Hindi ako gumalaw. O baka hindi lang talaga ako makagalaw. I remained unmoving while staring at those jet black eyes. Kahit ang mag-react ay hindi ko magawa. Everything feels so untrue.
Maraming tanong ang namumuo sa isip ko ngayon. Sunod-sunod. Kapag may naisip akong tanong ay may susunod na namang panibago. At feeling ko ay walang magiging katapusan ang mga tanong ko.
Wala akong maramdaman na kahit na ano. Or maybe, I am feeling too many emotions that it's beginning to make me feel numb. I want to be rational. I want to understand the whole thing. Pero habang sinusubukan kong intindihin ang mga nangyayari ay mas lalo lang lumalala ang pagsakit ng dibdib ko.
And it hurts so bad. Feeling ko ay mamamatay ako sa sobrang paninikip noon. I wanted to get rid of the pain. Pero hindi ko alam kung paano.
Lollipop. I badly need a lollipop.
"You're a Knight?" I heard Archer whispered. Mukhang wala sa sarili nyang naiusal iyon nang malakas.
But L remained staring at me. His jet black eyes were getting intense with each seconds. I wanted to look away. Feeling ko talaga ay hindi si L ang kaharap ko. Feeling ko ay hindi ko kilala ang taong nasa harapan ko.
But then again, hindi ko naman talaga kilala ang L na nakasama ko.
"Tracer and Shielder are the Rooks. L is the Knight. Kier's brother is the Queen's Bishop. And Fourth said that the other Knight is with the Queen."
Napatingin ako kay Archer na parang malalim ang iniisip. He's saying something about which pieces are they. This is the confidential information that I need pero parang walang pumapasok sa utak ko.
"Then Fourth is the King." Archer continued. "Two Rooks, two Knights, the Queen's Bishop. And the King. Isa na lang ang nawawala." he looked at Aius na nakahalukipkip while learning his back on the wall. "You're the King's Bishop?"
Aius didn't say anything. He just keeps on looking at Archer. Mukhang hinahayaan nya lang ang lalaki na maproseso ang mga impormasyon.
"I'm sure that you're not a Pawn." Archer muttered. Mahina na ang boses nya nang muling magsalita. "You're a higher piece. Then you can vouch for someone's freedom."
"What? You wanted out of the game?"
Hindi agad nakapagsalita si Archer. I was amused by Aius' tone. Hindi nya iyon sinabi na parang nanunumbat na may gustong umalis sa grupo nila. He said it like he's actually suggesting it.
And it surprised me even more. Dahil sa aming taga-Red Faction, it is considered as a sin kapag may gustong umalis sa laro. No one has ever vouch for someone's freedom in our group.
Pero sa mga taga-EL Ordre, iba. They even freed their Pawn and their Rook.
Bago pa makasagot si Archer ay muling bumukas ang pinto ng kwarto. I noticed that the tension rose when another man came in. Napatayo ng maayos si Aius, ganoon na din sina Archer at Viper. Napansin ko naman na hinarangan ako ni L na parang pinoprotektahan sa sino man ang pumasok.
"Is that her?" I heard a baritone voice asked.
"Yes." L answered.
I looked up to him. L's broad and muscular back is facing me. I wanted to laugh and hit myself. I can't believe that I will feel protected in the presence of my enemy.
Tama. Kalaban si L. And we're both the same. A Knight and a tracker.
Shit lang! I wanted to know so bad who the EL Ordre's tracker is. Pero sya pala mismo ang lalapit sa akin. He was beside me pero hindi ko alam!
