⚠️ Trigger Warning: mention of disturbing content.⚠️
'You'll feel better after.' ~ Thunder.
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Lylas' POV:
I was currently sitting in my regular chair inside of Mr.Greys office as he sat behind his desk patiently waiting for me to speak. With a heavy heart my mind finally agreed to let it out. I sighed before just deciding to get it over with.
"Lately I've been freaking out more recently and that's only because...I...I saw him." Hesitantly and lowly my voice spoke.
"Who?"
"T-the man from the video...he's...he's uh...Sofi's dad." I spoke nervously avoiding his gaze. My fingers fidgeted together as I gazed at them.
"Is that why you freaked out when you were under my desk in my office?" I nodded and let out a breathe.
"That's who called during our session, and he texted me that's why I came to your office frantic the last time." He knew about the following attacks so my mind mentally told me not to bring the embarrassment up.
"My mother died of an overdose when I was 12 and my father didn't want me." I knew he was informed of this already but I had to start from the beginning.
"I went into foster care and right before I left with him the woman told me 'You're a lucky girl to be adopted by such a man, do whatever he wants and you'll be okay.' all they cared about was money, and even after I finally got away from him after he...abused me and took advantage of me they sent me back no matter how much I protested."
"Lyla you don't have to." Lifting my head our eyes met instantly.
"I do, I need to let it out, I'm fucking drowning and I can't help but feel the need to fucking kill him with my bare hands." I placed my hands on my face covering it trying to calm down before taking a deep breath in and pulling them away. I felt so pathetic but he didn't look like he was judging me, he just looked hurt. I moved my gaze to my hands once again and continued.
"While being in his care he...did inhumane things to me. From using me as a party favor and raping me to beating me until I was on the brink of death. Every time he took me to get treated they would cover it up and give me back to him. The last time it happened I was in such bad shape they had finally decided to take me away from him. Once I was 'decent' they placed me back in the system and I went to yet another asshole who abused me and mistreated me along with his wife and kids. That's why I was acting strangely when I went to your place, I use to get beaten for simply just breathing." I hate this.
"I would bounce from one home to another and ran away from each and every single one of them. In the last home I suffered slightly more than I did with Sofi's dad. She doesn't know what he did or has done, and the things he confessed to me while in my drugged state were pure...horror...." I admitted with my face scrunched up in disgust. He's told me about every dirty thing he's done and how he got away with it all.
"Anyways in the last home I was in he...when I had first gotten there he...he threw a private party and basically passed me around to his friends after...raping me in front of them as they laughed. They would put their cigars out on my skin and..have me serve them drinks barely clothed. They would humiliate me by..degrading me and doing way worst things than that. One time he even stabbed me in the leg when I had tried to get away from him before he...raped me." I felt my throat start to close up the more I spoke.
"Uhm...one night after he had...used me and gone to sleep I don't know what had came over me. I was so disgusted with myself and pissed off as well that I was so weak to have them overpower me the way they did, so I snapped...."
"All the ignored pleading for it to stop, all the screaming until I couldn't, all the bruises, all the 'please don't' 'I don't want this' 'don't do this to me please', the ignored 'it hurts' 'I don't want to', I just-I grabbed his gun and emptied the whole thing...and if I'm being honest..." I said with tears streaming down my face looking into his eyes.
"I don't regret it." I said with a huge smile on my lips as tears steamed down my cheek. He probably thought I was insane but he just looked at me with no expression displayed on his face. My gaze went to my hands as I continued.
"I felt bad for not regretting it, I felt like a monster, but then I came to terms with it and just embrace it. No wonder my father left, he probably saw I was a fuck up even before I could walk or talk. I mean even after DNA tests he still decided to say fuck me and leave us to die. Anyways that's about it, I've been abused by every man I've came in contact with until I ended here. Along with that neither of my parents wanted me and my brother didn't care until I guess now. So that's it, hating parents, a life of crime growing up, petty theft, in and out of jail, murder, abuse.....and now I'm here broken, used up, lonely, useless, and last but not least pathetic." I shrugged meeting his eyes and he sighed before getting up and standing in front of me.
Before I knew it he came down and held me tightly. With a sigh I placed my arms around him holding him tightly and hiding my face in his neck breathing in his scent. A sob left my lips and I started crying like a baby. I hated how weak I was being with him but I couldn't help it. Even after all the facts I told him he was still here holding me tightly. I cried until I couldn't anymore once again. The whole time he stayed holding me tightly as my walls all crumbled down and I let out all the pain I've held in for years.
"Thank you." I sighed out and he squeezed me reassuring me that it was okay. He pulled back and once again I had ruined another shirt of his.
"I needed that honestly, it feels good to let it out at least once." With a sigh and soft smile I spoke.
"Not everyone has an easy life, I'm sorry you went through that. As for the video.....did you want to report him?"
"He's rich, he'll get out of it no matter what." I said with a shrug.
"What about Sofi? Do you plan on keeping this from her?" He was now leaning against his desk with his hands in his pockets.
"I guess I shouldn't." I said lowly looking at my hands. He hummed before sighing and speaking.
"Alright come on." He sighed once again as he pushed himself off the table and collected his things.
"Huh?" I asked looking up at him.
"You don't think I'm leaving you alone like this right?" I smiled softly before sighing and getting up. Of course he wouldn't.
"Lead the way." He smiled and with that we headed out. It was dark outside making me realize just how long I had actually been crying for.
Once at his place he made us dinner after we had both freshened up and we watched a movie.
I was surprised when during the movie he had opened his arms to me letting me cuddle him. His body heat warmed me as his heartbeat relaxed me. It felt so nice having his arms wrapped around me.
It was now time for us to go to sleep and as I walked towards the guest room he spoke stopping me in my tracks.
"Where are you going?" I looked back at him and he looked genuinely confused.
"To...sleep?" I questioned slightly confused as well.
"Lyla get in here." He said as he opened the door to his room.
I looked at my feet to hide my smile and blushing cheeks as I made my way into his room and then his bed. Once both in bed we drifted off to sleep with our backs to each other. When I woke up it was around 2:00 am and my eyes widen when I noticed our current position. We were face to face practically hugging and cuddling each other. He held me tightly just like he did in his office and I couldn't help but smile taking in his handsome and relaxed features. Even when asleep he wanted me to feel safe.
I think I just fell in love with someone who will never love me back...I'm screwed.
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🥺🥺.
Xoxo,
~Thunder~
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