I'm so doomed. Hindi ko nagawa ang utos ng Queen. Na-distract ako sa katawan ni L! I had the chance na makatakas at maging malaya sa pagbabantay nya but I blew it off! Hindi ko akalain na ipagpapalit ko iyon sa panonood lang ng katawan nya!
Nagsisisi ba ako? Slight lang. Bihira lang kasi talaga ang ganoong chance na dumating sa akin. Enki is handsome at may maganda ring pangangatawan na ilang beses ko nang nakita. Pero iba talaga yung katawan ni L. Ngayon lang nangyari sa akin na hindi ako nakagalaw habang nakatitig sa katawan ng isang tao!
I felt like a pervert. I was peeping on him. Pero naninilip ba talaga ako? It was the pool area exactly the view from the veranda of my room. Naka-swimming trunks lang sya kaya kasalanan nya!
Kagabi pa nagri-ring ang phone ko pero hindi ko sinasagot. Si Enki lang naman ang tumatawag at may palagay ako sa kung anong sasabihin nya. He's going to scold me dahil hindi ko nagawa ang utos ng Queen. Every words from her is important especially to Enki. Itinuturing nyang ginto ang bawat salita ng Queen.
But I can't ignore his call forever. I can't escape him. Worse, baka isipin pa nyang kumakalaban na ako sa Queen.
So with a groan, I answered his call.
"What happened, Alter?" tanong nya kaagad pagkasagot ko ng tawag. I never had a chance to greet him like usually do.
I sighed. "I can't really tell you."
Shit kasi! Hindi ko pwedeng sabihin sa kanya na namangha ako sa katawan ng bodyguard ko kaya hindi ko nagawa ang ipinag uutos ng Queen! He'll think of me as a fool! And I am not a fool! Isa lang akong lumalanding lollipop!
"Is it more important than the Queen's order?" Enki asked. Gusto ko sanang sabihin na 'medyo' pero pinili ko na lang na manahimik. Mabi-beast mode kasi sya fore sure.
Dahil para kay Enki, ang Queen ang pinaka importante sa lahat.
"I was in the house, Enki. Hindi ako makalabas. Nakabantay sa akin ang bodyguard ko. My computers are in the hideout."
"Then you should've find another way! You have your laptop there! You should've used it!"
"I can't, Enki! Hindi pa maayos ang security ng laptop ko!"
"Ginamit mo pa rin sana! The Queen waited for your update, Alter!"
Nainis ako like shit! Kung nasa harapan ko lang si Enki, pinalamon ko na sa kanya ang lahat ng stick ng lollipop na naipon ko!
"Kung ginamit ko ang laptop ko, para ko na ring ibinigay ang location ko sa mga kalaban! I know that the Queen is the only one who's important to you, Enki. But please, stop bitching me on my work because this is how I protect myself! Maswerte 'yang Queen mo 'cause we are here to protect her. Pero ako? I'm the only one who's protecting myself!"
Wow, shit. I'm talking back to the Bishop. A piece who's higher than me. And I wouldn't be surprised kung makita ko man si Enki na nakaabang sa labas na ng gate ng bahay namin para patayin ako.
It's just so unfair. He's only thinking about the Queen. Queen this and that. He'll do everything to protect his Queen. He'll do everthing for her. At wala syang pakialam kung may masagasang tao along his way.
But I'm trying to survive here. It wasn't easy to be a part of this game. I feel like my life is like a ticking time bomb. One wrong move and I'll be dead. So I was really careful with everything.
Hindi ko lang matanggap na walang pakialam si Enki sa mangyayari sa akin. Basta ay maging komportable lang ang Queen nya. I am an important piece too. And they wouldn't be able to work without me. I am their source of information. I am their eyes in every mission. They need me as much as the Queen
