#10- Fall of Ella
❝Why do we keep falling in love with someone we can't have?❞
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Falling in love is like being stuck in a cave and you can't find a way out. It's dark inside just like yourself. You are confused and can't figure out which way is right to go. There are times you'd feel hopeless to even escape. Worse sometimes, because you'd get hurt if you bumped onto some rocks.
It's just like falling in love with someone you're not supposed to fall in love with.
It's just like being in love with your bestfriend. That kind of bestfriend who just treats you as an ordinary bestfriend. Not more than that, not special.
It hurts like hell and you tried to escape but you just can't 'cause you don't know how.
You don't know how to escape from your feelings as how you didn't know that you fell in love with your bestfriend.
"Ella, she's here." Bungad sa akin ng kaibigan ko habang nagre-rehearse sila for a stageplay. Kaunti lang ang kinuhang casts sa section namin and I was included sa staffs.
Luminga naman ako sa kaibigan ko at doon sa tinitingnan niya.
"Kasama na naman si Paul," habol pa niya.
Umiwas ako nang tingin pagkakita ko sa kanila.
Alam kong wala akong karapatan pero kung hindi ako natutuwa sa nakikita ko eh hindi ko dapat tingnan.
"Sakit much?" Pang-aasar pa niya sa akin.
"The fck?" Sagot ko sa kanya then I gritted my teeth.
Pumunta ako sa mga kasama kong gumagawa ng props pero kahit doon ay tinutukso nila ako.
"Kasama niya si Alent oh!"
Seriously? I can't find a peaceful place here!
"Shut up, guys! Wala akong pakialam!" Saad ko naman at kumuha ng crepe paper at sinubukang gumawa ng flower tulad ng ginagawa nila.
"Paano ba 'yan?" Pasigaw kong tanong.
"Sounds bitter?" Sambit ng isa ko pang kaibigan. Inirapan ko lamang siya at saka niya ako tinuruan kung paano 'yung ginagawa nila.
"Gusto mo turuan din kita mag-move on, Ella?" Habol pa nito at hinampas ko nga.
Leshe talaga 'to!
"Bakit ako magmo-move on? Kami ba, kami?!" Pasigaw kong sagot sa kanya at nakuha ko ang atensyon ng halos lahat.
Tumawa naman ang kaibigan ko at minataan ko siya.
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"Sabay tayo mamaya? Sunduin mo ako?" Utas ng kaibigan kong si Jass habang pauwi kami.
"May practice ulit mamayang hapon? Grabe, abuso na!" Pagrereklamo ko naman.
"Or ayaw mong pumunta kasi makikita mo na naman sila 'together'?
Tinaasan ko siya ng kaliwang kilay ko, "Ang babaw ko naman para doon! May gagawin kasi ako!"
