The girls and I stayed up most of the night, talking about my day with Kyle Queen, gossiping, eating popcorn and binge-watching stupid TV-shows. I told them almost everything that happened between us, including the kiss, and they reacted exactly as I expected. Mia shrieked and started freaking out, while Chris almost choked on her popcorn. After saving her from horrendous death she managed to choke out "Seriously? You lucky bitch!"
I did let out a small part of the day, the part when he lost control and almost hit me. I didn't know why, but I didn't feel like telling them about that, because I didn't know what was it about, but it seemed like something personal, and I was curious to find out. I was also uncomfortable with girls knowing about that, because I knew they would treat him differently if they knew how fast he can lose control.
I was still mad at him, don't get me wrong. I was afraid because he snapped at me like that, furious because he got me in that mess and left me there alone, and treated me with disrespect.
At the end of the night, after analyzing, talking and going through everything that has happened – because that's just what girls do, apparently – Chris and Mia came to a realization I should continue 'seeing him'. I was still in doubt whether I actually wanted to. His aggressive actions really got to me and I was afraid to think if just the small comment made him freak out like that, how can he become when something really pisses him off. Plus, I didn't know if he wanted anything to do with me, either. We did only spend one day together and we basically didn't know anything about each other.
Even after Chris and Mia fell asleep in the morning, I couldn't. The comments Kyle made about me were spiraling inside my head and I couldn't stop thinking about it. I didn't know how he knew all of that. And the more I thought of it, the more I realized he was right about me, about the things I'd never really thought about.
And that terrified me. Because now he was the one single person who managed to read me, the real me. My wishes, thoughts, everything I'd kept hidden in a perfect little bubble, separated from everything else, in order to keep it hidden. In order to convince myself that I am who others want me to be. Who my mom wanted me to be. The perfect girl, smart, loyal, good, educated, well-mannered. And mostly boring.
But with Kyle, my real personality came bursting out of me, my rebellious, wild side, who wanted to explore, take risks, travel, and to simply not give a fuck anymore.
The more I kept thinking about that, the more I wanted out of that shiny bubble called my life. I wanted to set myself free, because what I was living in for 18 years wasn't freedom. It was an imprisonment, where the borders were set by others, and where your opinion didn't matter, as long as you were like them. As long as you didn't stand out.
But I wanted to stand out.
I wanted out.
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"Are you ready?" asked Mia excitedly and I sighed as I turned off the car. We just parked in front of the school and were getting ready for our 'big show,' as Mia and Chris liked to call it. They convinced me to take my car, black matte Maserati, which I hated driving to school, because it attracted too much attention. But they insisted it would go good with my 'bad girl image.'
They also did my hair and make-up this morning, and prepared an outfit for me, because apparently I'm so incompetent I can't do that on my own.
They did do a good job though, I must give them some credit. They combed my hair but then made it look like it was messy. They didn't apply too much make up, only emphasized my blue eyes in order to stand out, and colored my lips in a matte color.
Thankfully it was still warm, so I could wear high-waisted ripped jeans, a scarlet crop top and a short leather jacket, combined with aviator ray-bans, black Michael Kors bag and black high heels. (I'll post the picture tomorrow!)
"Let's go!" Mia clasped her hands together and I rolled my eyes. I opened the door slowly and stepped out of the car. I swear I felt how the atmosphere had suddenly changed and I could almost feel everyone's eyes on me, burning holes in every inch of my body. Suddenly, everything started buzzing, I could hear whispers coming from everywhere, wolf-whistles, intended for us, and a few shouts. I straightened my posture as I took a deep breath. Even though the looks annoyed me, I felt a bit flattered. I didn't know I have that kind of influence on people. I knew they were talking about my change of hairstyle and outfit. I usually wore normal T-shirts or dresses, never heels and crop tops, or anything that would show my figure, because I was taught it was wrong showing your body to everyone without a reason.
I looked on the right and made eye-contact with Chris, who smirked.
"What an attention are we attracting today," she said slowly, "I wonder why."
I rolled my eyes as I shut the car door and started walking over to her and Mia, and locked the car behind me.
"How amusing, how fast can you make people talk," I muttered as I reached them and we started walking towards the school. My eyes scanned the surroundings, searching for someone particular. I turned my head in another direction, trying to see if he is at their usual chill place, when I collided with a hard body. I stumbled back, but suddenly, someone grabbed my arms and pulled me in a hug.
I immediately knew who it was because of his typical smell.
Chad.
"Hey, babe, I missed you!" he exclaimed, and I could see Chris and Mia walking away to give us some space, just like we agreed to do.
We created a plan in order for Chad not to find out about yesterday. Even though it wouldn't matter for long anymore, because I was planning to break up with him just now. But I didn't want any drama between us, he didn't do anything wrong, after all. I wanted us to be able to still be friends after this, because we were together for so long and he almost felt like a part of the family.
I gulped and suddenly became very nervous, when I realized what I have to do. He pulled away from the hug and pecked my lips. He then wrapped his hands around my waist and pulled me closer to him, which annoyed me, because he didn't give me much space and wasn't making this any easier.
"What's up with the sudden change, baby?" he asked me and looked down, his eyes narrowed and confused. "Didn't you say you felt sick yesterday?"
I smiled at him. "I wanted it to be a surprise!" I exclaimed, and grinned. "Ta-da!" I threw my hands in the air, trying to act as enthusiastically as I could.
It seemed like he bought it.
"Oh ..." his eyes softened and all the suspicion was gone. He finally let me go and stepped back, his eyes scanning every inch of my body, and I shifted. I felt uncomfortable under his gaze.
"Damn," he growled, his voice now lower and huskier, "I really am a lucky guy, aren't I?" He stepped closer to me and put a finger under my chin lifting it up, and kissed me passionately. I was shocked at first because it happened so fast, but after I realized I was supposed to dump him, I started to move away from the kiss.
"Listen, Chad, we need to talk," I said and his eyes met mine. He probably saw I was serious, because he suddenly stopped smiling and had a serious expression on his face.
"Look, babe, I know I haven't had much time lately, and I'm sorry for that, I'll make it up for you, I promise."
I opened my mouth to explain to him that's not what's bothering me. I just gathered the courage to say it, when someone called his name, and his head snapped up and looked behind me.
He diverted his gaze back to me and his eyes met mine. He brought his hand to my face, brushing his finger over my lips, and I felt shivers running down my spine.
"Babe, I've got to go, we've got an important meeting for the game tonight. Can you come over tomorrow and we'll talk then?"
He didn't let me answer before he pecked my lips and winked at me
"Love you, you're the best," he said and rushed towards the stadium. A few meters away from me, he turned towards me again.
"I'll cook for you, dress something nice ..." He made a pause as his eyes scanned my body again, and his lips curled into a smirk. "On second thought, I'd rather you wear something bad. Your new look is definitely a turn-on."
With that, he winked me and left me there, speechless and defeated.
I guess that break-up didn't go as it should.
Damn it.
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