Nobody told me how pregnancy hormones made you not only teary, overwhelmed, terrified but also on the flip side, deliriously happy, content and then the surprise ... horny.
I hit a certain milestone and it's like all the blood in my body rushed down between my legs making me throb, literally over anything, a brush of material, even, could make me blush with the best of them.
I stood in my bedroom mirror. I was six months gone, my belly was most definitely popped. I was seemingly now smuggling a baby cantelope up my dungarees, it was October now but I was hot all the time, walking around in shorts, dungarees, t shirts, vests, hair up and out of the way in messy buns or French plaited out of the way.
Teddy appeared in the doorway, she was over for an evening of basketball chat with Willa, her season not long finished had been good, she had done great, her team were on a winning streak at the end of the season in August.
Teddy had made herself a more permanent fixture in my appointments, she didn't want to miss another thing and so she didn't.
Teddy wouldn't let you down twice. I think it was something she lived for, to please the people she loved and not let you down against all the odds. She was perhaps over the top because it was never that she let me down at all but I wouldn't deny I enjoyed her attention being back here with us. Jay was still around, less so now he was back playing, the less I had to hear "Theo" this or "Theo" that the better, Willa couldn't stand it either, we spent entire dinners sometimes, eye rolling when nobody was looking.
"Dear lord you look adorable" she observed affectionately.
"I feel like a beached whale" I state "and I still have three months to go... is that possible" I ask "I feel like that's ridiculous" I say looking down at my belly under my denim overalls "she can't possibly get bigger and don't get me started on the way I'm about to implode"
"What do you mean" she asks curiously walking over to me and looking at me lovingly.
"I mean Theodora that I've never felt hornier. I literally am spending days on the verge of ..." I nod "you know" i state embarrassed "and I've got nobody to help me release it..."
She puts her hand over her mouth and laughs "oh Harper" she muses "what a predicament"
"I know and I'm so horny I could literally jump anyone at this point just to satisfy the sensation. I swear to god I'm being punished right now for losing my virginity"
Teddy flinches when I mention I could jump anyone.
"Okay let's not jump people" she says softly leading me back into the bedroom. "You just need a vibrator..." she suggests "do you have one" she asks.
I shake my head "no but it's not what I need. I need human interaction Teddy... I need... excuse my language but I need to be handled"
"Handled?" She questions "like a horse" she questions.
I pull my hand from hers "like a woman who needs to be ravaged a little" I say flushing in the cheeks as another wave comes over me "it's happening again" I whisper.
She looks at me curiously, up and down. "What can I do" she asks and we both try and not laugh because that was the most ridiculous question right now.
I needed Teddy to unclip my dungarees and push her fingers down my underwear, that's what I needed, dear god!! Having her in my bedroom right now was not helping the throb.
"I mean it's not as if I'm not skilled in female pleasure... I've had my moments" she teases and I wish she wouldn't because visions flood my mind of her tongue running down...
welp!
"Harper would you like me to... kiss you?" She asks and my heart begins to run a little wild at the suggestion.
"What" I ask confused.
"Perhaps a little human interaction could help... not a lot ...but a little.." she offers.
"Is that appropriate" I ask "What would Jay say"
"He would say go for it, our relationship is open" she confesses and I nod slowly taken aback . That's why he's lasting, he's not after commitment and so Teddy need not run, which also means she doesn't love him or she would have cut him loose.
My eyes wonder over her, hers over me, and I'm not sure who moves first but we end up in the middle of the room, her hands on my cheeks and my lips on her lips, her tongue slipping softly through my open mouth, meeting mine, a sure way to start a throb between legs but as mine was already throbbing it only intensified it.
Her hands slip from my cheeks, down my sides, landing on my hips, and her fingers curl around my flesh, the sensation of which tips my pleasure ever so slightly. The brush of her hand moving up my ribs, caressing the flesh gently as her fingers danced, softly and purposefully gentle and tender it sent butterflies on course through my belly. Waves begin to wash down between my legs as her fingers trail beyond my ribs, inches from my breasts which were currently much larger than normal and equally as sensitive. Teddy pauses there, her hesitation is obvious, she doesn't want to move from friend zone to 'fucking' in one wrong movement, but oh my goodness, I began to ache for her to move her hand and the more I felt the urge I finally gave in to it.
I lifted my hands to her cheeks and deepened the kiss, my tongue rolling across hers, nipping at her bottom lip, pulling the flesh of it seductively back into my mouth, inviting her discovery to continue, causing her to moan into my mouth, the pleasure between my legs needing one more push.
I let her cheeks go and place my hands on hers under my breasts and I push them forcefully up, her palms slipping under the material of the bra and over my engorged breasts, the moans that followed were both of ours, and quite uncontrolled as her palms moved over my nipples, they hardened against her and my pleasure finally poured over. My fingers dig into her shoulders as a wave of intense orgasm washed throughout my entire body, something I had never felt my entire life, like every part of me entered a euphoria, and all she had to do was touch me, so gently, lightly and almost innocently. My lips left hers, and I held my head against her shoulder as the last of the wave ran through me. She slipped her hands back down and released my breasts, before holding me closely in an embrace.
"Better" she asks breathlessly and I nod against her shoulder "better" I return.
"Well I'm glad I could assist you... but fucking hell Harper ... I've never felt so horny in my entire life" she reveals and we both begin to laugh.
"I'm so sorry" I apologise.
She cups my chin in her hand as I look back at her, our chests both rising and falling dramatically "I'm not sure if we should have perhaps done that but... it didn't feel wrong did it?" She questions.
I gulp "no it didn't... not at all"
"Movies ready" Willa calls from downstairs.
Teddy releases my chin but softly strokes my hand at my side "Are we ever going to mention this again" she asks me.
I smile and nod "next time i hope" I say teasingly.
She smiles back quite flirtatiously "oh I see" she remarks "you know when I said I would do anything to assist you through this pregnancy I wasn't including sexual favours" she says with a grin.
"I could ask someone else" I tease.
She strokes my hand again "I'm more than happy to help" she retorts.
We look down to our disheveled state and right ourselves, adjusting clothing that is out of place before heading downstairs for a rather intense movie night that was filled with shared looks across the room, and then laughter as we both let what just happened settle in our minds.
What the hell did we just do?! Neither of us were sure but damn it felt good and the throb had finally subsided.