I made memories
And then I took pictures
Sam will keep those pictures forever...
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Us human forces a lot of feelings
So we could keep the old memories
Or
To relive the same memories
But when some people change around us
And that change costs our comfort in exchange for their needs, or attention toward us
Is no longer love
I realized the past few months
In order To keep some good memories with the people I used to love
I had to leave them
So that the memories don't change from something I used to cherish
to something I wish I never felt.
And yes it does make sense
Because I'm a human as well
I'm not just here for you
Or anyone else
Because if I'm here for you
Then where are you for me?
You see
Love is a relationship between two
Not one
It doesn't work that way
I love my clothes because they make me pretty
I love my eyes because they get small when I laugh
I love my mom because she gave me everything that she could, and she tries her best of still giving me what I deserve
And when I love them
I take care of my clothes because I don't want them to be ruined
I protect my eyes so that I don't have to wear glasses, or so that I don't hurt them
I do whatever my mom asks me
Endure whatever she calls me
(She never called me any bad word, it's just a metaphor expression :) .)
Listen to her whenever she needs me
And I try my best to make her proud of me
as she made me of her.
When I was walking home today
I realized how lucky I am
And I thank god for that... everyday
Because he made me loved by others
He made me change a path that was hurtful to me
And I realized that I no longer need to force myself into driving on such a trip that I know it would lead to the same place
No matter how much I tried with some people
Or how I tried to endure some
I felt they were not ready to change the way they are
Not for me
Not for anyone else
So
I slowly changed the path
Picked a random place
Without thinking
But
I had good intentions
For me.
Because I respect myself
I respect my limits
I respect my pride
And that respect reflects the people that are around me
And when it doesn't
I know it's not me.
Just don't let some people ruin your balance in life
Because they will love it when you lose.
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