Three years have passed but nothing changed. Sidharth missed her more everyday and Sana still cried for his warmth every night. In these years she never went back, even to meet Maa, knowing she would end up breaking and her resolve would break. She didn't want to witness what her eyes nwver want to see, even in her dreams.
She got herself too wrapped up in the study, to enjoy herself. She was doing wonders with her intelligence. She would come home mostly with medals and trophies but she would be not happy, the way she should be. The happiness seemed half, it was complete but still there was emptiness to it, without sharing with him. She wanted to see the pride in his, and how he would hug her and kiss her after every victory even it was little. Her father did the same and she was reminded of him. He was just like her father.
After the evening face time with Maa that day, she never saw Sidharth, and Sidharth also didn't get to have glimpse of her. She asked Maa after few days of their little encounter,about him for the first time.
"Maa....woh sidharth us din kya kar rha tha?"
"woh toh hamesha aata hai.....jabse tu gayi hai tabse, he has been my only support.....woh roj aata hai sham ko and sometimes even stay here only", Maa narrated busy in work, Sana heart was weeping, knowing how much he loved her mother. She was thankful to him that he was there for her when she was away, and the love she had was just escalated a thousand folds.
"bahut payara bcha hai.....or pata hai I have seen him broken and sad but whenever he is in your room...I see the real smile on his face" Maa informed trying to dwindle the pain,her two children were facing, silently. She was in raptures. He was missing her, the thought in itself was so beautiful, that she cried happy tears after the call was disonneceted.
She screamed, and jumped knowing he stays in her room, he smiles there and he misses her.
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It was 12 in the night, when her phone buzzed disturbing her sleep. She had been upset, as it was her birthday and only memory she had of her birthday was Sheena and Sidharth. So she had slept early to avoid the pre birthday celebration her new friends have organised.
Grumpily, picking the phone and rubbing her eyes she mumbled "Hello"
"Happy birthday sweetheart", and before she could understand or say something the line was dead. She was wide awake as the voice processed. Her body was quick to recognize the most soothing and the sexy voice. "Sidharth" and a painful sob left her lips. Every year he would call her on her birthday at exact 12 and hang up wishing her, not giving her any chance to speak.
Sidharth on the other hand was shivering, of what he did. Every year he did that but he shivered everytime when her sweet rung in his ears. The sleepy voice of hers was more melodious.He repeated these words a uncountable times before calling her and wishing her. He felt himself unwind with her grumpy hello. He assumed she might be asleep and disturbing a sleeping and eating Sana was crime. He chuckled, knowing she would be cursing him for muddleing with her sleep.
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Everyone was gathered around Maa, as she facetimed Sana, early morning to wish her and surprise her with all her favourites together. As soon as she swiped up to receive the call, she was welcomed with the happy and beautiful faces, screaming a happy birthday. Sidharth was also present but he didn't let him picture in the frame he did not want Sana to be sad on her most important day. He has already ruined it once.
"Hayyee tum log sab ek saath kya kar rahe ho....", she was smiling through out and her smile was reflected on his face too.
"Hum log yahan maa se milne aaaye hai......yeh mat sochna tujhe wish krne ke liye hai yahan", Anshika teased and she laughed knowing very well that they were there for her and to make her happy. Her eyes looked for him, but he stayed hidden.
That evening Shreya called Sana, on much insistence of Sidharth. He literally pleaded to call her and let the phone be on speaker. He just wanted to hear her. Shreya looked at Rahul and after teasing him, she finally called her.
"Hi Sana....Happy birthday baby.....Stay happy and I wish tujhe jo chahiye ho woh tujhe mile" Shreya chirped as Sana was on line.
"Thank you Shreya..."
"Hey Sana....happy birthday...I hope tune aaj bahut saara cake khaya hoga",Rahul joined in too.
"Nahi......maine thoda sa khaya" Sana replied in her babyish voice and Sidharth had the constant smile knowing she was happy, unlike her birthday three years back.
"So kya kiya aaj tune" Shreya asked.
"I cried Shreya",and the smile was wiped out as Sidharth heard that, he wanted to grab the phone and wanted to ask her why, what made her cry, but he also knew this will only worsen her condition.
"Why baby?" Even Shreya had fold on her forehead. Sana has spoken her heart out to her everytime she needed someone to confide in, but she never spoke about what went wrong with her and Sidharth.
"Because, I miss him, Shreya...I miss him so much..Sidharth ki bahut yaad aayi mujhe aaj.pata hai he called me and wished me on every birthday at exact 12, is baar bhi kiya raat ko at exact 12......he thought I would not recognize him...par main usko kaise bolun I can do that with my eyes closed. Pata hai mujhe woh Sheena ko pyaar karta...par main kya karun main usko pyaar karti hun...bahut...isliye main aa gayi wahan se yeh soch kar ki shayad thoda kam feel hoga, par Shreya I have realized I love him more than I loved him a moment ealier...Kyun usne mujhko nahi bola...usko Sheena ke saath rehna hai.tu toh janti hai na main kabhi uske raaste mein nahi aati.. par usne nahi bola.....I feel betrayed Shreya....mujhe uski bahut yaad aa rahi hai...Maa ne mujhko bola he also misses me....toh mujhse baat kyun nahi karta hai....bata na mujhe....tu toh usese milti hai na tu bol usko ki Sana usko bahut pyaar karti hai and she feels the pain in her heart every night when she sleeps..." she was hiccupping and crying. Her slurred voice was enough to let them know she has got herself drunk, and they were happy that she did because, in other scenario she would have never done, what she did today. She kept crying and repeating that she miss Sidharth, until her words were substituted by her steady breath and soft snores.
The emptiness in his heart, the numbness pounding his brain, the salty tears that flowed unchecked from his eyes, the shear nothingness that now took hold of his soul threatened to engulf him entirely.
Shreya and Rahul were shocked to the core to get the new information that Sidharth loves Sheena. When did that happen and if he did then why can't they see it. Rahul was infuriated at Sidharth. Was this true, if yes than he would literally beat him blue-balck for breaking Sana's heart. Sana was very dear to him and anything bad to her was unbearable, be it anyone. Never in these passed years, they felt such.
"What the hell Sidharth, you love Sheena?" Rahul yelled on top of his voice.
"Rahul you very well know I don't, she just a friend..do you get that", even Sidharth was loud.
"Then....are you trying to say that Sana is lying"
"No...I am not"
"Then....she said you love Sheena and that is the reason she is not here"
"Even I am new to this information"
"Oh come on Sidharth.....now don't act innocent...do you realise what have you done to that little girl...she loves you....and if you never had that feeling for her in you..you should have warned her before", Sidharth was loosing his calm and this was the last blow.
He got up kicking the chair and screamed "I LOVE HER, DO YOU GET IT I LOVE SANA and I always have and I didn't see any reason to explain it to you...samajh aaya", everything was silenced in the room, with his thunderous screams. Rahul and Shreya had the widest smile on their faces. That was it.
"Then why is this distance?" Rahul voice was soft now.
"Because you know whose blood runs in me, my father and what if I also turn like him, I don't have the heart to make one more like my mom", he was breaking, and Rahul just hugged him knowing his inner demons.
"But don't you think she deserves to know this at least.", Rahul suggested and Sidharth just cried.
With every piece of my broken heart, I still love you.
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