Please don't go. (a BakuDeku/TodoBakuDeku fanfic)

I'm Sorry

~Deku POV~

I do a double take, my head spinning. So he, just tackled me, and now, he's sitting on top of me telling me that he loves me? Don't get me wrong, I am very much enjoying him on top of me, my lower body maybe a little bit too much; but all of a sudden, after ignoring me for so long, all of a sudden he's professing his love to me?

This must me trap, or a prank. His eyes search mine, making me tense up. The whole cafeteria has gotten quiet and I can feel everyone's eyes on us. I swallow hard, trying to find my voice. I've been silent for a long time, too long I can tell, by the sad look taking over Kachans face.

He gets off me and helps me sit up. As he gets up, he gives me a long pleading look, as if begging for me to say something to make the situation better. But this is all too sudden, a hurricane in my head muddling my thoughts, and I just can't think straight. I need time. I need time!

Everyone is silent, waiting for my response, not breathing. I look up at him but that gaze only ignites the fire inside me even more so the only thing I can do is hang my head and squeak out two words. "I'm sorry."

~Katsuki POV~

"I'm sorry." Those two words causing my heart to fall into my stomach. All the hope inside me gone, my face probably a complete projection of exactly that. There's a collective gasp from people around me, whispers all over the room.

I nod, and turn on my heel, not knowing what else to say. I see Todoroki by the doors, a shocked expression on his face. I just shrug as I walk past and he nods understandingly. Maybe I should just fuck Todo instead, to clear my mind.

I shake my head as I speed walk towards the exit, a new wave of sadness taking over me as Deku's adorable smile pops into my mind. Shit. I burst through the doors into the empty hall. I want to punch something so badly, but as soon as my fist reaches the wall, I stop.

Tears spill onto my cheeks as I sob against the wall, my whole body shaking. Stupid, stupid, stupid! Why did you leave his room? Why did you run away from him when he told you that he loved you? Cuz you're a coward, you were scared. Idiot. Worthless.

I pull at my hair as I sob shakily, my head between my legs. You don't matter. No one loves you. You ruined all your chances. I claw at my arms, digging my nails in until I draw blood, begging for the thoughts to stop. Finally they do and I collapse, relieved that they didn't continue until what he did got worse,...like before.

Taking a shaky breath, I stand up, wipe my face, and get ready to head to the dorms to fix myself when the cafeteria doors burst open, a small figure looking every way until his large, bright, green eyes land on me.

~Izuku POV~

As soon as the words left my lips, I regretted it. The way his expression completely fell and shoulders hunched just ripped me apart. I try to get up, reach for him, move in some way but I'm frozen. It's as if time came to a complete stop, only him moving farther and farther away from me.

Everything's in slow-mo. Me reaching towards him, screaming his name. Getting up to run after him, almost reaching him, only to be stopped by familiar arms. Screaming no as I thrash against Shoto's grip and as Kachan walks through the door, leaving me again.

As soon as the door shuts, time us back to normal, my friends crowding around me, all talking at once. Todoroki pulls me into his chest, wrapping his protective arms around me. My whole body goes limp as all the emotions from inside me pour out. I grip Todo's shirt in my hands as he pets my hair, shh-ing trying to calm me.

"Why did I say that?" I choke out. "Now he's gone again. I'm an idiot." The peppermint boy shakes his head "no, you're not an idiot. It was just overwhelming. You couldn't help it." I crumple against him, my shoulders shaking as I wail into his now tear-soaked shirt. He chuckles into my hair "don't worry, he's not gone for good. He'll still be waiting."

I gasp suddenly, pressing my palms into his chest, pushing him back. "I need to go after him!" Todoroki grips my arm to make sure I don't try bolting for the door. He shakes his head "no, give him some time. He needs to get over it a bit." I bite my lip worriedly.

He is right in one point, Kachan could explode at me, or just me in general, pissed at my answer. I shake my head again, pulling towards the door "no, if I leave him, he'll put his walls back up again and then I for sure won't get through to him." Todo hesitates for a second before nodding reluctantly, letting go of my arm. I smile at him and bolt towards the door.

I look around the hall, relief flooding over me when I spot my target. Without thinking, I run over to him, throwing my arms around his neck. "Kachan" I breath, glad that he hasn't pushed me off yet.

He hesitates before wrapping his arms around my waist sending a satisfying sensation coursing through me. "I'm sorry" I whisper. I feel him tense. Shit, what's wrong with me? I pull back a bit to see his face as I keep going "I'm sorry for just announcing all of my feelings out of nowhere that day. I'm sorry for not making any moves though I really wanted to." Kachans face relaxes, relief pouring over him.

A small smile slips onto his lips as I continue babbling "And I'm sorry for saying I'm sorry and not just confessing that I feel the same. And I'm sorry for-" I'm cut off by a pair of warm lips pressed into mine. My eyes flutter shut, a tingling sensation all over me. This feels even better than before. Why haven't we done this in so long? He pulls back first and I have to stop myself from whining.

Katsuki lets out a breathy laugh, surprising me. "So, now,..finally. We can be together? I hope I heard you right. You feel the same?" I giggle, a few happy tears spilling out of my eyes "yes! yes! Oh god yes I love you. I want to be with you!" He brushes his hand over my cheek, wiping my tears "why are you crying?" I chuckle "I'm just really happy." He smirks at me, leaning his forehead against mine "god you're a dork." I giggle and he picks me up by my waist, lifting me above him as we spin, catching me by surprise as he laughs.

Once my feet touch the ground again, he pulls me against him, placing such a soft and sweet kiss on my less, I lose my breath. As he caresses my cheek, I spot the red on his arm. Whirling around, I grab his arm, lifting it for inspection. I gasp once I realized he had done this to himself, the sight of his bloody arms making my chest hurt. "I'm taking you to recovery girl."

He starts to complain but I stop him with a look. He pouts, making my heart race and I peck him on the cheek "its for your own good. Please?" He sighs, a faint smile on his face "fine." Not wanting him to lose any more blood, I intertwine my fingers with his, leading the way.

THIS CAPTER WAS A LITTLE LONGER, SORRY. BUT YEAH, HERE WE HAVE A DEPRESSED/SUICIDAL BAKUGOU, DO YOU WANT ME TO MAKE HIM NOT BE? IDK IF I LIKE THE IDEA SO I MIGHT CHANGE IT LATER, WE'LL SEE. ANYWAYS, LOTS OF FLUFFY KISSES, DON'T WORRY THERE'LL BE MORE. SORRY, THIS STORIES SUCH A MESS. I JUST WRITE WHATEVER I WAS DREAMING/DAYDREAMING OF OR WHATEVER COMES TO MIND. I'M A SHITTY WRITER. SORRY