“ they say follow your heart , but if your heart is in a million pieces which piece do you
follow ? ”
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“ jimin it's ok , it's ok I'm here hmm ? ” jin softly wisphered into jimin's ears , jimin cried a lot until he couldn't... he eventually calmed down .
‘ look he's gone , i sent him away there's nothing to be scared of i won't let anything happen to you yeah ? ’
Jin smiled sadly , caressing jimin's soft hairs as jimin wipped his tears with his small hands .
Jin couldn't help but coo at jimin's cuteness . Jimin slowly looked up with his innocent eyes as if he wanted to ask something and jin sensed it .
‘ what is it jimin ? ’ jin asked
‘ w-who are you hyung ... and how do you know m-master ? ’ jimin asked scared if he crossed his limits.
Jin hesitated a bit before answering , he knew there was no good in lying to jimin or hiding anything from him , jimin deserved to know. ‘ I'm jungkook's older brother ’ .
Jimin's eyes widened in fear , he looked at jin feeling ...betrayed ? As if jin was not who he thought he was , he felt hurt knowing that jin is jungkooks brother... and now it was even more difficult for him to trust jin.
‘ t-that doesn't mean i support him jimin , what he did to you is unforgivable , and i- even tho I'm his hyung i would never support him in such kind of things , what he did to you was wrong , very wrong and I'll make sure he suffers the consequences of his actions ! ’ jin replied scared that he might loose jimin's trust in him , he didn't want that .
Jimin started to slide away from jin .
‘ jimin i -look baby i know how difficult it is for you right now to trust anyone , and I'm not asking you to blindly trust me but - please , please give me a chance to prove myself I'll earn your trust ’ jin stared at jimin with hopeful eyes .
Jimin looked down , he was thinking deeply ...soon after he nodded his head softly .
He looked up at jin and smiled deciding to trust jin .
He didn't know jin , he had just met him few hours ago but ...jin made him feel something that no one ever did...he made him feel safe.
So he decided to trust jin .
Jin couldn't contain his happiness he hugged jimin , jimin flinched and jin quickly got away mentally cursing himself , jimin wasn't in a state to accept physical touch right now . It would take time...
Jimin wasn't afraid of jin but still these sudden actions scared him .
‘ t-thank you hyung ’ jimin said shyly turning red.
‘ for what jiminie ? ’
Ahh jiminie that word made his heart turn to mush .
‘ f-for everything hyung ’ jimin replied not sure what he wanted to thank jin for....
For saving his life ? for allowing him to call him hyung ? for taking care of him ? for protecting him from jungkook ...or for showing him love he didn't deserve...
‘ if you really want to thank me there's something you can do ...’ jin replied .
Jimin tensed , his heartbeat started to fasten even tho he trusted jin , he just couldn't help but feel afraid .
What did jin want from him...?
It made him feel helpless , everyone just wanted something in exchange...no one ever showed him kindness and even if they did they always wanted something in exchange... and it all made sense now maybe jin wanted something from jimin... that's why he helped him .
Jimin bit his inner cheeks in order to stop himself from crying ....he actually thought that jin cared.
‘ jimin !? What's wrong everything is ok breathe ’ jin said bringing jimin out from his thoughts .
‘ ok - wait a minute I'll he right back ’ with that jin ran out of the room only to come back with a tray full of food . It smelled delicious . That's when jimin realised how hungry he actually was .
Jin sat down near the bed on the stool he was sitting on earlier . He placed the try near jimin .
Looking up at a confused jimin . ‘ You said you wanted to thank me right? So in order to thank me you'll have to finish everything’ jin said pointing at the plate , ‘ you can do that for me right ? ’ he asked again smiling at jimin .
A huge wave of guit splashed through jimin . He regretted doubting jin .
He was so wrong about him ...he felt bad for not trusting him .
Jimin looked down in shame.
Jin softly scooted towards him leaning on his elbows looking up to face jimin .
‘ you ok little buddy ? ’ jin asked smiling softly.
( This is the best image i could find ,this is the way jin is sitting near jiminie )
Jimin nodded smiling with tears in his eyes , he just loved jin so much he couldn't believe his fate...he was so grateful to have jin . He thanked his lucky stars smiling at jin who starred back at him lovingly .
‘ c'mon now eat up pretty boy ’ Jin said lifting a spoon full of soup blowing on it to check if it's too hot .
And jimin couldn't help but die a little inside , jin's slightest gesture made him realise how much love he lacked in his life .
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Jungkook was sitting in jimin's room it was dark , he cluched his head in order to stop the excruciating white pain that passed through his head to all over his body .
‘ what- what should i do now , i ruined everything ...hyung is right I'm just *sobs* I'm just like him ’ jungkook muttered not able to control his tears , he was scared , sad ... lonely , he felt like his life was over now.
He thought jimin didn't matter to him ...but he was totally wrong , it hurt him more than anything to see jimin in that state .
He was shivering , his migraine had came back yet again adding to his endless agony .
Everytime he closed his eyes he got flashbacks , flashbacks of wooshik laying in the hospital bed ... and flashback of jimin connected to different machines ...he ruined both of them . He hurt both of them.
He was the one who was responsible for their merciful state . And he knew it . The thought alone was hurting him endlessly .
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1 day ago ~
( In the hospital )
‘ how did this happen ’ jungkook asked blankly not looking up .
‘ he went out for a walk ... and he-he got into an accident , i was waiting for him , i was trying to call him continuously but he didn't pick up ’ *sob* jason cried trying to hold himself he was broken , it was too much for him , few hours ago he was happily making pancakes with his husband and now he was in the hospital not even sure if he'll ever be able to see him smile again.
‘ after sometime i received a call from someone , they told me that woo was hit by a car and he - he was covered in blood when i got there he - ’ jason couldn't complete his sentence he was shaking and sobbing .
Jungkook's got a wierd feeling in his gut when he heard jason call wooshik ‘woo’ . It made him feel weak and pathetic knowing how much they loved each other .
He somewhere always knew ...but he just didn't wanted to accept the fact that , wooshik didn't love him back so he always denyed that wooshik and jason did really loved each other .
‘ i- i took everything for granted...i-i should have loved him more *sobs* should have told him how much he meant to me ’ jason continued crying while jungkook just sat there not moving a muscle he was in too much of a shock.
He couldn't believe this was actually happening .
By the whole time the surgery was happening jason and jungkook just sat there waiting , not uttering a word neither looking at each other they just sat there lost in their own thoughts .
One suffering because he was afraid to loose everything he had , one suffering because he lost everything he could never have.
After few hours of operating the doctor cane out of the operation threater .
Both jungkook and jason springed fron their sets sprinting towards the doctor.
Both of their faces laced with fear and worry .
‘ is he ok , is my woo ok !? ’ jason asked about to throw himself on the doctor .
‘ please calm down , he-he's ok the surgery was successful ...but ’ the doctor observed them both looking down sadly .
‘ he's very serious... he's in a critical state right now , his brain is injured severely...so we can't tell anything until he wakes up ’ the doc said jason fell down to his kness crying and cursing himself .
‘ when will he wake up ? ’ jungkook asked ignoring Jason's cries .
‘ i can't tell you that but ...i just want you to be prepared for the worst ...i mean he- looking at his condition it's very difficult to tell anything right now I'm not saying he's never gonna get well , there are chances but ...the odds are against us , i can't tell anything right now he could wake up in a hour or ...he couldn't go in a coma , or for the worse he could - look i just want you to be strong i know how difficult it is for you right now but please just try to be positive that's the best we can do right now ’.
With that the doctor left , jason cried and caused a scene because he wanted to meet wooshik .
Jungkook and jason waited and waited but wooshik didn't wake up.
It was night when jungkook finally spoke up that too to tell jason to shut up , jason had been talking to himself crying and muttering wooshik's name .
‘ will you just shut up ! so annoying ’ jungkook grunted wishpering the last part .
jason stopped suddenly looking at jungkook gulping in anger he got up and ran straight to jungkook punching him in face and pulling him up with his collar jungkook was too stunned to speak anything .
‘ it's because of you , everything is because of you , you hurt him you and your psychotic father ruined his life but it wasn't enough for you that you came back to ruin our lives again !!! IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU !! I'LL KILL YOUU I'LL RUIN YOUR LIFE TOO I'LL HURT YOU JUST LIKE YOU HURT HIM! ’ jason
punched him so hard that jungkook felt dizzy . He would have fell to the ground if it wasn't for jason who was holding him up .
‘ I HATE YOU I DON'T WANT TO SEE YOU ANYWHERE NEAR HIM JUST GET OUT !! GET OUT OF HERE !! GET OUT OF OUR LIVES. ’ jason shouted pushing jungkook as he fell to the ground and his back hit the metal chairs that were lined to the wall .
Nurses and doctors came running towards him , both of them were warned that they'll be escorted out of the hospital it they caused any scene again .
And ...Jungkook left .
He left the hospital just to drive to a bar near by where he got totally wasted . Only to get picked up my Mr.chul who took him to his own house .
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( End of flashback )
‘ it's all my fault , i ruined everything , i hurt everyone ...j-jimin *sob* i hurt him he hates me , wooshik hates me jason hates me *sob* ...h-hyung hates me everyone hates me ’ jungkook was having a panic attack .
But unlike everytime jimin wasn't there ...no one was there he was all alone .
That is when he realised how much he messed up .
In order to chase what he couldn't have he ruined everything he had .
He kept on crying regretting everything he had done in these past few months .
The cried and groaned in pain but no one was there to listen to his cries.
The windows started to bang as wind blew . The thunder echoed through the silence of the night .
The only light illuminating the room was coming from the window...the moonlight .
The moon it reminded him of jimin for some reason ...jimin is just like the moon ...he thought
Just like those black spots he had scars on his soul , yet he would light up the darkness of the world with his glowing kindness and sparkling love .
The windows clashed again , making a banging sound as the rain came pouring down .
That's when a paper came flying towards him .
There was something written on ...in a messy handwriting , ‘is it ... is it jimin's handwriting ? ’Jungkook thought.
There was something written on it ...
The words read ~
“ you taught me a lot about love , even though you couldn't give it to me ...”
─ ⊹ ⊱ ☆ ⊰ ⊹ ─
What do you think about this new chapter !? I'd love to know .
as i said i was going to update on Sunday but today out of nowhere, i suddenly got motivation to write so here's a new update ;)
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Word count : 2149
Ngl kinda proud of myself i wrote a lot lol.