhythm of his name. My head couldn't get his brown hair, hazel eyes, and smile out of my head or the moment we kissed. All these memories makes me motivated to tell him the truth of how I feel.
When classes were finished, I asked Andres where Leon could have gone in such a hurry. He said that at the track they've been trying to gain a sponsor. The only place he would skip out the studio for would be the track. I went there to find him.
Being there I didn't know where to go, or where I could possibly find Leon. I see a station where the bikes stop for maintenance. I ask a girl in grease with a silver do-hickie where Leon Vargas is. She said that he was on the track and asked why I needed him. I vaguely responded, "I need to talk to him." She gives me an unpleasing look and says to wait for him by the gate. I waited for him under a tree not far from the gate, but far enough to not be so close to her.
Being around this girl made me feel uneasy and I don't know why. I was under the impression that she was jealous. And I couldn't understand why. All I cared about was finally telling Leon how I've felt about him for three years.
- - - - (LEON'S POV) - - - -
I get off the track, take off my helmet and an important business man named Bermudez wanted to speak with me. He was actually one of the companies who were looking for someone to sponsor, and he choose me. We planned on meeting tomorrow afternoon to discuss the contract and of course I have to talk this through with Lara. It's important for me as a racer and important for her as my mechanic and her garage. This could be the major step that could get us into the major league.
"What's with the big smile?" [Lara]
"I'm just happy." [Leon]
"And why is that?" [Lara]
"Because I just got us a sponsor." [Leon]
"Are you serious? Leon that's great!" [Lara]
She hugs me with glee, but as she pulls away her facial expression changes.
"What's wrong, why are is your face like that? Aren't you happy?" [Leon]
"Of course I am. While you were on the track, a girl comes by asking where you were. I told her to wait over there." [Lara]
Lara points to a girl with brown, wavy hair and I pink top with a purse on her left shoulder. I knew exactly who that was... It was her.
"Is that her? The girl you were talking to me about at the beginning of summer?" [Lara]
"Yes that's Violetta. Don't worry she is probably hear to finish our conversation earlier. I was going to tell her about us and how I forgotten the kiss, but her friend interrupted us. Then I got your call and told to her we can talk later." [Leon]
"Looks like she couldn't wait any later." [Lara]
"Hey. She is still my friend, but that is all she is to me. You are the one I want to be with." [Leon]
I kiss her to convey how I truly felt. She smiles afterwards and that's when I knew she believed me. She lets me go talk to Violetta, but as I turn around she was no longer standing at the same place I once saw her at. Don't why she vanished into thin air, but now I have to find her.
After changing my clothes, I ride my bike to Violetta's house. Knock on her door and waited for someone to answer.
"Leon?..." [Vilu]
- - - - (VIOLETTA'S POV) - - - -
I noticed Leon kissing the girl with grease. How could I have been so stupid? I should have known that our kiss wouldn't be the reason he would feel any different towards me. I am still his friend, the little girl who moved next door and the same little girl who he grew up with.
Maybe this is a sign, a sign that Leon and I will never be together. Maybe it's time, time for me to forget about Leon forever. For once, I want the one I love to love me back in return. Or for someone to love me and for me to love them in return. In reality, it's neither. Instead I get to suffer seeing the one I love to be happy with someone who is not me.
I cried all the way home. I entered the back way so I didn't have to run into my dad. Before leaving to my room I looked in the fridge for some ice cream, that's what would always cheer me up. Maybe the ice cream and freeze my heart and that way I never have to feel pain or any emotion at all. Only a dream.
The door bell rings and I thought Olga or Ramallo would get it. Then the door bell rings again, and again. I got super annoyed with the bells, so I got stuck answering the door.
"Leon?.. What are you doing here?" [Vilu]
"Someone at the track told me that you went there to talk to me. Before I could go up to you, you were gone." [Leon]
"Right. I wanted to talk to you... To finish our conversation earlier, but I should have waited for you until you were home." [Vilu]
"No it's ok. You are more then welcomed to watch me race or to see me at the track. It's not like you would be bothering me." [Leon]
"Good to know." [Vilu]
"So as I was going to say before, remember the kiss at last year's show. I've been wanting to tell you.." [Leon]
"It was only a kiss Leon. You and I were feeling the moment. You were heartbroken about Roxy and all the lies she told you." [Vilu]
"Right, the moment. Over the summer I couldn't stop thinking about it. I didn't want this to affect our friendship. Last year, things between us were rocky, and I would hate it if this would have separated us for good." [Leon]
"Yea me too. Besides it seems like you got over it pretty quickly since now that you have a new girlfriend and all." [Vilu]
"How do you know about Lara?" [Leon]
"The girl covered in grease. It didn't take much to figure it out with her being very concerned of why I came to see you, and the fact that the two of you did kiss." [Vilu]
"You saw that. Well that was a lot easier to say then I thought it would be." [Leon]
"Did you think that after the kiss I developed feelings for you?" [Vilu]
"Maybe." [Leon]
"Well that's not the case. In fact we are both on the same page. What's important for both of us is our friendship." [Vilu]
"It makes me happy to know that." [Leon]
"Me too.... It's getting pretty late I should get ready for bed. I have a big day tomorrow since I am working with Diego. I swear the guy never takes a break." [Vilu]
"If he gives you an problems don't be afraid to ask me for help. I can straighten him out for you." [Leon]
"I'm sure if I do, you will be the first person I would go to, but I don't think it would be necessary. Goodnight Leon." [Vilu]
"Goodnight." [Leon]
He turns away and I close the door. Afterwards I go from a good smile to a depressed frown. Tears were forming in my eyes, and I went upstairs to write in my diary.
Dear Diary,
Today was suppose to be the best day of my life. Started attending to the studio which is incredible. Angie is my singing coach, Beto is my quirky instrumental coach, and Gregorio is our dance coach. Although he kind of frightens me, and I am sure I am not the only one who thinks him caring around a tennis ball is weird. I wish my mom was here now more than ever.
As I finally got the courage to say to Leon exactly how I feel, once again I get rejected. This time it maybe for the best. He is with this new girl who makes him happy, and there is no reason for me to dislike her. She has a lot in common with Leon. It hurts to know that I will never have the person I love, and he may never know my true feelings. Now I have no choice but to forget about him forever. For right now I am sulking in my tears. Flashbacks of watching them kiss haunts me, and at this moment I couldn't feel more lonely.
Every time I see him, or his house, all I want is to be there beside him. I dream about him, think about him, write songs about him, everything I do he is there with me. This has been the worst day of my life, second to losing my mom.
I then review a page of my diary of where I wrote a song for Leon and about my feelings for him. I took my diary over to my keyboard and began playing the song.
🎶 Don't know if I am wrong, Don't know if I'm right
Don't know if I should say or keep it inside
Just what is this feeling that's growing in me? And could it be possible that love was set free?
It's just I know my heart is real, and that I know it's love I feel
When I searched I find answers to my loneliness, And this dream that we're living is real
'Cause of you I feel heaven surrounds us
I love you, I love you
In your arms I feel no fear around us
I love you, I love you
And in your eyes shine when you see mine
I need you, I love you
And when you are near I get kinda shy, I feel like a child should I laugh should I cry?
Don't ask me for answers, They're not always there
And two of the girls they're are walking on air
It's just I know that you are real and that I know you're love I feel
When I searched I found answers to my loneliness, And this dream that we're living is real
'Cause of you I feel heaven surrounds us
I love you, I love you
In you arms I feel no fear around us
I love you, I love you
And your eyes shine when you see mine
I need you, I love you
That you miss me, That you call me
I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
'Cause of you I feel heaven surrounds us
I love you, I love you
In you arms I feel no fear around us
And your eyes shine when you see mine
I need you, I need you
That you miss me, That you call me
I love you, I love you
Don't know if I'm wrong Don't know if I'm right
Don't know if I should say or keep it inside 🎶 [Violetta]