It's half of me
I must make an incision halfway down my tongue
So that my words are in a language more palatable for your tone
I scream until my throat is dryIt's much easier for you to hear me that way anyhow
Next
While the blood on my scalpel is still warm
I cut away 50% of my soul
You told me it has grown like a tumour
That removing carcinogens is rarely painlessI did not feel anything at first
It was the slow whistling of the world through my being
That's when I began to feel empty
So I theorised if I could fill it with something
Something good
Maybe it would be less cold
Less empty
Energised I sought for the right tools
Cauterised over old wounds
Diligently tinkering with my body in the theatre
My heart rate dangerously low but you helped keep it goingThen the skin was sewn up
Hands steady
Threads like these were built on faith.Then when I am healed
I show you how beautiful it is
To be rebuilt
To feel new
How healthyYou say
No
Talk quieter
That I am sickI feel my hand start to long for the scalpel and the blinding light of the operating table.
YOU ARE READING
Si cor meum erat, a libro, hoc est, quomodo legere
PoetryUndecided if this is to stay or disappear. Bit like me then.