'Trauma does cut deep.' ~ Thunder.
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Lylas' POV:
I was on Lucas desk in his office with him in between my legs kissing my neck as his hands roamed my body. One of my hands tangled in his hair as the other gripped his muscular arm. A soft moan slipped my lips along with a hum as Luca kept kissing my skin along with caressing it. His touch was so soft and gentle that I was truly in a trance.
"Mmm.." throwing my head back further I moaned giving him more room as his hands pulled my necktie down along with undoing a few of my buttons.
"Lu..Luca....mmm" I bit my bottom lip savoring his lips on my body.
His touch felt so different from anyone else I've ever been with but my mind kept going to that dark place the further down he touched. With a sigh my eyes shut tightly before they reopened as my mind tried to focus on his touch. Even though I was trying hard I couldn't do it.
"Stop." Firmly I found myself speaking before my mind could comprehend the words leaving my mouth.
"What's wrong?" Luca questioned after pulling back the second my words reached his ears. His hands had stayed put on my waist not moving an inch the moment he had pulled back.
"I...nothing I just rather please you." I whispered pulling him in and kissing him. He's never given me a chance and I truly wanted to so it wasn't technically a lie.
"I much rather please you though.." he retorted as his lips once again claimed mines leaving me breathless.
"Please just let me please you..." I pleaded to which he smiled shaking his head. Honestly throughout our whole situationship I've been making up excuses when it came to these things instead of being straight forward with him. Fuck I'm pathetic.
"Not unless I can repay the favor." He gave me puppy eyes and I laughed kissing him once again.
"I should go, my next class is on the other side of campus." I started fixing my top and necktie as he took a step back to give me room making the bulge in his pants visible.
"You're that hard yet you won't let me please you?" I questioned with a smile as I hopped off the desk and fixed my blazer.
"Why won't you let me touch you? Do...do I not turn you on or? Does it feel uncomfortable or weird with me because I'm your teache—" I placed a hand on his nape and pulled him down claiming his lips shutting him up one time before he could finish the sentence.
"It doesn't feel weird and yes you turn me on so stop worrying." I said giggling against his lips before claiming his once again.
"It's just some past trauma I'm trying to get over, nothing to do with you." My face gave him a reassuring look as I moved away and grabbed my bag.
"No goodbye kiss?" I heard Lucas voice right behind me after his arms had wrapped around my waist and he had pulled me into him. I found myself laughing when he started placing a bunch of pecking kisses on my neck.
"I'm going to be late Luca." After turning around in his arms my eyes met his sad ones making me truly wish we could stay like this.
"Plus you have a class in a couple of minutes; no?" I pecked his lips a couple of times until he pulled me in and placed his lips onto mines firmly. We kissed slowly our lips dancing together and fitting perfectly against one another. I opened my mouth slightly allowing him access. His tongue gracefully ventured my mouth before we pulled back out of breath and satisfied.
"I should go before I'm late." He pouted and I pecked his lips not letting him distract me any further.
Why do I have to be so pathetic and freak out every time he wants to touch me?! Ugh you fool! For fuck sakes he's not like them! I slapped my head a few times before sighing and making my way to class. I guess trauma does cut deep.
It was now late into the night and I was currently in bed relaxing smiling my ass off as Luca texted me.
'Is your roommate there?'
'No why?' There was a knock on my door right after he read my message confusing me but I opened it regardless. It was about 10:45 pm so a knock at this hour was really not expected. Sofi had decided to sleep over at another dorm for the night as well so I knew it wasn't her.
A yelp sound left my lips the second I opened the door due to someone wrapping their arms around my waist pulling me in one time along with a pair of lips kissing me. They started walking me backwards into the room as I smiled happily kissing them back seeing as how it was Luca. I heard the door close and the lock turn as my arms went around his shoulders.
"W-wait wait wait." I said pulling back from his lips. I took in his attire and he was wearing a pair of dark jeans with a regular black tee looking as delicious as ever.
"How are you here? Why are you here? We can get caught. What if someone saw you? Or if someone sees you we ca—" he shut me up by placing his lips onto mines once again.
"Breathe baby." Luca smiled as he spoke resting his forehead onto mines one time. I sighed and relaxed into his touch.
"I don't want you to get in trouble." With a pout I spoke. Luca kissed me again but pulled back quickly.
"Baby it's okay, no one saw me, plus I'm not in my suit and my tattoos are out they won't know either way." I sighed but smiled hugging him.
"You're insane." I mumbled into his neck. He picked me up making me wrap myself around him as I pulled my face back and placed my lips onto his. I moaned into his lips as he walked us to my bed.
After gently laying me down he kissed me passionately before pulling my shirt over my head.
He's not like them.
He's not like them.
He's not like them.
I kept repeating in my head but I couldn't get past it. He was now kissing my neck as I made more room for him. I grabbed onto his shirt closing my eyes tightly. My eyes fluttered open when he stopped and completely pulled back away from me.
"What's wrong?" I asked propping up on my elbows.
"You tell me.." he said raking a hand through his hair as he sat on my bed. He didn't sound annoyed or anything, just genuinely concern.
"I don't think I'm ready to go there with you yet." Softly and shyly I spoke.
"Why didn't you just say that?" He asked as he brought a hand to caress my cheek. I leaned into his touch automatically.
"I-I thought you'd get upset." I said lowly as I met his eyes.
"Why would I?" He offered me a soft smile and I sighed.
"I don't know." I've gotten so use to not being able to say no I was scared he'll act like them but I should of known better.
He moved to the headrest and leaned against it sitting down as he opened is arms for me. I happily crawled my happy butt into his arms and laid next to him snuggled into his side.
"Don't ever feel like you can't be honest with me okay?"
"Okay." I sighed out closing my eyes and letting myself enjoy him.
I bit my bottom lip glancing up at him to see he was resting his head on the headboard of my bed with his eyes closed as his fingers caressed my waist.
"Baby..." I said seductively to which he hummed. I used my hand and slid it down to his area making him groan slightly.
"Lyla no.." he grabbed my hand and lifted his head up to look at me. I bit my bottom lip and got onto him straddling him.
"I want to please you Mr.Grey, let me please you..." I said as I gripped onto his shirt and started moving my waist in a circle automatically moving my body against him
"Fuck..." he gripped my hips and pressed me down stopping my movement as he hissed and closed his eyes. My eyes widen when I felt him poking me though this is what I wanted. He felt so big like always.
I wonder how big he actually is.
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Xoxo,
~Thunder~
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