‼️⚠️TW⚠️‼️
Acts of un consensual sex (r@pe) is in this chapter so skip the read of this chapter if that's something you'd wish to not read.
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'It sucks going back to the broken version of yourself without having someone to encourage you to fix yourself like the last time.' ~ Thunder.
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Lylas' POV:
Everything hurts truly. My wrists and ankles were bruised red from the bondage I constantly struggled against. It was worst due to Ryan having me tied up to the bed post the whole night. As Ryan showered my mind drifted off to how I constantly kept trying to get free but failed.
Seeing him laying in bed next to me sleeping peacefully as I lost my will to live angered me. I so desperately wanted to repeat the actions that landed me into that school in the first place. Before he had gone to sleep he didn't fail to taunt me and inform me that he had backup copies of all the pictures he showed me.
The bathroom door opened causing my tired eyes to look that way where I saw Ryan walk out with a towel wrapped around his hips. After he had gotten dressed he untied me and allowed me to go shower. I stared at myself in the mirror once inside not really recognizing myself anymore.
After my shower I got dressed and went downstairs where I found Ryan in the kitchen taking containers out of a plastic bag from a fast food restaurant that I'm guessing he had delivered.
"Hi cupcake." Ryan smiled at his words and I cringed.
"Come and eat, I got your favorite." He said excitedly. Ryan had bleached his hair and dyed it light brown which truly made him look like a completely different person.
After eating he left the house but not before he warned me that the alarms were on so to not try anything. What could I even try?! I have no clue where the hell I'm at, and to make matters worst there were no damn phones in here. Even the windows couldn't be broke since they had bars on the them.
It was evening time when he came back and I honestly didn't care for what he did all day. I slouched on the couch and watched the news for most of it seeing as how they had no leads on my case. I miss Luca, and the group as well.
"Hi sugar plum." Ryan spoke happily as he kissed my cheek making me eye him in disgust.
"I got you some things." He smiled and grabbed my hand leading me upstairs.
There were some shopping bags on the bed and he smiled happily. Ryan made his way to the bags and pulled out a pretty knee length black and backless silk dress with a droopy neckline and spaghetti straps. It was a pretty good looking dress but coming from him I didn't want it. He pulled out some lingerie sets and one of them was a sheer night gown that had matching sheer thong underwear. I scrunched my face up watching him smile.
"I thought you could wear this to our date, and after you can wear..this." He pulled out a full lingerie set with stockings, garter belt, underwear...the whole deal.
"Fuck no." Firmly I spoke as I folded my arms over my chest causing his face to harden as he sighed and came to me after throwing the things down on the bed.
"I'm being nice Lyla, either we do it the nice way or I make you suffer, got it?" He asked in a low and deadly tone making me swallow hard. I nodded and he smiled pecking my lips.
"Good, now I got you makeup, shoes, everything you'll need to get ready, I also got you a new perfume, I love this scent, wear it tonight for our first time." He tried to caress my face but I turned my head moving away from his touch.
"Don't worry, after tonight you'll be all over me." That glint appeared in his eyes and I fought back tears.
"Be ready at 7:00pm." He left and the moment the door closed a sob slipped past my lips and I found myself silently crying.
7:00pm rolled around and I found myself sitting before a white and very well lit vanity set applying mascara for the 100th time seeing as how I cried every time my thoughts went to what'll happen tonight. Ryan walked in and smiled happily seeing I wore the dress he got me.
"You look so pretty." He said with a huge smile as he came up to me and kissed my neck from the back. I shivered and not in the good way. Ryan closed his eyes and took in my scent as I bit my lip fighting my tears and cries.
"Come let's go, I made reservations and we wouldn't want to be late." He smiled and took my hand making me stand up from the chair where I once sat.
Once in the car I stared into space thinking about Luca. Ethan, Sofi, all of them came to mind and I blinked my tears away seeing as how we had pulled into a parking spot. Ryan got out and I reluctantly followed.
Ryan took my hand and led us into the nice restaurant. After being seated he ordered for the both of us and wouldn't stop smiling at me. I prayed someone recognized me but my hair was black and short instead of being colored brightly and long. Ryan's hair was also different which didn't help.
"You look so pretty El-Lyla." He smiled and I wanted to scream, shout, anything.
"Fuck you." I said loud enough for only his ears.
"Play nice." He leaned forward with a smile and pinched my cheek harshly as a warning from across the table. I glared at him pissed.
"Do you guys need anything else?" The waiter asked after bringing our meals. Ryan shook his head flashing the waiter a sweet smile.
I found myself not being able to eat much. He tried to force me but us being in public he didn't do much. After we got home and went upstairs he laid out the black lingerie he wanted me to wear for our 'special night', the thought alone made my skin crawl. My eyes watched my shaking as I took the lingerie from his hands and went into the bathroom.
Trembling I placed the lingerie on. After watching my barely covered body in the mirror I fought back tears mentally preparing myself to be used once again. My hands tried to cover my bruised body but it was no use. I missed how Luca made me feel, those memories of him showing me real pleasure were nothing short of a distant memory. Him making me see stars an—a knock sounded on the door and I shook as I opened it though I didn't want to.
"Wow..." he said taking in my figure biting his lip smirking. I tried covering up with my arms but he yanked them away making me fist them at my sides.
"Strip me Lyla." He spoke firmly making my gaze meet his. When he saw I hesitated he grabbed my arm roughly pulling me in.
"I said to undress me Lyla." He spoke harshly making my hands tremble as they undressed him. Once he was naked he forced me onto my knees and placed himself in my mouth.
"No fighting or I ruin their lives Lyla." Fighting back tears I tried to think of everything but what he was doing. I mentally zoned out thinking about Lucas beautiful face, his arms wrapped around me hugging me, everything about him.
When I heard Ryan groan and pull out I took a deep breath feeling a single tear stream down my cheek. Laying me on the bed his eyes took my in the way my body looked in the lingerie as I trembled under him. He stripped me of any clothing and I felt him scratch my skin a few times. That was honestly the least of my worries, I was just thinking about what'll happen after.
When Ryan went to my entrance I pushed him off. I thought I could control my thoughts to take me away but they couldn't. I've been used so many times I didn't want to have it happen again.
"Please don't!" I cried full on sobbing and pleading trying to fight him off as he tried to get a hold of me.
"Please I can't no!" He ended up tying my hands together and tying them to the headboard.
"Stop making this so fucking hard!" He shouted as he choked me after tying my feet to the bed. Once on the verge of passing out he stopped and gave me an apologetic look.
"I'm sorry you just pushed me too far Lyla." He smiled and I turned my face to the side hating the sight of him.
"Plus I'd hate for you to pass out on our first time, I want you to remember this Lyla." He cupped my face kissing me and I bit his lip making him slap me.
"Please no.." I pleaded lowly once he went to my entrance. Ryan just smiled and the glint appeared in his eyes.
I found myself crying in pain and struggling as I tugged on the restraints trying to get away from him as he pushed into me.
Why me?
I wasn't lubricated making everything much more painful like always. I felt like I was being ripped apart with every painful stroke as I cried and kept pleading for it to stop.
"Please Ryan stop! It hurts! Please.." I screamed and begged for my torture to end until my voice eventually gave out. I stared to the side wall of the room after not having the voice or energy to try fighting against my restraints.
He enjoyed himself using my body as I lowly cried and sobbed having all those old feelings along with memories come back to me. Ryan's hands on my body made more tears stream down my cheeks. He gripped my face and though I fought to move my gaze away from him he made sure to force me to look into his eyes.
I shut my eyes tightly making him press the gun against the side of my head telling me to look at him. I looked into his eyes seeing that disgusting glint along with pleasure fill them. Ryan smiled sweetly smashing his lips against mines making me bite him which made him to smack me again. Though my body eventually self lubricated I still felt like I was being torn to shreds.
He came inside of me and I felt so disgusted with myself for being pathetically weak. His body fell onto mines as he panted tiredly and I silently cried some more. He showered and I laid there numb to everything as I felt his disgusting finish ooze from my entrance. After his shower Ryan warned me before undoing the ropes.
I hurried to the shower and sat in the tub hugging my knees to my chest as the water ran from my dark hair to my feet and I cried. All the memories from my past came back along with the feeling of their hands on my body and how they felt forcing themselves into me.
That once broken doll who got fixed by Luca was now broke once again. All the shattered pieces he fixed were now once again shattered but into way smaller pieces than before seeing as how I once considered him a friend.
Someone please save me...
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Xoxo,
~Thunder~
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Rape is not okay!
If anyone's experienced such a thing from the bottom of my heart I wish you the best in life and nothing but love ❤️. It hurts more when it comes from someone we've trusted and never thought could do such a thing. Hope you heal❤️🩹.