Psychotic

Chapter 39

The wind blowing the green nature, the sound of it's peacefulness and calmness was overwhelming. Yet as much as I could keep on hearing it the memories, dark memories never faded. I knew they were going to get stuck on my head, like a sharp fishbone holding into your throat ripping your flesh preventing you from eating and hindering the basis of breathing.

Time wasn't helping either. The sound of the clock hunted me showing the past every second it clicked. A week ago Justin forced me. He didn't rape me but he invaded my private and called me things, horrible things.
Sometimes I feel pity for him, watching him dragging himself through the house like an old soulless spirit avoiding my gaze just as much as I avoid his. But then again I remember what happened that past day -Which has seemed to get a hold-on in my mind and make every possible pitiful feeling vanish at the thought of him touching me in such a dirty and disgusting way. I wish I could understand the reason of that urge he had. I know my action was an audacity but I was angry and mad and wanted some kind of revenge on him for everything he has done to me. I was really stupid, I should have known better that Justin wasn't going to let things go and clap his hands to the rhythm of the music while I sucked some random stranger.

"Don't you just think that Evan Peters always nails his characters in all the seasons" Robin said zapping through the channels of the TV.

"I guess so..." My answer came out as weak as my thoughts, something I was actually trying to cover up.

The voices of some random people talking on a the TV show stopped and the soft sound of the remote landing on the sofa corroborated Robin switched the TV off.

"What's wrong Kat?" She sighed crossing her arms, her tiredness showing up.

"Nothing" I shrugged it off resting my head on my palm.

I heard Robin rolling out the heaviest sigh not buying my answer at all, not that I had the energy to fake another smile and pretend I was completely fine. I'm tired of lies.

"Can you please be sincere to me? I don't know what's wrong and you have been this... Cold, for a week already, I'm your friend Katrina" Her tone hinted annoyance to her impotence to understand me. Pity again yet I know it's not her fault.

I felt her eyes digging strong stares on my skin and I couldn't help but look down, drop my gaze to the hem of my black shorts trying to isolate myself from the thoughts and her question.

The thick silence fell upon us and only the far laughs of Khalil and Za in another room and Robin's deep breath were the only hearable sounds.
She stood ready to give up on the subject but... Something inside of me spoke firmly.

"I liked Emma in Coven, because although she might act like a cold hearted bitch she hid all her feelings, trying to cover up how vulnerable and broken she was, keeping all her secrets and insecurities to herself and that turned against her and made her evil and desperate for the attention she never got"

The sound of Robin's footstep stopped and I could tell she got what I was saying. A third sigh parted from her lips and my eyes sharpened to hear her tongue licking across her lips, wetting them, ready to speak.

"Katrina I know I shouldn't be telling you this but..."

"Robin, Sex toy" An strident voice coming from Jason's throat cut off Robin. Not even mentioning the fact that he got used to call me Sex Toy which actually bothers me -Not like I bother to argue with a cockier version of Justin right now so I let it go.

"Yeah, Jason?" Robin stood nervously and Jason locked his eyes on her. But the look was more like mad than anything else... But why?

"Just to inform you two that tonight we are going to the important party so get your asses ready 'cause I know you girls take long ass time to get ready" More than informing us he was spitting his words but his eyes mostly focused on Robin. Maybe Jason likes manly girls?