Climbing a staircase
Surrounded in whiteness
Always known as blinding lightAnd I link arms
Trusting you to push me back up if I fall
If I fall you promise I will feel
Your hands at my back
Hard and firm
Calling it
SolidarityMy feet feel uneasy as the closer to the precipice I am
My feet feel the ground start to mimic rubble
Growth mimicking destructionGround less certain
The atmosphere more thin
Pressing on my neck
But
I can still breatheStill
Lying down on the cracked obsidian rock
Eyes shut
Knowing it is shaky
Knowing it could cut me
Knowing it already hasI say when I reach the top
For only the start and the end of my journey is certain
I will look back in the middleSee her defiant determination
Like a nuclear bomb on her features ready to go off
Cup the memory of her face in my hands
And she will still be precious
Still be black
Still worth just as much then as nowBack on the ground face to God
Leaving the 99
To save the 1
My messiah won't you feast on the bread already broken?
Catch your breath and sip on wine already poured
Your body a baptism in its own sweatI hear god speak in my blindness
To my soul they say
When I made you in my image
I told you nothing about
Projections of loveI washed you in holy oil
Your body facing the east
Underneath the Bodhi tree
In the heat of the ninth hourI birthed you
Hoping your message will not be distorted
I didn't make you from clay to be afraid of a couple cracksI gave you an origin
Tell me your next stepMy feet weary
I let my braids drop to them and swipe at my fallen tears
Rising
I say
Let there be love
Let there be no leader of it but a clear message
Let black children grow up and shine like light through a prism
I bless our men with fragility
I bless our women with solaceAnd when my voice is sore from metaphors I call for action
I call for doctors who don't believe black women to be barred from practice
I call for black therapists to be born in numbers so that our community can healNobody can hear us better than us
I call for black boys to know how to use sign language before they know a gun
Sounding from my lungs the need for art literature science and languagesSo that when they grow up
And they will grow upThey will have each other
Bonds forming
Memories moulding into membranes
Wrapping around them like vines
Blooming with bake sales and school trips Strengthened from championships ending in matches and medalsI want their parents to be able to slow down
Pockets full of black money with less tax
And their own businesses
And say I'm so so proud of youI don't know if I will get there
But the ground looks awfully far down from up here
YOU ARE READING
Si cor meum erat, a libro, hoc est, quomodo legere
PoetryUndecided if this is to stay or disappear. Bit like me then.