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January 3 2020 11:11 PM

Make a wish

I wish I could be more outgoing. Give off the vibe that I'm easy to talk to.

I went to a party today. One of my old friends from high-school (who I'm still friends with) invited me. It was really nice of him. I had a good time. For some reason I just really like things that are familiar. Even if it's in a room with a bunch of people I don't really talk to, I know I recognize them from so many years of school and that comforts me. If I could have I would have fallen asleep there and I wouldn't mind. I had one drink, and the placebo effect allowed me to come out of my shell a little bit, but other than that I felt boring. I don't want to say I wish I would have drank more, because I don't know the limit between drinking and over doing it. And the last thing I needed was to embarrass myself.

But I had fun. I'm glad I went, despite the fact there were some people there that stabbed me in the back. But I was nice, and civil. I hope they respected that.

Could really go for a nice guy to cuddle with right now. But instead I'll use my pillow I guess.

Good night

-Rachel