Si cor meum erat, a libro, hoc est, quomodo legere

Self mutilation

I blunted my fangs
Gouged out my third eye and let the blood drip as I cauterised the would
Filled the gaping flesh with a chunk from my thigh

Blue flames
Inferno for a soul I Forged a blade from the steel in my mentality
I called her with dried blood and tar in my mouth I called her
Compromise

With her in my hand I cleanly sliced off my leathery wings
Found the skin under my scales on my hips
And the skin so soft you say you like the dip
In them

A place for your hands to rest
The rest of their purpose I now throw to the wind after caution
After self love
After self reliance
After self preservation

-(Forget how my hand fit there before Or how I would run my fingers them down late at night and touch the magic held in the middle of them
Or how I use them to secure my baby brother when I carry him Or how they shape my favourite jeans)-

To my lips
I left them full and red
You said you liked how addicting they were
How dangerous
(You have no idea how dangerous I am)

I turned my red eyes brown
To compliment my black curls
Of which I

I took the crimson from my eyes
And silenced secrets and mystery inside my obsidian curls
Cut my talons down till my fingertips bled

(Dead blind and mute)
Loved you and loved you and I loved you
And when I finally saw myself
Heard how the roar and snarl in my throat
Now came out soft like a kittens purr

Thinking to myself
With the small campfire I had left in my being I said
Burn off this new skin
Imagine what I can do if I craft myself
Myself

I didn't wait to find out whether you liked my new form when I revealed my true nature

I let my new wings burst out like from an internal chrysalis
Hooked claws on their joints

At midnight I flew off gazing down at you
All three red eyes seeing
That your 6ft something frame
Sure looks short from up here

And that I couldn't love you
As long as you remained a monster