My Saviors (Fifth Harmony Fanfic)

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~Ivy's POV~

Today was the day we burried my big brother.

The day I say goodbye.

I haven't spoken to anyone since we got the news.

Its been a week now.

All I do is sleep, cry, and cuddle Cooper.

He's my rock now.

My sad songs playlist is getting longer and longer by the second.

I stare straight ahead at the coffin covered with an American flag.

I should be bawling.

But I'm not.

I'm emotionless.

I feel nothing but emptiness.

I lost my brother.

My best friend.

Everyone showed up.

Ranging from my YouTube friends to other celebrities I've come close to.

Like Little Mix and Cimorelli.

So did my friends from school.

Gabby and Emily are trying to get me to talk while Alex and Mollie just look worried.

I'm sitting in between Skylar And my mom with Cooper's head placed on my lap.

Mom held my hand tightly.

She was trying to keep herself together for me.

I looked back and locked eyes with someone who I never thought would Be here.

Bea.

I'm too weak to handle this.

I leaned down in my seat putting my face in my hands.

The suicidal thoughts are getting worse.

My demons are getting louder and louder chanting for me to cut deeper each time.

I leaned my body into skylar as she rocked me back and forth while rubbing my back.

The ceremony proceeded and The priest called me up for my talk.

I reluctantly let go of Sky and mom and made my way towards the podium with Cooper.

He Sat at my feet and looked around.

I pet his head before opening my mouth.

"There is a lot I can say about Ross." I started with a raspy voice, since I haven't talked for a few days now. "Yes, we did fight a lot. But thats normal for siblings. They have many ups and downs.

I'm thankful me and Ross shared more happy memories than bad ones.

The last memory I had with Ross was when he took me to Disneyland. We got matching Hoodies and Mickey ears. And our pillowpets were Mickey and Minnie. I will cherish my memories with my big brother Ross for all the days of my life." I stepped up to his casket and kissed it.

"I love you the mostest." I whispered.

Cooper nudged me and helped me back to my seat.

I crumbled into Skylar as she whispered comforting things in my ear.

The ceremony went on, and many tears were shed.

As it went on, Ross's friend stepped up.

"Ross was not only my best friend, he was my brother." he continued.