Into The Light

Memories

"Yay! I can't wait"

"So how's your relationship with Zack, you guys have been together almost 7 months right?"

"Yep, a week and a half away from 7 months. I love him Sarah, more than I've loved anything in my whole life. He's been the kindest, sweetest, most amazing guy I could have asked for. He's been there to support me the last few months, even though I wasn't the greatest girlfriend for a while. He loves me despite my scars and flaws"

"You're beautiful inside and out. I'm so proud of you. I'm glad you haven't self harmed in a while. I hated seeing you go through that pain"

"It's been a month and a half. I couldn't have done it without you, Luke and Zack by my side. Its definitely been hard, but I'm glad I stopped"

"We are too, Luke was really worried about you,"

"Why?"

"He didn't know about your past with self-harming, and to hear that you started again broke his heart. You're like a sister to him"

"Zack was worried too, and I know he still is"

"He loves you"

"I know he does"

"Reach out to him or Luke if you need to talk, you know they'll listen and do whatever it takes to help you feel better"

"I don't want to bring back memories for Zack though. It's only been 2 and a half months since he lost his dad"

"You still have Luke and I though. We may not know the pain you've been through. But we'll sit here and listen, hug you and pray with you, we love you Lila"

"I love you guys too"

"I just texted the boys and invited them to come over,"

"Just don't mention anything to them about today being the anniversary of my dad's death. They know it's in January, but I never told them what day"

"Deal, I won't say anything. Unless you start crying. Then I'll have to explain what's wrong"

"I'll try not to breakdown in front of them"

"If you do it's okay, you shouldn't have to hide your emotions"

"I have to make myself look presentable"

"You look gorgeous Lila, don't worry about changing"

"This is what I wore to bed last night though"

"I'm wearing the same thing I slept in too. I love wearing Luke's sweatshirts. He always sprays them with his cologne before he gives them to me"

"Zack does the same thing and I love it. It helps me feel like he's right there even though I'm alone"

"They should be here any minute"

I heard the doorbell ring, "Or they're here now," Sarah and I run downstairs, I open the door and let the boys in.

"Thanks for letting us crash girls night" Luke says

"It's more fun with you here, we talked about you guys most of the afternoon anyway"

"It's true, when we're together we talk about you guys and how amazing you are"

"What do you guys want to do?" Zack asks

"We had planned to watch movies and eat junk food all night, but we're open to suggestions"

"You guys feel like going out tonight? I wouldn't mind going on a double date" Luke asks

"If we do that I'm changing. I look like I just rolled out of bed" Sarah says