Kabanata 92- Use Him?
Phoebe Alisha's Pov
[WARNING: CONTAINS SOME MATURE SCENES]
‘I guess, I should do it. If this is the only way, then be it.’
I came through lots of realizations and plannings and now I am confident that I wouldn't lose this.
That bullshit will fall for me. I settled everything in my mind and hopefully everything will go according to my plans.
‘I can do this, I'm not a Montemayor for nothing.’
“I'm so ready with this.” I scooped my hand in the water and pour it on my shoulder. I'm currently soaked in the bathtub, I don't know kung bawal 'tong ginagawa ko sa may stitched wound.
Hindi naman nasakit 'yung tahi sa'kin, o baka sadyang manhid na talaga 'ko. Inabot ko ang body scrub at ipinangkuskos iyon sa braso ko.
I heard the room's door opened and I'm guessing how many people were entering.
“What the-” boses 'yon ni Khalex.
Malalim akong bumuntong hininga at inilipat 'yung body scrub sa leeg ko. I accessed my neck so I can scrub it more.
Nagitla pa'ko nang padarag na bumukas ang pinto.
‘Fuck this man. He doesn't know how to open a damn door correctly. Lagi nalang.’
I look at him innocently. He was wearing a black pants and loose polosleeves. Nakasuot ang isang kamay sa bulsa and as usual with his poker face.
“What?” pabulong na tanong ko.
“Are you aware that soaking your stitched wound would increase it's risk of infection?” nakakunot ang noong sabi niya.
‘What?’
“The doctor said.”
“I don't know.” I immediately stood up and reach my robe. Ilang minuto pa naman din siguro akong nababad.
I stepped out from the tub while putting my robe on. Napahinto ako ng mapansin kong nakatitig sa'kin si Khalex.
He was slowly looking at me from head to toe with his serious eyes. Hindi nakaligtas sa akin ang pasimpleng paglunok niya.
I looked at my nakedness then turn my gaze back in him.
“Gusto mo ba?” I playfully asked.
Sinamaan niya ako ng tingin at pinanatili ang paningin sa mga mata ko. I can see desire and lust in his eyes.
‘That was easy.’
I slowly removed my robe but then he shut the door loudly.
“Pfft.” pinigilan ko ang sarili kong matawa. I can say that he's really tempted.
Muli kong sinuot ang robe ko at tinali ito. Kinuha ko 'yung twalya at ginamit pang tuyo ng buhok ko. Lumabas ako sa comfort room. My eyes automatically find Khalex but he was gone.
‘Where did he go? Inaasar lang naman 'e.’
Katulad kanina bago ako pumunta sa comfort room ay hawak hawak ko ngayon 'yung part ng tyan ko na may tahi.
Inabot ko 'yung bandage sa lamp table bago maglakad papuntang walk-in closet.
Biglang bumukas 'yung pinto. It was Ara and Mina and it looks like they will set up my foods in the bed tray again.
Hindi kasi ako sumasabay sa mga Montenegro kumain kaya dinadalhan nalang ako dito pero hindi ko din masyadong kinakain dahil wala akong gana.
“Sa baba ako kakain.”
Nagkatinginan sila bago muling tumingin sa'kin at tumango.
Pumasok ako sa walk-in closet. Nag-suot na ko ng undergarments bago maghanap ng maisosoot na damit.
I first wore my shorts then put an ointment in my stitched wound after I put the bandage. I hooked it and put on a cloth.
Pinili ko 'yung black oversized t-shirt na nakita ko, masama kasing tignan kung magc-crop top ako o lingerie dahil makikita 'yung bandage.
Nanatali ako dito at patuloy na pinapatuyo ang buhok ko and while doing that, I tried to find that piece of paper with Giovanni’s phone number.
Dapat sauluhin ko 'yon incase na mawala ko o makuha ng kung sino man. When I finally found it, I take my time to memorized it at the same time while drying my hair.
Nakahawak ako sa tyan ko nang bumaba ako. Naglakad na ko daretso sa kusina kung saan tahimik na nakain si Khalex at Kairen samantalang si Keiren ay nagc-cellphone at puro sigaw.
“Bobo mo, pabuhat!” sigaw niya.
“Mas bobo ka!” sigaw pabalik sakaniya nung boses galing sa cellphone.
“Ay Ma'am.” tawag sa'kin ni Manang, nabaling sa'kin yung atensyon nilang tatlo. “Kakain na po ba kayo?”
Tumango ako.
Malapad siyang ngumiti, para bang masaya na kakain ako dito.
“Sawakas kakain ka na din kasabay namin Phoebe Alisha, hindi mo din siguro matiis na hindi nakikita ang aking kagwapuhang tinataglay.”
Suminghal nalang ako at umirap.
“You mentioned Pabi, right? Sinabi mo 'yong bobo ka. Pabi 'yon diba? diba?” sabi nung boses, nangunot ang noo ko dahil parang pamilyar ito. It takes me minutes after I recognize who owns that voice.
‘Sephora?’
“Wala, wala. Hindi ako kumakausap ng mga taong pabigat.”
“‘Wag mong kausapin sarili mo! Pabigat ka sa mundong ibabaw, hayop ka.” sigaw ni Sephora. “Sinabi mo Phoebe Alisha! Hindi ako bingi.”
“Wala naman akong sinasabi.”
Umupo ako sa upuan malapit sa kabisera kung saan nakaupo si Khalex na seryosong nakain.
“I’m not stupid like you, bitch! Sinabi mo, Phoebe Alisha! Isa lang ang kilala kong Phoebe Alisha! Si Pabi.”
‘Kailan pa naging close ‘yang dalawang ‘yan?’
“Maraming Phoebe Alisha sa buong mundo. ‘Wag assuming kung pangit naman.”
“Ako Keiren Montenegro, ‘wag mo kong gawing bobo.”
“Weh? Weh? Weh? Matagal ka na namang bobo.”
“Alam mo, sana nanatili ka nalang sperm. Para naman nabawasan ang pabigat sa Pilipinas.”
“Oh, bobo talaga! Tungek nasa Greece ako. Gris hindi sa Pilipins.”
“Putanginamo, solid!” malutong na mura ni Sephora. Humalakhak naman si Keiren, para bang satisfied na sa pang bubuwisit niya.
“Bad magmura, ha bobo.”
Nilapag ni Manang sa harapan ko 'yung pinggan at basong hawak niya, sinalinan niya muna ng tubig yung baso ko bago ngumiti.
I just nod and smiled a bit.
“Anong himala ang nangyari at sumabay ka samin ngayon?” nakangiting tanong ni Keiren. Hindi siya nakatingin sa'kin dahil naka-focus siya sa paglalaro.
“I’m so bored in my room.” I answered.
“Si Pabi 'yon!”
“Hindi ah. Oh! HAHAHA ba't ka nag flicker?? Ako 'yung Selena, kabado ampotah.”
“Potaka, ba't sa'kin mo initcha.”
Inabot ko ‘yung kanin at nilagyan ng konti ang pinggan ko.
“E ba't ka umiwas?”
Inabot ko ‘yung Afritada. Tinignan ko si Khalex dahil nahuli ko siyang nakatingin sa'kin.
“Gusto mo ba?” I repeat the same words I said earlier.
Hindi niya ako pinansin at binalik nalang ang atensyon sa pagkain.
‘Eto na ba 'yung Montenegro'ng pinagmayabang nila? Corny.’
“Nu yon? Gusto ko din.” sabi ni Keiren. Tumingin siya sa'kin bago ibalik ang paningin sa cellphone niya. “Patikim ako, ano ba 'yon?”
Hindi ako nagsalita dahil bigla akong naawkward-an. Nilagyan ko nalang ng Afritada ang pinggan ko.
Maya maya ay pinatay na ni Keiren 'yung phone niya. Yes, I'll admit that I kinda missed her but in this kind of life I had, hindi ako pwede maattached ulit sakaniya, sa ngayon. Maybe we can get along with Everlyze if ever na matapos na 'tong gulo, kung matatapos.
“How’s she?” I asked.
Inabot niya 'yung Afritada at inamoy amoy 'yon.
“She’s fine.” nilagyan niya ng ulam ang pinggan niya at tinikman 'yung Afritada. “Normal naman ang lasa? Anong meron dito?” nakakunot ang noong tanong ni Kei. “Uh, by the way she's a model.”
“Really?” hindi ko naitago ang excitement at saya sa boses ko, mabilis ko namang inalis ang ngiti sa labi ko. “Uhm, that's cool.”
Umayos nalang ako nang upo at sinimulan ng kumain.
“Eto nga siya oh.” inabot ni Keiren ang phone niya, nung una ay nag-aalangan pa kong kunin but I actually end up holding his phone.
She looked so gorgeous and kinda mature than before. Her hair was long and in soft wavy curls. Also mukang nagpa-lash lift siya dahil mukang mahaba at makapal ang pilik niya but it looks natural.
She was wearing a beige bodysuit layered with loose jeans, Gucci belt and a white Nike shoes.
I slowly touch her face with my pointing finger like I was caressing it but actually not. She looked so happy now and she really deserves it.
Bumuntong hininga ako at binalik kay Kei 'yung phone niya. Pagkatapos no'n ay hindi na'ko nagsalita at pinagpatuloy nalang ang pagkain.
I was slowly walking downstairs while fixing my new changed bandage when I saw Keiren. He was holding a bottle of beer while whistling. He noticed me and stopped walking.
I hooked the bandage and cover it with the same T-shirt I'm wearing earlier.
“Want?” pang-aalok niya at bahagya pang itinaas ang hawak niyang bote.
‘Kasama kaya si Khalex?’
“Kasama si Khalex ah? Natatakot ako sa'yo ‘e, baka gahasain mo ‘ko.”
‘Paano kung lasingin ko kaya si Khalex? Mas mabilis ko siyang maakit at mas mabilis kong makukuha ang loob niya.’
“Sure.”
“Sure ano?” medyo gulat na sabi niya.
“Iinom.”
“Ahhh.” aniya. “Okay.”
Pinagpatuloy ko ang paglalakad pababa bago sumunod sakaniya. Pumunta siya sa second sala, nakabukas ang sliding door doon papuntang swimming pool area at doon mismo sa daanan nakalagay yung lamesa at dalawang upuan.
Nakaupo si Khalex sa isa sa mga upuan habang nagyoyosi.
“Boom, huli si tanga! Kakasabi lang nung isang araw na titigil na sa pagyoyosi.” pang-aasar ni Keiren na dinuro pa si Khalex. Sinamaan lang siya nito ng tingin bago patayin yung baga ng sigarilyo gamit ang ashtray. “Puro kasi salitaaa.”
“Shut up.”
Ipinatong ni Keiren ang alak sa lamesa at inusod yung mga gamit na nakalagay doon.
He stopped for a moment like he realizes something then look at me. “Hindi ka ata pwedeng uminom ‘e! Kakatahi lang ng saksak sa'yo. ‘Wag ka na pala, uwi na.”
“Pwede ‘yan.” dinaanan ko siya at umupo sa bakanteng upuan, katapat ni Khalex.
“Wait, baka mapano ka.” kinapa niya ang bulsa niya at kinuha doon ang cellphone niya. Matagal siyang nagpipindot pindot doon bago muling tumingin sa'kin. “Okay, pwede daw- Hoy! Umalis ka diyan, upuan ko yan!”
Hindi ko siya pinansin at inayos nalang ang upo ko.
‘Hindi kaya ang weird kung lalandiin ko siya? Baka magduda siya? Nitong nakaraan lang galit na galit ako sakaniya tapos biglang ganto. ’
Nadistract ako nang bumukas ang LED light ng pool. Pinagmasdan ko kung gaano ito kaganda ngayon, hindi kasi ‘to binuksan no'ng birthday ni Pomela.
“Shall we?” humalukipkip ako at isinenyas 'yung alak.
“Eto na, eto na.” sabi ni Kei at binuksan 'yung alak na dala dala niya kanina. Sinalinan niya yung dalawang baso at umalis saglit para siguro kumuha ng isa pang baso.
Sumandal ako sa kinauupuan ko at tumingin kay Khalex. Nakatitig siya sa'kin ngayon. This man was really unpredictable, I can't read him or even his actions but I really know he's up to something.
Bumalik si Keiren dala dala ang isa pang baso. Sinalinan niya ito at humila ng isang upuan na inilagay niya sa tabi ng upuan ko.
Our first shot was quiet, no one was talking pero alam kong dadada din si Kei maya maya.
“MA'AM!” napalingon ako sa loob ng sala nang sumigaw si Pomela. Mabilis siyang naglakad palapit sa'kin, tumingin ako sa hawak niyang baso na may lamang gatas. Nakasuot siya ng pink T-shirt at pink pajama.
Mukang nailang siya ng mapansin niyang nakatingin din sakaniya si Khalex at Kei.
“Hey.”
Nahihiya siyang tumingin sa dalawa bago muling tumingin sa'kin at malapad na ngumiti.
“You should be sleeping now. Gabi na.” inubos ko ang laman ng shot glass ko at pinatong iyon sa lamesa.
“Opo Ma'am, kaya po nagtimpla po ako ng gatas.” aniya. “Thank you nga po pala sa paggupit ng bangs ko, nagustuhan ko po talaga.” kinikilig na sabi niya.
Kaninang umaga kasi ay naiyak siya dahil ginupit niya ang bangs niya at pangit ang naging resulta, dahil bored naman ako kanina ayun nalang ang pinagkaabalahan ko.
“Sige po, matutulog na po ako. Goodnight po.” energetic na sabi niya bago tumingin kay Kei at Khalex. “S-sainyo din po Sir Keiren at Sir K-Khalex.” nahihiyang sabi niya.
“Goodnight.” tipid akong ngumiti.
“Geh na tulog ka na bata.” sabi ni Kei. “Cheers nga muna diyan.” nilapit niya 'yung hawak niyang shot glass.
‘Tarantado.’
Natatawang nilapit ni Pomela ang baso ng gatas niya.
“Sige po, bye po!” nakangiting sabi niya at naglakad palayo sa'min. Sinilip ni Kei kung tuluyan nang nakaalis si Pomela bago muling sumandal sa upuan niya.
“Mahilig ka pala sa bata ahhh.”humalukipkip siya at tumingin kay Khalex. “No wonder.”
‘The heck?’
“Okay lang 'yan, naiintindihan kita.” tumango tango pa siya at inubos ang laman ng shot glass niya. “Hindi ka nag-iisa.”
Hindi ko nalang siya pinansin at sinalinan ng alak ang shot glass ko, gayun din ang shot glass niya. Tumingin ako kay Khalex nang inilapag niya sa lamesa ang shot glass niya
He just nodded so I pour it some beer. Sinadya ko talagang damihan.
“So, what's the catch with your hair? You like blonde now?”
“Nakita ko lang sa magazine, then I thought of having a blonde hair. And It kinda make me look hot, fierce and sexy.”
“Self-proclaimed?” he sarcastically said.
“It's the truth.” I snapped my finger.
He just look at me from head to toe while raising his brows.
I flipped my hair and try to make something sexy.
“Muka kang tinapa.”
I comb my hair using my fingers and look to him fiercely.
“Uh, daddy?”
“Hoy, nakakadiri.”
“Choke me, daddy.” malanding sabi ko.“I'm wet.” I bit my lower lip. Agad naman niyang sinupalpal ang palad niya sa muka ko.
“Parang tanga 'to, kukutusan kita 'e.”
Humagalpak ako ng tawa at inalis ang kamay niya sa muka ko.
“I'm just kidding.” nakangising sabi ko.
“Lol, hindi ka nakakatuwa.” sarkastikong sabi niya. Uminom siya saglit ng alak bago muling ipatong sa lamesa. “Ganto kasi ang hot, watch and learn.”
He show me his so called hot poses. And I was just drinking my beer and looking at him with disgust in my eyes.
He pressed his lips together and block it with his close fist.
“Nu kaba, ako lang 'to ‘wag kang masyadong kiligin.”
“Iww?”
He opened three buttons in his white polo sleeve that he's wearing, showing his manly chest. He place his hand in his nape and try to be sexy.
“Oh, alam kong may impact sa'yo 'yon. 'Wag mo naman masyado itago ang emosyon mo, pwede ka namang kiligin sa'kin.”
“Schifoso.” bulong ko at pasimpleng umirap. It means disgusting.
“Minsan kahit ako naiinlove narin sa sarili ko. Like sheeet.” mahabang sigaw niya. “Ang gwapo, pang out of this world.”
“Muka ka kasing alien.” pambabara ko.
“Ay wow! Ikaw nga self-proclaim lang ng self-proclaim.”
“Ikaw din naman ah! Ang -” iniwas ko ang ulo ko sa dereksyon niya at humikab, tinakip ko sa bibig ko ang kamay ko. Kilala ko 'tong si Keiren, may gagawing kagaguhan sa'kin 'to pag nahuli niya akong nahikab.
“Bakit iniwas, bakit iniwas? Nayy.”
Hindi ko siya sinagot at kinuha nalang ang baso ko.
‘Baka una pa 'kong malasing dito. Dapat maghinay hinay ako.’
Tumingin ako kay Khalex, nakatingin lang siya sa baso niya. Mukang wala pa siyang tama, ni wala pang apekto sakaniya.
“What about your past relationships when you're in Sicily?” tanong ni Kei.
Tumingin ako sakaniya. Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay.
“Uh, many of them were just fling but I have one ex boyfriend. We're together for about 5 months I guess?”
‘He's my mission, but I kinda get attached to him.’
“That's your second boyfriend? Una si Tasher then that guy?”
Tumango ako.
‘Hindi naman naging kami ni Khalex, as far as I remember.’
“Can you tell me more about him?” aniya. Kitang kita ko kung paano siya magpigil ng ngiti.
“He’s fit. He's tall. Sweet and Gentlemen. Ofcourse handsome and rich. Super caring and generous.” I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling. “He always spoil me with luxurious jewelries, clothes and make-up. And he bought me a yatch and a plane.”
“Ehhh??” gulat na sabi niya.
Tumango ako at pinakita sakaniya ang kamay ko.
“He bought me this ring.” I show him my oval diamond ring in my pointing finger. “It's an engagement ring though we're not engage. He just knew that this ring passes my taste.” I smiled. “See, It looks elegant.”
“Kayo pa ba?” tanong niya at pasimpleng tumingin kay Khalex.
I shooked my head.
“Bumalik yung ex, buntis.”
“Talaga?” parang naiintrigang sabi niya.
“Oo, pero hindi niya pinakasalan 'yung babae kasi hindi niya na daw mahal.”
“Ikaw parin yung mahal?”
“Maybe? 2 years ago na naman 'yon pero hanggang ngayon wala akong nakikitang babaeng dine-date niya.”
“Ah, so nagkikita pa kayo?”
“Oo, we're friends.”
Tumango tango siya.
‘I guess it's fine if I tell him some informations about my past relationships, hindi naman ako mapaapektuhan nito. Just to make him feel na nakikisama ako sakaniya.’
I reach for my shot glass and drink the remaining liquor inside.
Alam ko namang may alam silang dalawa tungkol sa'kin. I mean, they're not stupid and they have lots of connections cuz they are Montenegro. My enemy, the people I've hated so much.
“You want more?” nakangiting tanong ni Kei at sinenyas yung alak.
“Sure.”
I smiled a bit.
Magkatulong kami ni Khalex sa pag-alalay kay Keiren papuntang kwarto nito. Lasing na ito at kung ano ano ng sinasabi. Para pa kaming matutumba dahil pareparehas kaming lasing.
“I love you, pre.” natatawang sabi ni Kei. Naka half-open ang mga mata niya at sobrang namumula ang labi, gayun na din ang pisngi niya. Tumingin siya sa'kin at malapad na ngumiti. “Hiii Ateee.”
Inihilig niya ang ulo niya sa'kin. “Ate Pabi ko 'to wag niyong niaaway Ate ko.” nakapout na sabi niya. “Patay kayo sa'kin pag niaway niyo 'to, ako lang pwedeng umaway dito.”
Nang binuksan ni Khalex ang pinto ng kwarto ni Kei ay doon na ko napasalampak ng upo. Kanina pa ko nahihilo, kung hindi lang ako umayos kanina baka sabay sabay kaming nalaglag sa hagdan.
Isinandal ko ang ulo ko sa pader at ipinikit ang mga mata ko. Nanatili ako sa gano'ng pwesto ng ilang minuto, satingin ko ay nakaidlip ako bago ko narinig ang mga yabag na papalapit sa'kin.
And the next thing I knew is that, someone was carrying me. And when I felt the softness of the bed, I opened my eyes.
‘This is my chance.’
Hahalikan ko sana siya pero nabigla ako nang siya ang unang gumawa no'n. Hinalikan niya 'ko.
Nanlaki ang mata ko habang nakatingin sakaniya. He was looking straight to my eyes as he breathes deeply.
When he started closing his eyes, I felt he deepened his kisses, like he was so thirsty for it. His hands were shaky when it touches my face.
I can feel my heart pounding so bad.
‘Come on, you kissed many man already. Baka hindi mo lang napansin na bumilis din ang tibok ng puso mo nang nahalikan ka nila.’
I respond and kissed him back agressively. It's a long and hot kiss before his kisses trail down to my neck, I was gasping for air as he suck and lick my neck. I can't help but to moan softly.
Pumaibabaw siya sa'kin at inalis ang suot niyang damit. I'm now secretly admiring his body even though I've already see him topless before.
Inilapit niya ang muka niya sa'kin kaya nakakuha ako ng pagkakataon para mahawakan ang matigas niyang dibdib. Pinagmasdan at hinawakan ko ang ibang tattoo niya sa dibdib.
‘He's so hot. Damn it.’
Inipit niya sa likod ng tenga ko ang buhok na nakatabing sa muka ko. I turn my gaze back on his eyes. I was always mesmerized with his brown eyes back then when we're a kid, up until now. And same with Kei, his cheeks and lips were reddish.
“You're so beautiful.” he was like so sincere while saying that, kung hindi siya nakainom panigurado akong hinding hindi niya sasabihin sa'kin 'to. He caressed my face.
“Really?”
He nodded.
“And damn sexy.” nakangising sabi niya.
I bit my lower lip to stop myself from smiling. “Dapat na ba 'kong tumuwad?”
I see amusement in his eyes. We both chuckled.
“Naughty, you're injured. Baka hindi mo ko kayanin.”
“Oh really?” puno ng sarkasmong sabi ko.
I rubbed my hand on his thing beneath his shorts. Agad naman niyang hinuli ang kamay ko.
“Stop teasing me.”
“It's hard. I think it wants me.” I smirked and push him. Bumangon ako at lumapit sakaniya. Ibinaba ko ang shorts niya at pinagmasdan kung gaano ito kahaba at kalaki. It was erected. I smirked then looked at his eyes. “See, it wants me.” I hold the top of it and massage it gently. Umawang ang labi niya at bumigat ang paghinga niya.
I kissed him as I move my hand up and down.
‘I think my plan will also benefit you, but sadly it will left you broken in the end. Again.’
“Anong tingin mo sa'kin, pakarat?” sarkastikong tanong ko. He raised his brows while flipping the pancake.
I'm sitting at the island counter while he was cooking pancakes, just right next to me. His hair was so messy and he's still topless.
“Why would I fuck other men. Hindi naman ako pokpok.”
“You mean, your last sexual intercourse was 6 years ago?”
I nod. He seems amazed to what he have discovered.
“I'm still minor back then.” sarkastikong sabi ko.
“We're still minor, I know. I was just a little bit jealous back then, sorry.”
“Little bit?” natatawang tanong ko. Napahinto ako nang mapatingin ako sa kamay ko. Wala na 'yung favorite ring ko. “My ring!” I exclaimed. I looked at Khalex and he was back in his serious face.
‘I didn't remove it yesterday, damn! That's expensive and one of my favorite.’
“You see my ring?”
Umiling siya.
“Damn, I can't lose that!” nagpapanic na sabi ko, ambang aalis na ko sa pwesto ko nang harangan niya ako.
He put the pancake in the plate that placed in my lap right now. Hindi naman masyadong mainit yung ilalim ng plato, so I let it be in my lap.
“Khalex? I'm gonna find my ring.”
“Let's eat first.” he smiled.
Pinatay niya ang stove at kumuha ng dalawang pinggan at kutsara.
“I'll help you find it later.”
Nilapag niya yung pinggan at kutsara sa tabi ko.
“Yeah, thanks.” bumuntong hininga ako at tinignan siya, then all of a sudden I think of something naughty.
“Look at this.” I opened the maple syrup and poured it in a pancake. I get the spoon and cut it in medium sizes. I look at him and he was just watching me patiently.
Hinawakan ko ang batok niya at kinagat ang kalahati ng pancake. I heard him chuckling. He bite the other half then kissed me. It was a very passionate kiss.
When we parted our lips, we both laugh to what we've just did.
He hold my waist then get another slice. Nilagay niya iyon sa loob ng bibig ko bago ako muling halikan. Niyakap niya ang bewang ko at pinalalim pa ang halik sa'kin.
“Anong nangyayari?” napahinto kami sa paghahalikan at sabay na tinignan si Keiren.
Nakakunot ang noo niya na para bang naguguluhan sa nakikita niya. Sobrang gulo ng buhok niya at medyo paos ang boses niya.
“Nanaginip ba ko?” tumingin siya sa paligid.
“Kanina ko pa sila nakikita diyan. Grabe, nakakakilig.”
“O diba, sabi sa'yo sila talaga.”
“Team Sir Keiren ako ‘e.”
“Ala, hindi naman sila bagay ni Ma'am. Mas bagay kami ni Sir Keiren.”
“Ma'am and Sir Khalex. Me and Sir Keiren. Oh, pak!”
“Ang kapal ng muka mo, bugbugin kita ‘e.”
“Hashtag kay Sir Keiren nalang kakalampag.”
“Ano ba kayo marami pa tayong option, may pinsan at kamag-anak pa sila Sir.”
May ibang maid na nasa entrance ng kitchen na nakasilip sa'min. And they're talking like we didn't hear it.
“Anong nangyayari?” he asked again.
“We're eating.” sagot ko. “Each other.”
Biglang nagtilian yung mga maid sa entrance.
‘Why?’
“And your presence was so disturbing.” iritang sabi ni Khalex.
“Ahihi finding makakasamang kumain ng pancake.”
“Malandi ka.”
“Mas malandi ka, papatalo ka ba?”
‘Kailangan ba talaga nilang mag-side comment?’
“Ay..” Keiren laughed. “Wow, stay strong.” he sarcastically said.
“Let's just not mind him.”hustesyon ko kay Khalex. Inalis ko ang kamay ko sa batok niya at inilipat ito sa bewang niya. I hugged him and place my head on his chest.
Days passes by and we stay treating each other this way. We actually get closer and closer each day. We talk a lot but I still keep my mouth filtered. I really think words before I say it to him. Minsan nga nagdududa na'ko kung nagpapanggap lang din siya pero as much as I can, pinagpapatuloy ko lang ang ginagawa ko.
“Ugh, brutal.” reklamo ni Kei sa pinapanood namin. Pano kasi ginamitan ng itak no'ng babae yung lalaki at tinaga yung braso nito.
Pinilit kasi kami ni Keiren na mag movie marathon daw dito sa sala. Lahat kami ay nakahiga sa carpet habang nanonood sa white screen projector.
‘Ayoko sanang pumayag kasi pakiramdam ko kapatid parin ang turing niya sa'kin. Which is very far up from the reality.’
Katabi ko si Keiren samantalang magkatabi si Khalex at Kairen. Bale napaggigitnaan namin ni Khalex si Kei.
“Ikaw nagsabi na ayan ang panoorin.” sabi ni Kairen, tumingin ako sakaniya. Nakasimangot siya lang siya at magkasalubong ang kilay.
‘She looks mature and lady like. I could tell that she's gonna be an amazing woman when she grew more older.’
Pero aaminin kong namimiss ko yung childish at sweet na Kairen.
“E bakit galit ka? Hindi naman ikaw kinakausap ko? Nay, papansin.”
“Kuyaaa Khalex!” reklamo ni Kairen, mukang napikon na agad kay Kei.
“Huh! Kahit kunin mo pa 'yan, may pang tapat na'ko diyan. Uurong yan sa backer ko.”
“Kuya Khalex!!!”
“Just shut your mouth.” he refers to Kei. “And watch.”
Hindi makapaniwalang huminga si Kei. Magsasalita pa sana siya kaso ay napahinto siya nang mag-ring ang cellphone ni Kairen.
Sinagot ni Kairen yung phone call. “Hey, why'd you call me?” she was speaking with a tiny and flirty voice. Obviously talking to a guy.
Bumangon siya at naglakad palayo sa sala.
“Ayun ata 'yung gago.” bulong ni Kei kay Khalex. Nagpaunahan silang bumangon at hinabol si Kairen. Doon ako nakahinga ng malalim, staying with them makes me sick.
“KUYA!”
Bumangon ako at sinilip sila. Naka harang ang braso ni Kei sa leeg ni Kairen habang may kinausap ito sa phone.
“Sino ka ba? Hah! Kung nanliligaw ka sa kapatid ko kailangan mo muna akong harapin! Pipi ka ba?-- Ang tigas ng muka mo, suntukan! 1v1 Paquito Top Global ako, kayang kaya kitang lumpuhin.” then Khalex grabbed the phone.
“Who are you? What's your intention with my sister? You better be nice to her! If I see her crying because of you, I'll hunt you and beat you.”
“Akin na nga 'yan Kuya!” inis na sabi ni Kairen na nagpumiglas kay Kei. Inagaw niya ang phone sa kamay ni Khalex. “I'm really really sorry, bye.” bumuntong hininga siya at tinignan ng masama ang mga kuya niya. “Ano ba? Nakakahiya, Kuya.”
“Anong nakakahiya don? Normal lang naman sa isang Kuya na gawin 'yon. Tungek, kapatid ka namin malay ba namin kung masamang tao 'yon?”
“You should atleast talk to him nicely! He's a nice guy!”
“We're just concerned, okay?” mahinahong sabi ni Khalex. “We've witnessed your first heart break, ayaw lang namin maulit. You're just really important to us, that's why we act like that.”
“Kahit na.” nakapout na sabi ni Kairen then suddenly bigla siyang nagpigil ng ngiti. “I'm important to you, Kuya Kei and Kuya Khalex?”
“Anong klaseng tanong 'yan?” natatawang sabi ni Kei at inakbayan si Kairen. “Gusto mo sakalin kita para mapatunayan ko?”
Inalis ni Kairen ang pagkakaakbay sakaniya ni Kei at pinulupot ang kamay sa braso ng mga Kuya niya. “Mahal na mahal naman ako masyado ng mga Kuya 'ko.”
“Disgusting.” nakangiwing sabi ni Khalex, tinabig niya ang kamay ni Kairen at pamulsang naglakad pabalik sa pwesto ko.
Muli akong humiga at nanood.
“Actually hindi ka talaga namin kapatid, napulot ka lang sa tae ng kalabaw-- Aray! Sadista!”
Narinig ko ang mabibilis na yabag nila. Tumalon si Kei mula sa likod ng sofa at pumunta sa tabi ko.
“How lucky I am to have brothers and parents.” Kairen sarcastically said. Alam kong pinariringgan niya ako. I want to attack her and slap her the truth that my father should have been still living with me If he didn't sacrifice his life for her mother.
I already feel anger rising up in my body with what she said plus the fact that she's the daughter of Kaizer Montenegro.
“I bet an orphan wouldn't understand how it feels to have a complete family.”
‘I'll take your family down. I'll start with your father.’
I just keep my calm face and look straight to the screen projector.
“Hoy, manahimik ka nga.” suway ni Keiren.
“'Yung bida kasi Kuya ‘e, naaawa lang ako sakaniya kasi wala siyang pamilya. Walang nanay, walang tatay, walang kapatid. Muntikan na siyang magkaroon ng masaya at kompletong pamilya pero pinalayas siya.” malungkot kunong sabi niya. “Anger makes her miserable and led her to be like that.” aniya at inimuwestra ang screen projector.
The girl in the movie turns to a complete monster. With all the pain she have experienced in her life, it pushes her to kill everyone who makes her suffer. Anger and pain.
Alam kong nakatingin silang tatlo sa'kin. I can't show them the monster they and their parents made. I've just started hitting on Khalex, I can't ruin everything now with my anger.
I just stay with this face, sometimes fakely reacting in what we're watching. I look at them and raised my brows.
“What?”
“Mahilig kang manood ng ganyang movie?” tanong ni Kei at tumingin doon sa babae sa movie. Natawa ito habang paulit ulit na sinasaksak 'yung isa sa mga lalaking gumahasa sakaniya. “Ni hindi ka man lang nagf-flinch.”
“I'm not allowed to watch any movie. I'm not allowed to use televisions to watch movies and telenovelas.” I smiled. “Ngayon lang ulit ako nakapanood ng movie.”
“Ano pang bawal sa'yo?”
“You're not allowed to beg! You must become dominant!” sigaw ni Lola Resopedia. Then I felt his guard whipped my back. I shout as I felt the pain. Hot tears were escaping from my eyes.
“I don't want to live anymore.” bulong ko habang pilit na pinipigilan ang sarili kong humagulgol. Ayokong marinig o makita niya dahil lalatiguhin nanaman ako.
Tumingin ako kay Marc, mukang awang awa na siya sa'kin kahit miski siya ay nilalatigo din.
“She's crying, Signora!” sumbong nung guard.
“Then hit her again!” sigaw ni Lola Resopedia. I was whipped again and again. “I told you many times already Phoebe Alisha! You're not allowed to cry! You will not become stronger If you're always crying! People will take advantage to you if they saw you crying! You must be the one seeing them suffering.”
‘There are so many things I'm not allowed to do but I won't tell him.’
Hindi ko siya sinagot at binalik nalang ang paningin ko sa pinapanood namin.
Matagal silang natahimik at kanya kanya nalang nood sa palabas. Nang nakaramdam na'ko ng antok ay umupo ako at inalis ang oversized t-shirt na suot ko.
Naiwan ang suot kong red lace spaghetti strap top at ang partner nitong shorts na kulay red din. I enter my hand inside my top and unhook my bra.
“What are you doing!” gulat na sabi ni Kei.
“I'm gonna sleep, I'm comfortable with this.”
“Wag mo naman dito gawin 'yan.”
Hinila ko paalis ang suot kong bra at tumingin sakaniya. I raise my brow and drop my bra in the carpet next to the shirt.
Umiwas siya ng tingin sa'kin.
Ginawa ko munang messy bun ang buhok ko bago muling humiga. Tinabunan ako ni Kei ng comforter pero inalis ko din 'yon.
“Uncomfortable!” reklamo ko sakaniya. Ipinikit ko nalang ang mata ko since totoong inaantok na din naman talaga ako.
Satingin ko ay madaling araw na nang nagising ako. Ramdam ko ang comforter na nakabalot sa katawan ko kaya tumingin ako kay Kei na natutulog na ngayon. Sigurado akong siya ang nagkumot sa'kin nito.
Tumingin ako kay Khalex nang naramdaman kong nakatingin siya sa'kin.
“Hey.” mahinang sabi ko. “Nakatulog ka na?”
“I can't sleep.”
“You want hot milk?” nakangiting tanong ko.
“What am I, a kid?” natatawang bulong niya.
“Or hot s-x?”
I giggled.
“Just kidding. You can read books, exercise or drink sleeping pills. I have some in my luggage if you want.”
Bumangon siya at nilapit ang muka sa'kin. Kung hindi lang nakaharang si Keiren baka kanina niya pa 'ko nasunggaban ng halik.
“I want you.” he whispered while looking straight in my eyes. He grabbed my nape and kiss me agressively. I immediately kissed him back.
Itinuon ko ang siko ko para lalong makalapit sakaniya. I seductively look him straight in his eyes as I bite his lower lip.
Nilaktawan niya si Kei bago ako itulak pahiga. We continue kissing each other. He was so damn aggressive, he's like a thirsty beast craving for my lips and body.
He was licking my neck so I give him more access. I gasped when he enter his hand inside my panty. I was about to protest but then he enter his two fingers slowly.
I arched my back as I let go of a moan. My mouth was opened as I feel the stung of pain.
“K-Khalex!” I hold his broad shoulder. He started thrusting his fingers slowly. “Khalex!”
“You're tight.”
I cover my mouth to prevent myself for moaning too loud. He was sucking my neck as he continued thrusting his fingers, I can also feel his thumb rubbing my cl-t.
I was just moaning and moving my waist desperately. He seems to enjoy watching me and not really bothered doing this even if I'm just next to his brother.
‘Well, I'm not even bothered also.’
My toes curled and felt my legs shaky as I felt my release.
“Do you like it?”
I nod.
Hinihingal na ngumiti ako kay Khalex na inaayos ang buhok kong nakatabing sa muka ko. He use his palm to wipe sweats from my face.
“I bet you will like this more.” nakangising sabi niya. Ibababa niya na sana ang shorts niya nang may biglang nagsalita.
“Sana mawala na kayo sa tabi ko.” sabi ni Kei habang nakapikit parin. Muka talaga siyang hindi komportable at... gusto ko 'yon.
Sinadya 'kong umungol dahil gusto ko din siyang maasar, tumingin ako kay Khalex at sinenyasan siya. Nakuha naman niya ang gusto kong mangyari at umungol din.
“Ugh!”
“Khalex, Ugh! Isagad mo pa.”
Kumuha siya ng unan at hinampas sa'min ni Khalex.
“Nakakadiri kayo.”
Khalex and I were both chuckling.
“Let's go upstairs.”
“Sure.” nakangising sabi ko.
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Sorry po kung it takes me lot of months bago makapag-update and thank you for still waiting. I love you all 💗 And also papalitan po 'yung title nito.